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Aug. 20th, 2012 10:55 am
angelak: (Visualize)
It has been a long while since I had an opportunity to write in my livejournal. It has been dormant. A lot has been happening. So much unrecorded, but in truth I can remember all of it right now. It’s later on when the months pass that I will forget the things I no longer wrote it the LJ land. Since I last posted, I have been cast in Rite of Sol, I have become a sub teacher instead of a regular teacher at my home studio and a regular teacher at Bikram Yoga Redmond, as well as Bikram Yoga Kirkland.

My Grandma died, I am still managing my Grandpa’s funds, we as a family are also taking care of Grandpa, making sure he is doing okay. This is a challenge in and of itself.
I am happily engaged in the polyamorous lifestyle. Every minute seems filled with abundance at this point. Sometimes this is the biggest bliss point ever – and other times a plate or two that I am spinning starts to tip over and I falter. The biggest challenge at the moment is to get the YOGA for myself. I went through a phase where I didn’t teach very much for a brief month, and then it came slamming back with a vengeance. Alongside my city job, all of this does take some managing. Especially given the fact I am involved with three different studios on the eastside, among other things.
The word abundance really captures how I feel. The gratitude I feel every day for the people who I am directly involved with regularly, and the studios I “work” in. Teaching Yoga is a blessing and something that while I sacrifice my own practice at times, is entirely worth the struggles I have endured to get to where I am today. I am becoming a stronger teacher, and continue to aspire to the best verbatim Dialogue that I know how. My brother is back in the orbit of the family, and we are grateful for his presence in our family again after his isolation and soon to be ex-wife situation. We are happy. It is apparent that HE is happy, too. Recently being hit with a strange virus that claimed his voice TEMPORARILY… well, he’s struggling through that.

James is a rare gift of a person. I think that is why it bothered me so much when he was no longer a part of my life, in major part due to the spite of one woman. The good news is that while Grandma’s story was ending, she brought James back into the family as she left mortality. Both of them are very important people to the family.

I am learning a lot about the family at this juncture in time, and have been all of 2012. My role has been harried to say the least.
And the rest of 2012 is going to see a lot more Yoga teaching for me – I look forward to sharing the yoga with people all over the place, and transforming my teaching more and more and more and more.

There’s nowhere else to go, here – but up. And the people who I am able to see are so very special to me! I have the most beautiful circle of friends. While I wish I had more time for things and was further at my Deacon memorization, I also realize I have limitations. And a whole life time. We’ll see what I can do. I was starting to make progress in April, and since then life has been a whirlwind.

Needless to say, Life is Quite amazing for me right now.
I work hard. I rest just enough. I need more yoga, but I am working on that constant balance of teaching and taking and living and loving! And I am more than thrilled to be a part of the cast of Rite of Sol this year. This is something I wanted to be a part of for years.

And choosing to take care of myself first - and consciously acknowledging the people that will harbor a giving and receiving nature within friendships, relationships. Particularly in the times I needed it most. Because my energy reserves waned when some serious things were going on with the family.

And all the good stuff? Well. I worked for all of that. I'm not going to lie. Product of hard work, blood, sweat, and yes - tears!

So here it is!!!!
Growth experiences abound.



Dec. 6th, 2006 12:37 pm
angelak: (Eye)
And you realize your life has shifted when you are surprised by reactions and realize, "Wow, I'm monogamous these days so certain thoughts just no longer occur to me!"

I remember when I made realizations the opposite way. And here I am making realizations in the monogamous way.
A different friend I am IMing is mentioned why a couple of folks do not feel comfortable at OLOTEAS. "someone once told me one of the reasons they didn't feel comfortable at OLOTEAS was because it was somewhat more poly-friendly than monogamy-friendly."

Frankly, at times it is this way. I already had one thread down this subject.
Although, honestly - for me, I am secure enough in my own lifestyle that I can tell people just how it is if I need to, and I realize that just because there are folks out there who believe, or like to tell others that "poly is superior," does NOT mean I have to give a shit. So for instance, to those people who monogamously cannot handle the poly atmosphere: Get over it. lol.

It is human to blindly pronounce our own way better than others. And unless we're self aware as humans - things come off this way. Especially in larger groups.

I just was amused because one of my friends (not the one who was telling me about the person who was talking about OLO) ... surprised me. I don't think he knew I was monogamous these days! Hee hee.
Ah well. And then I had the remote thought, "ah, wow. Isn't it nice to be monogamous!" and then I realized, yeah. I'm in the right situation. My situation is low drama and that is all I care for.
Honest to gods. Anything else, anyone else? Do what thou wilt.
And really. It sounds a bit odd to hear myself say that after being in the counter-type-culture for long enough where those words are rarely uttered out of anyone's mouth. WELL here they are out of mine because I do find my current situation exactly as I want it to be.

Random: I have had more coffee because Travis ended up stopping by the office.
I am happy he has a girlfriend now and that he is having fun.
And I am also grateful for his friendship. There is no one out there quite like Travis.

angelak: (Girl needs a boy)
Wii. Wii Wii. What a ghey name. Still, fun. Some stuff. I played Wii Wii. SO WRONG! )

angelak: (My Lips)
Oooh, it is never dull for me. )

angelak: (Thoughtful Angela)
Under the cut: Deeper thinking. Grammatically flawed. Long, drawn out. Flows like chaos. )


One day...

Nov. 13th, 2006 07:01 pm
angelak: (Hold My Hand)
One day I met a soldier.
And then I saw him again.
And again and again.
And then I fell in love.
And now I know many soldiers.

Once upon a time I wondered what it would be like to know a soldier.
Like I knew it would one day become an intimate thing to me.
I just didn't think my intuition knew a damn.
But then why is it we don't always trust ourselves?
I thought:
Where would I ever REALLY run into one of these people?
As if. Incredibly unlikely, I thought.

angelak: (HairSide)
Been a great day.
Last few days.
Feeling a bit like a bar-fly lately though.

Thursday night was really fun. I think it was my favorite night so far. We went to "lady luck," AKA Cowgirl up. I knew Mike was tossed when we arrived and he greeted me with "Angela!" and a giant big-Mikey hug. I thought, "hm. Not his usual greeting for me." He was snap-happy with his camera and that was fun too. I socialized with the Tacoma crew. I was amused when a girl (Michelle) in the group said, "You and Jim have been together like forever now..." and I was like, "heh, not really." But I guess it's the longest he has had a social/visible girlfriend. His ex didn't seem much to go out with him - and was a little timid I suppose. (read: didn't leave his side much.) It made me feel good when he described her to me when I realized I’m not really like that.

With his friends I veered off to do my own socializing with the people I’ve begun to make friends with. I felt like shit on Thursday when one of the guys – Tim, described his ex-gf leaving him and then having their dog put down, even though he had it all set to donate the dog to the blind. He told me how he had all the paperwork ready and she took the dog to the pound and asked them to put it down.

I was really angry and saddened by the notion.
I talked to him for a while. Got to talk to Ray Ray also.
Anyway. After that we left to go grab food and then came home.
I fell deeply asleep, after sleepy-inducing physical stuff.

45 year old... )

More weekend updates to come.

angelak: (Hold My Hand)
Late last night right before bed at the end of Gilmore Girls.
Jim expressed extreme disappointment that we could not watch the next episode because I had to get up in 3-4 hrs.

I love that guy!
He rox.
So. Damned. Cute.
He has been BEYOND sweet to me lately. Just, wow.

angelak: (Sexy)
Yesterday was cool. Slept in late. Relaxed and messed around on my computer for a while. Got up, showered, and took Travis out for lunch. He left… and then I read for a few hours.

Jim arrived and we headed out to my parents’ new place to meet my sister and go pick up my brother. We went to our favorite little Casino “Angel of the Winds,” Casino. We got cheap food and visited and I gambled with $5 and left with $7.47.

Jim was impressed at the .99 strawberry shortcakes. And my huge-nor-mous chicken fried steak and eggs. He had a turkey sandwich. It was fun – he got to meet my sister, and spend a little bit of time with my brother. He likes my family so yeay on that.

And my family likes him too. So this is going quite well indeed!
We had a blast. Afterwards we dropped James off.
It was amazing that Melissa let him out of the house alone. My sister and I were shocked. It was the first time we had spent time with our brother in months without Melissa there. I was relieved.

I had wanted to show off my really awesome new boyfriend to him for a while – but as life had it, even without a boyfriend to show off I couldn’t seem to get him away from Melissa or get to see him at all more than 5 minutes in passing.

So this was really refreshing.
I missed him and so did Jill. And Jeff (Jill’s S-O) was sad he didn’t get to hang out with James solo.

After dropping James off we stayed at my mom’s and visited with Jill for a while until I noticed Jimmy was falling asleep. He had, after all – gotten up early to go to drill.
I drove home. He slept the whole way as my car surged through the rainy early morning. It was 3AM.

We got home and somehow in our moments of contentment and sleepiness, we had some awesome love-making. And then exhaustion hit and so did a decent sleep.
The morning consisted of more pleasantries. Yeay mornings that start off right. With really good snuggles. And. Stuff.

And then showering and then a really fun breakfast/brunch outing. 12th Ave. Café is great. We had 3 cheese Omletes. He had ham and I had sausage. THEY were good. We continued to talk about everything and nothing. What a great way to spend the weekend. He had to go to class.

I thought Ray was going to be here tonight – it turns out he will, although he is just getting into town tonight from Iraq for a few days leave. Well, I had suggested I stop by Jim’s tonight to get a chance to catch Ray-Ray. I am just relaxing and listening to the wondrous sound of the rain.

November and the dark nights and the constant flow of rain the past days. Wow, how wonderful. I cannot help but enjoy the downpours. How gorgeous could it be???

*happy sigh*

The man will be home soon and I am here.
Classy pierced through the dark, slick roads – and I am safe here for the night until morning. When I start my 3 day work week. Which will be FABULOUS. I’m stoaked. For now I think I will read some more and enjoy the weather.

I think some of the simplest things make me happy.

My swimsuit came in the mail and it fits! Yeay.
It is a bit modest, but then – I hate swimsuits anyway and it’s a workout swimsuit. So, I don’t really care. It is not thread-barren and faded. YEAY! I like it a great deal and the price was right. Now I know for next time I want Speedo’s “Classic Modern,” cut, which is the middle of the 2 styles. This one is just “Classic,” which is the most modest cut. Still, it’s great.

I have even MORE motivation to keep swimming up.
Kelsi suggested me bringing my fellas (Rufus and Fritz) to visit Ava as she is pup-sitting for her sister and bro-in law.

I am having a beer-date with herne51 quite possibly tomorrow – so I may swim on lunch most of the week to get my workout in. After all. Tuesday is probably beer night, Wednesday is the day I’d spend with Kelsi in the evening, and Thursday is PPC. Friday, it seems – I will most likely be seeing Mel at some point.

Soooo, this being said. Well, it looks like I will make it my high priority to swim on lunch perhaps Tuesday-Wednesday-and-Thursday if I can. If I make as many plans to swim (maybe even Friday – seeing as I have all of Friday off.) then if I do not swim one or two days, it isn’t that bad. I try and get in as many as I can.

So, this weeks goal is T-W-Th.
I do what I can. I am less self conscious now that my swimsuit isn’t ugly. And my co-workers that I support saw me last week on lunch. I try my best. To go un-noticed. But it’s inevitable – I’m the IT girl that everyone knows.

I cannot go anywhere in Issaquah unnoticed.
Off to go enjoy my book. If Ray-Ray doesn’t show up, I think Jimmy and I will watch some Gilmore Girls.

Yeay. Regardless.
And an early morning start tomorrow. I better get up right before 5 to get to work with as little traffic as possible.

angelak: (Daydreamer)
Today was awesome.
I woke up not wanting to wake up. I was dead tired, but after I slept past my alarm - felt bad, I got up and headed out to Burien to help my parents move.
This went fast and I was happy to see my brother. I was having trouble making myself help them move - but they didn't have that much to move. We filled the truck, went to Lynnwood, unloaded quickly, and were done. It was that fast. The parents' new abode is nice and I love the location.

Spent some time visiting with Jill and mom. Dinner was fun. Talking with Jill was fun
I am excited. Tomorrow night Jim is going to go to the Casino with my mom, Jill, and I. Cheap food and we can escape when we want. AND - he can meet my sister. This is important, because she IS important to me. Even if she's insane.

Afterwards I drove home to meet chinchillagirl for a belated Samhain Ritual.
It was small, intimate, and I really had a good time. It filled a void that I had this Samhain and I'm very glad we spent the time together this evening. We made pasta and ate some yummy corn.
Great chances to talk and catch up.
I am glad she lives close.
*happy sigh* Bed soon.
Regardless, I think our Samhain ritual was healthy and awesome and just what I needed.

And so I will go to sleep, sleep in, and then exercise somehow tomorrow.
(If only my swimsuit were here-). I could go on a weekend hike or a jog. Hm. Or try the community cneter.

So anyway.
Then Jimmy will eventually drive out here after he finishes drill.
I am excited to see him. I miss him besides me in bed tonight. Thank gods for my two kids - the two kids that have 8 legs combined.

Rufus and Fritz are my heroes.

I will have to write about how cool my date with Jim was last night at The Melting Pot!!!! Later though.
Signing out.
Goodluck and Goodnight.

angelak: (Angela Party Happy)
TODAY has been great.
I get my birthday dinner tonight! Yeay. So I will be heading Tacoma bound later tonight.
After I get out of this joint. Waaawhooo!!!

I am thinking I should change up our plans and do The Melting Pot for my birthday dinner and agree to pay part of it because I sold a piece of software and now I have more money!! Yeay.
It is also payday today, this makes me happy.
I plan on trying to spend less, in spite of my idea of splurging more on the birthday dinner. But if we go there, it will SO be worth it.

SO. I completely look forward to seeing my sweetheart.
That makes Friday even sweeter. He will be doing drill this weekend (bleh) and I will be helping my parents move this weekend. That will be fun – I get to see my mommy a lot this weekend then! I miss her :/

I would do an hour of laps tonight – although I think I am going to have to settle on 30 minutes or so at lunch. Which will be soon!!!

So. First things: Pay day happened.
Secondly: A few extra $ because of software.
This was spur of the minute planning. I was talking out my schedule with my boss – when I realized it would be more advantageous of me to actually just take a few days off.

So, this is what my schedule will look like for my days of November 18-28th not working.

18th: Friday, no work the next day
19-Saturday no work
20-Sunday no work
21-Monday, 8 hrs vacation
22-Tuesday, 8 hrs vacation
23-Wednesday, 8 hrs vacation
24-Thursday, Holiday pay!
25-Friday, Holiday pay!
26-Saturday, no work
27-Sunday, no work
28-Monday, no work – standard day off!

HAH! All that time off for 24 hrs leave out of my vacation bank.
What an awesome feeling.
And the thing is... it is almost even more awesome because it wasn't planned so far in advance, which is usually what I tend to do. *celebrates*! I ranted on coffee high to lord_andrei about this.

AND!? Next Friday is a vacation day too. So, next week is a 3 day week.
Alright, alright. And I had some awesome coffee today.
ALL of these things combined is making my Friday a beautiful day.
Oh, and Happy Anniversary to my dear friends, faerievixen2 and glitch25.
Ahhh, I love you both, yes I do!

AND I was smart SMRT - I filled my timesheet out early instead of doing it at the last minute. WAY better this way. And then I can make changes accordingly. Good deal, indeed.

Swimming now! Happy Friday to all ya'll!



Oct. 20th, 2006 07:50 pm
angelak: (Yow)
I am horny. Where's my dude?
*siiiiiiiighs* Ah, well.
We have a party to attend. :D
And very, very many of my friends are going to be there. Waaahooo!

angelak: (Dog astro)
-Snuggles with Jim
-Jim smiling at me and saying, "I love you. You think so much like me!" followed by a hug.


angelak: (JimAngelaKissing)
Weekend Updates. )

I would WoW it up - but Jesus - there is not enough time because it's ALREADY 12:30ish.
Been having ADD with typing this entry.

angelak: (Angela Green Shirt)
I know - maybe it sounds dumb and simple...
I was playing WoW and on ventrilo the other night.
And Jim was also on ventrilo playing WoW.
I asked him a question and he seemed to be a bit flippant - sounding a bit moody. I shrugged it off and made a small "jeez..." comment under my breath - but, as usual - some things are better to let go than make a big stupid deal out of.

I didn't hold it against him. About 10 minutes later he's like, "I think I need to go eat, I think I'm being grumpy." and I was like, "aw, yeah. Excellent idea, food is good." (and then I made fun of him mildly about being a WoW addict, when he said, "Hey! I ate lunch...") anyways.

He comes back after making some food and stuff and gets on Vent. "Did I tell you that I love you today?" [it was at this point I melted and became a pile of goo at my computer desk] and I was like, "aw, that's sweet, I love you too, and no you didn't." and then he said, "I love you." (I get an extra smile out of it when someone says it like that and then follows through instead of leaving it at the question - maybe overly analytical of me, but so be it.)

And then he apologized for being snappy with me.
And I was like, "damn. This guy is awesome..." and he really had very little reason to feel badly. It just made me feel good to know that he cares enough over things so simple like that.

angelak: (Yow)
Yaaarrrrr... dere be pirates in this journal! Surrender the booty...

Where da party at? )

angelak: (WTF Face Angela)
It is a good thing I REALLY love my boyfriend.
He is quite possibly the MOST absent minded man/person, I have EVER met, aside from myself.
And I think he is a bit more extreme than me.
Or else I have a lot better ways of handling my absent-mindedness.
(Obsessive documentation.)

I have heard tell he scheduled the WRONG day off work for our birthday party!
Jesus, Jim. What in the hell were you thinking?
HE WROTE it on his white board, and then assumed his room-mates changed the date to fuck with him.

NO, no, as a matter of fact, they did not. I know his roomies can be asswipes sometimes, no matter how much I like them as people too... but jeez. They wouldn't do that - hello, they want him there too.
Oh man.
Ernest was telling me Jim is trying to switch with someone.
What to do with that man???

I can relate. And yet, THIS time, I'm a bit frustrated with him.
We'll see tonight if he is able to switch.

Again. Damnit, Jim! Of course. He doesn't read my LJ. Insanely.
(Some kind of privacy clause - privacy with a PUBLIC journal??? - I think it's partial laziness. That's fine by me. Better than Khaya and his "don't write anything in your journal" frenzy.) Extremely un-Angela.

We had at least 3-4 discussions using the word SATURDAY in them, and he still somehow missed this point.
No, he isn't retarded. Just. Very. Very. Very. Very forgetful.
And there was a time I thought I seriously would NOT meet ANYONE more forgetful than me.
I was wrong.

angelak: (Roses)
Vacation Updates Vol. 2 )

angelak: (JimAngelaKissing)
Another day of class. Here I go. Last night was good. After I got home from work I napped; I was tired. I thought about hiking, although I realized a night jog sounded really neat. So I held off, and watched a couple of hours worth of Gilmore Girls instead.

After which, I made some dinner, hung out with the dogs, and eventually got around to my evening jog. After this I IMed for a couple hours and then convinced myself it was time to take a shower and go to bed.

Somewhere in there Jimmy called and mentioned he’d be heading down to Portland to visit a friend of his after his Vancouver, WA visit with his brother and his dad.
Good for him to get down there before school starts in late September, indeed.

Ahhh happy times. My body feels happy with the drill Sgt within me. It thanks me for the jog.
I cannot express that *good* feeling that I get. And it has nothing to do with my weight tracking. It has completely to do with mental and physical satisfaction OF committing to myself to be healthy.
It feels GOOD the day after I run.

I also enjoy how soft my skin gets after I am drenched in sweat. (After I shower.) It does something to my pores that I like.

Lastly. I cannot shake this incredibly happy feeling I get when I think of my fella.
I donno. This feels different. In an excellent way. I'll take it!

angelak: (HairSide)
Last night Jimmy had to go in to work for a few hours after 9ish.
It was the "opening night" release for Madden Football game. (Gamestop.)
They were having a Monday Night Madden Party event outside all Gamestops with hotdogs and a chance to play the game.

I was staying the night anyway over at Jim's place so I contently set up my WoW and started playing. He invited me along after a while and eventually I headed down there for an hour or so. It occured to me that no other time in my life would I be standing in front of a Gamestop at 11PM (the release was at midnight) witnessing a bunch of gaming football nerds...

Jim was manning the BBQ and handing out hotdogs. But what can I say. So darn cute! I have a lot to post about the weekend and yet I was busy working all day. Anyhow. I had to hurry and post of my disbelief. It was worth staying and hanging out with Jim (he was getting paid) ... even if it was a bit uneventful. And he totally appreciated the company.

The other element I had to post that made me giggle was on WoW. Here it is:

And there certainly was a timeline shift somewhere along the line.
We purposely posted that over the guild because some of the 14 year old boys on our guild were in disbelief that Maximsmortms ACTUALLY knew devilsgf IRL. OMGS. She's a REAL girl. Hah! So we took the opportunity to prove to them that I'm for real :P



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