Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags

What's New

Aug. 20th, 2012 10:55 am
angelak: (Visualize)
It has been a long while since I had an opportunity to write in my livejournal. It has been dormant. A lot has been happening. So much unrecorded, but in truth I can remember all of it right now. It’s later on when the months pass that I will forget the things I no longer wrote it the LJ land. Since I last posted, I have been cast in Rite of Sol, I have become a sub teacher instead of a regular teacher at my home studio and a regular teacher at Bikram Yoga Redmond, as well as Bikram Yoga Kirkland.

My Grandma died, I am still managing my Grandpa’s funds, we as a family are also taking care of Grandpa, making sure he is doing okay. This is a challenge in and of itself.
I am happily engaged in the polyamorous lifestyle. Every minute seems filled with abundance at this point. Sometimes this is the biggest bliss point ever – and other times a plate or two that I am spinning starts to tip over and I falter. The biggest challenge at the moment is to get the YOGA for myself. I went through a phase where I didn’t teach very much for a brief month, and then it came slamming back with a vengeance. Alongside my city job, all of this does take some managing. Especially given the fact I am involved with three different studios on the eastside, among other things.
The word abundance really captures how I feel. The gratitude I feel every day for the people who I am directly involved with regularly, and the studios I “work” in. Teaching Yoga is a blessing and something that while I sacrifice my own practice at times, is entirely worth the struggles I have endured to get to where I am today. I am becoming a stronger teacher, and continue to aspire to the best verbatim Dialogue that I know how. My brother is back in the orbit of the family, and we are grateful for his presence in our family again after his isolation and soon to be ex-wife situation. We are happy. It is apparent that HE is happy, too. Recently being hit with a strange virus that claimed his voice TEMPORARILY… well, he’s struggling through that.

James is a rare gift of a person. I think that is why it bothered me so much when he was no longer a part of my life, in major part due to the spite of one woman. The good news is that while Grandma’s story was ending, she brought James back into the family as she left mortality. Both of them are very important people to the family.

I am learning a lot about the family at this juncture in time, and have been all of 2012. My role has been harried to say the least.
And the rest of 2012 is going to see a lot more Yoga teaching for me – I look forward to sharing the yoga with people all over the place, and transforming my teaching more and more and more and more.

There’s nowhere else to go, here – but up. And the people who I am able to see are so very special to me! I have the most beautiful circle of friends. While I wish I had more time for things and was further at my Deacon memorization, I also realize I have limitations. And a whole life time. We’ll see what I can do. I was starting to make progress in April, and since then life has been a whirlwind.

Needless to say, Life is Quite amazing for me right now.
I work hard. I rest just enough. I need more yoga, but I am working on that constant balance of teaching and taking and living and loving! And I am more than thrilled to be a part of the cast of Rite of Sol this year. This is something I wanted to be a part of for years.

And choosing to take care of myself first - and consciously acknowledging the people that will harbor a giving and receiving nature within friendships, relationships. Particularly in the times I needed it most. Because my energy reserves waned when some serious things were going on with the family.

And all the good stuff? Well. I worked for all of that. I'm not going to lie. Product of hard work, blood, sweat, and yes - tears!

So here it is!!!!
Growth experiences abound.

angelak: (Hold My Hand)
Feeling a little weird today. Restless this whole week. Things definitely feel out of sorts. I don’t feel like cleaning my house anymore. That’s unusual for me, I know maybe it’s usual for some people – but not for me. I don’t feel like getting to my requests at work – but I’ve been doing it anyway. I’ve got to clean up stuff before I leave. I’m now sitting at 3 days, and I don’t know if my brain can handle this.
This morning was weird in and of itself. Went to take the dogs out on leash, half paranoid of the crap that would soon be shooting out of Fritz because the 2 dogs both have the runs for gods’knows’what reason… I’m very unhappy about this. I didn’t get around to getting a yam and feeding it to them yesterday… this better go away or Jim is going to have a rough time, especially considering we have a house guest. “Welcome to our house – oh yeah, the fact that the dog couldn’t make it down from floor #3 with his runs, we’re sorry for the shit smell.”


I’m sure I was bound to get restless and start to feel a little crazy prior to this. I know I’ll be fine, that I’m “ready,” (who the fuck knows what ready is, you know?) How can anyone ever be ready for the unknown ;) The virgo side wants to take over and figure out reality before it even manifests itself. Maybe taking the time off from yoga was a bad idea… it usually mitigates my crazy. A good run maybe tonight and I can relax. I think it’s the only way I know how to relax: working out. Some folks need video games to zone out. Some people need recreational substance… some need a good book… (that works for me too, but that is besides the point). Me, I just need to move. Or, paradoxically, in yoga… not move. Or something.

Anyways, I was taking my dogs out and from around that same damn corner of the building near the alley (there’s always a blind spot around the end of the building) strolls a dog on a leash, but pulling his leash behind him. My dogs are doing their thing, I’m holding 2 leashes and juggling it as per usual morning business in our courtyard. Amber starts barking, but the other dog really only sees Fritz for some reason. Dog decides to start lunging towards Fritz with his hackles raised. I’m feeling ready to beat the shit out of the next dog that tries to bite mine. Because that cost us $600 last time, and is generally evil when regarding a dog in pain. Which was only 2 months ago. The owner is obviously from our building apologizes. As per usual – I’m a fucking space cadet and say “yeah no worries man.”

I guess we could say I’m still a little shell shocked from last time. Particularly that he just healed from that. High density housing is beginning to grate on me this morning. I hate your fucking huge SUV cars. Fuck your baby on board stickers. Screw your big burly dogs that like to use mine as beef jerky.
I can say we do have 2 very nice next door neighbors who never give us trouble. Mike and Christina are super Christian and have one very well behaved son. I really like their little family. Mike is as nice as I could wish for in a neighbor, and he resembles me in one quality: He’s VERY observant and nosy. I’m frankly wondering if they’ll think me and Jim split after I’m gone a few weeks ;)

The other neighbors are Hispanic and hardly ever talk to us but usually are full of smiles. They have 2 little girls and never give us any problems either.

I’m digressing.
Just not sure where my head is. Was kinda spacy feeling even last night at bowling. I think I got tired faster than usual. My reserve of bouncy energy was elsewhere. No big deal – I guess adrenaline runs high in the first week at TT.
Mildly tired of my co workers at the Quah assuming I can teach yoga here for a wellness event…
No, guys. No. Come to a Bikram studio, or no. I have chosen the Bikram path, and that path came with a 12 page contract about how I will use my certification. Therefore, no. Really, the Bikram path chose me. I understand there are other forms, and I’m not quite as cultlike as some regarding bashing other forms – I think all yoga has its value. But my path is this one. For whatever reason.
I guess I’d rather be off of work and not here dealing with… well, the same thing I’ve dealt with for 10 years. Reminding myself right now: I.Am.on.The.Threshold of renewed energy for life because I am literally walking out the door on Friday afternoon and not coming back for over two months. Impressive.

In other news, I need to lay off the Nutella. That’s probably not going to help my early training visual in the mirror if I should get lucky enough to be up front. Then again, I’m at a point: who the fuck cares anymore? I need a run bad. But right now I am just lounging back all dumb like in my office chair. I don’t feel like a yogini – I feel like a sloth like fool.
Barry comes in tonight. Well, at 3 PM…
I bet he will make me feel better. He’s just like Jim in the way that he is full of smiles and laughter and usually it’s a stress alleviator.

Anyways. Trying to remind myself it’s all about the entire journey. There’s no reason to get stressed about the experience itself, but I just feel like I’m in the tail end of gray area. That holding pattern that sort of circled me around for like 4 years… well, I’m getting instructions from ground control and they’re telling me when to land, and which run way to take. I’m in one part shock that I’m landing somewhere finally.

But it’s going to be straight to a roller coaster ride, or so I hear. *shrugs* Mantra for my future today: Don’t make it a big deal. Any of it. Sometimes I feel like a ridiculous child always making a huge deal over everything. Over thinking everything. Over everythinging. Also freaks me out that I’m young and have a myriad of blind spots… what stupid shit comes out of my mouth that I am too naive to know is telling in my life inexperience?

This is what goes through my head. But maybe I should try to STFU and let go and just let the next couple of days pass. I mean, after all. 3 days. I just want to be in LA already. I’m there. I’m at the point where I’m starting to get sick of waiting. I don’t care how little of dialogue I know. I’m tired of being distracted. Tired of not knowing what it’s going to be like being tired. Yes, read that one twice.

Staying power for patience is here. Actually I’m kinda lounging back and pretending that this is all bothering me. I love my freezing office here.

In other great news, I was able to craft my 5 gallon water filter with my Dad last night. It’s awesome. While I didn’t want to have to ship anything else, this is a must item. Rather than buy a small Brita filter pitcher… one of my fellow students created a bucket system where you use 3 filters in the bottom of a bucket and it filters three times as fast, more water. His was only a 2 gallon. Mine is actually bigger… but I will only need to fill my filter once every few days, so this might really be rad. Today I’ll FedEx it to the hotel and it will be waiting for me, just in time for Monday night. My roommate will either think I’m amazing, or crazy, as I’m using the bath-tub to fill up my 5 gallon bucket of filtered water.

One last thing… I’ll miss music while I’m away. I don’t think I will spend a lot of time with tunes. In my every day life, I listen to a lot of music……. Right now my new discovery: Ellie Goulding, “Lights.”

Unless of course I listen to it on Sunday runs, if I should decide to do that. Of course, Darci from Issaquah was mentioning maybe we’d do that together on Sundays. I’ve never had a real running partner… will I ditch my ipod and socialize for that? How does that work? :P
If I decide to still go for a run at all on Sundays. It might just be over my level of crazy. We’ll see. I’ll keep you all posted.

Oh, and to the fleas that my dogs picked up in the last 2 weeks. Fuck you. Fuck you for biting the hell out of me. I’ve treated them with FrontLine. Shouldn’t this end? I hate bites.
I think I just read some stuff on the TT FB page. This grey area may be entirely normal.
I’m already beginning to freeze at my desk. This is making me despise this place today.
But in other news: Life’s good. I’m stoked. I cannot wait for … well, all of it.

There's one thing about my blogging style. It expresses just how much I hate secrets and pretenses. You want real? I got it. I hope my fellow yogis and yoginis can handle my style of real.

Annnnd. My boss is nudging me for the personal folders copying. I'm sorry - I really just don't give a shit. I've been copying files for 3 months now. If I don't get to them all - guess what? I'm leaving anyway. Did I say that? O. I said that.

angelak: (Lauren Graham Perturbed)
4 days to go. )
angelak: (Default)
9 days to go. I’m a mixed bag of sheer excitement and sheer “really? It’s happening?” I’ve been laser focused at work. Getting all of my last projects finished up, doing what I need to do. Someone mentioned I might be totally distracted next week. But I was too busy being focused to really consider that after today – I only have 1 more week here at the office until I’m officially on leave for… well, longer than I could ever have dreamed of asking for, let alone actually GETTING, let alone… Wow, it’s all very humbling in a way, as in humbling to the Flow of the Universe, to my passion here, and what I’m setting out to do. To even having this opportunity. This is something I’d read about in someone else’s blog at previous points in my life and say, “Damn, I wish I could do something nuts like that. Take off from my job. Still get paid… go learn a way to diversify my income and feed my passion, all at once…” “that stuff never happens to ME…” well, jee golly – It’s happening and it is as real as real can be. We’ll see!!!
I am happy I have half moon. I don’t have any other postures. But I have half moon…
And now that it is so close, it’s very hard to imagine that before I know it, I’ll be on that plane to LA. There is still a lot happening in my life between now and when I leave. Tomorrow, coffee with Jon G – a last minute plan. Yoga hopefully, because after house sitting for my parents for 4 days, I didn’t get to practice. Sunday I film a 9-11 remembrance ceremony with TS – this to earn one last extra bit of dough. It sure helps, seeing as I’ve had to buy way more things than I realized I would need for this. And the half of it hasn’t even begun. I’m sure I will need to get things while in LA…

So the weekend = Yoga and stuff. Jim will likely come home on Sunday and hopefully we can clean house, have one on one time together. It’s been a little hectic for him and me on that front. I’ve been so darned busy!!!
Monday and Tuesday look NICE AND CLEAR. Relief on that. I can spiff up my house, and begin doing the last bits of errands I need to do before I ship out, for real. Really getting my packing list together, stuffing it into the footlocker I intend on either shipping/mailing, or we’ll see. I wanted something I could store/hide things in from the house keeping staff. I would crack a joke about my dildo… but I really mean other appliances.

Wednesday is bowling/skating with OTO folks, woohoo. Jim will probably come this time.
Thursday morning Barry is flying in and staying until way after I leave for Los Angeles.
Friday evening we are driving to Leavenworth as soon as I get off work to spend the night with Barry and Jim. (Barry=Jim’s Dad). Spending Saturday DAY at Leavenworth, driving home for the evening.
I fully intend on having ALL OF MY STUFF taken care of Tuesday night. You read that right. Will spend quality time with Barry and Jim before SUNDAY morning.

Sunday morning I have a 9:35AM flight to Los Angeles. And it all begins.
I arrive roughly around 11:30 in LA. I cannot believe it is so close.
Today is special also – Friday. Jim is going to his 10 year HS reunion tonight – and I am celebrating a dear friends’ 28th birthday. We are having a special tea ceremony somewhere in Seattle this evening, I look forward to it.

I will say this. Sleeping in my own bed and wandering around 874 was delightful after spending a few days in Snohomish. Nothing wrong with their house… I just remember why I like the space that I have. And my bed. And my pillow… and 2 dogs. Off to go grab some lunch and finish out the day now!

angelak: (874)
All out of oatmeal at home. I figured that'd be a fun title for my entry.
It's also true.
Spent the weekend doing 1 of 2 things: Seeing Travis, Conner, Alex, and Krista - and an anonymous friend that I dragged along for health and companionship purposes, and cleaning my house.

I realized that my house isn't as bad as I kept thinking it was. I am getting closer and closer to my ideals. The panic side of me gets freaked out when it starts getting messy because I think it will undo all the progress I've made, or that I'm starting all over again.
That's not true. I figured that out sometime mid afternoon Sunday.

I am currently wishing I had music to help me write this entry. Oops. I left my laptop at home today unintentionally.

So - house is getting somewhat cleaner. Jim's mom and Grandma are coming up to Issaquah on the 29/30th. I might take the 30th off.

Steve Pavlina and his girlfriend, Rachelle, are taking a Pacific Northwest road trip and will probably be in town this weekend. I believe they want me to be their tour guide for Seattle. At least Rachelle dropped me an email a few weeks back.

Jim and I are working on connecting physically more. The overnight schedule is still sabotaging that on some levels. He is still searching for something else, although he did get word that a backroom daytime position might be open at the crappy T.

Fortunately we were able to connect on Sunday. I really needed a day in my home and not out up North, lol. Friday/Saturday were spent following around a tiny Travis-ling.
It has been amazing to be with him as his life shifts.
And as usual - we somehow manage to have deep conversations that are reserved for the right kind of person. It reminds me that I am fortunate to have stumbled into this friend. Although, I see his life isn't as stagnant as mine, and his optimism for where life is headed is rubbing off on me.

For now, I'm relaxing more about where it is all headed. Because the grip of death thinking that I should control every step in time aspect - is not the right way. Not at all.

Travis and Conner. )

angelak: (Change Stone)
Hanging out at the office. Feels so diurnal ;)
I'm out of the habit of actually updating live journal. I used to be in that habit, all the time, constantly. I think I annoyed people with all of my old posts? lol.

Now days, it's harder!!!!

Last night was super good and super lame.
Good because I did a bunch of stuff that had been piling up and I'd wanted to.
Super bad because I spent a bit of money and it limited my time with Jim considerably.
A week or two ago he had said Tony was talking about getting tickets to the Gallagher show. He's a comedian. I love comedies - and Jim mentioned it specifically regarding me going with them. The way he brought it up made it sound like I was going to get to go.

Sort of jazzed me up and I was like, "Hey look - Jim actually DOES plan cool stuff for us to do," in my head. He struggles at planning anything. I think back to our first date when he said, "errr. I'm not very good at planning stuff to do." Heh. If ever that was a fore-shadow to what years later would sort of irritate me.................

I could say Jim wasn't planning that at all - it was Tony. ;)
Most of our major interesting events were certainly either planned by me, or one of our friends.
Needless to say, he didn't tell me WHAT night, in fact never said another word about it.
Seeing as Jim's schedule has been massively fucked lately... I've been relying on the evenings to make up for the weekend that they didn't give up last weekend.

Wednesday night was nice, we hung out, ate at the brand new Subway on Front street (it opened this week) went to the cupcake shop next door where we had tiny cupcakes instead of their regular giant sized ones.
Walked the dog at the park. While I shouldn't allow Thursday night to over shadow this, I get off work on Thursday, go for a run as soon as I get off the clock, come home to shower.

He is talking on the phone with someone and I realize after he tells me, while trying to make it sound like it was "Tony's" fault ... turns out Tony couldn't have gotten another ticket - and furthermore, the show was THAT night. I was like, "what?!" So, as a Virgo... I really do not like not being with the program ahead of time. AS in - tell me what the hell is happening when, because I sort of arrange my brain around what to expect for the day. Yes, I can roll with it. But is it my preferred mode? No.

I knew if he went to this thing, I wouldn't see him the rest of the night. Or until possibly Friday night. My pet peeve was more about coming home and finding out at the last minute. After he made it sound like Tony should bear the brunt of this... he finally let me know that Tony let him know way in advance what day it was, he just forgot what day it was until today.

Now, that sort of things DOES annoy me. More than re-arranging my brain around an evening by myself. (AT first I was super bummed). Ugh. He spent like 15-20 minutes talking about Tony this and Tony that. Finally - the truth leaked. And he saw that maybe he should take responsibility for the whole thing. I knew intuitively that it wasn't just Tony springing this on him. It was Jim springing it on ME.

Blah. I am a bit of an extremist. I began to think, "this is how he manages every aspect of his life!!!!"
It is probably why he is seldom upset - he really lives in the Now more than a lot of folks. He is not thinking about the future or the past nearly so much.

That's a bonus: He is a buoyant optimist.
It's a drawback: He sucks at planning, thinking ahead, or even pondering backwards.

While I think it is bad to constant be planning - and referencing the past....... doing it to some degree is handy!


I sort of just bailed at that point. I'm not batting 1000 with inter-personal relationships lately.
I'm sort of striking out. What used to come natural - (being social, responding to requests, wanting to put a lot of effort into fixing/keeping things smooth) is getting a bit difficult lately. I just don't want to deal with people - leaving me largely solo in many ways. I guess that's alright... I mean, I'm causing it largely. So - I bailed without saying goodbye. I was just like, it's going to annoy me for him to come try and be sweet as he left to his stupid comedy show to have a good time.

I think it's easier to be independent when you have a social life. I don't.
I don't even know a damn thing about what's going on with OLOTEAS this weekend.
When and Who stole my old life and shat all over it? I'm curious!??! Oh wait. That was me. I stole my life and shat all over it.

So, the evening ended up being okay, after I did some cool things like facial relaxation and eye movement exercises in my car in a random parking lot. It worked better than I thought.
Also been experimenting with arch angels as guides for the moment. I don't even care if they're real or not, at this point imaginary friends are starting to look more and more enticing, opposed to my solo-lonely-life experience.

I went to Sports Authority to buy the UnderArmour shirt I've been wanting (a second one, I bought another one a month back and have really liked it for running and stuff as right now I'm not feeling uber confident about running sans-shirt in only the sports-bra). I'm getting there though!!!! This week I have been trying really hard with the food balancing and succeeding really well!!! Just in time for Lubbock next week, where I hope I can find control over there.

Found a couple of new shorts (I had to buy ALL new shorts). I am trying to buy stuff that I can wear baggy when the time comes here, as I return to my usual smaller state, lol.
Found a shirt that said YOGA inside a heart. A little tighter than my lacking confidence mind wants right now - but I bet it will continue to fit great as I do shrink. Trying to spend my money and still be able to use this stuff as I shift gradually to my pre-April self.

I then was pretty hungry for dinner. So I went home and made myself a tuna melt with an orange smoothie for dinner (the 4.5 mile run caught up to my stomach at that point). Happily ate my meal, and then finally got out to the nail place to get a pedicure. I hate spending cash on pedi's, but I love it at the same time. And they DO last a long time on the toes, opposed to the fingers, which chip and suck within a few days!

Found a place still open, and had a very relaxing pedicure. I chose a color I usually don't choose: bright pink. I am really grooving on it, also. It felt SO good after that run to go to this place, where they took more care than some other places I've been to, to do a calf/foot massage. I was thinking to that asian girl who was my best friend for 30 minutes (my nail lady) "Could I just take you home and you can do this every time I come home from a run? Please????? I have a room! You can stay for free!!!" hahhaa.

It was getting late at that point. Almost 9. After that I went to Fred Meyer to pick up Jim some new socks. I've been wanting to do this for a while. None of his sock match, he rarely wears matching socks and nor does he care. Also his socks are all super old, have holes, and generally suck. Lucky for me they had a buy 2 get 1 free sale, so I bought him 3 packs of Nike Ankle socks. He likes those the best (me too) and they're all the same white, same style, same everything. So, as I find old socks, I am throwing them out 1 by 1. There will be no more gross boy socks in the house.

It always amazes me when I buy mansocks ... how big they seem. All of mine seem so small comparatively.

So, he is now sporting a total of 18 pairs of fresh socks. Left them on his computer chair (he is addicted to social media and video games). He will come home anytime (probably like 30 minutes ago) and discover the expensive new wealth. Nike ankle socks aren't cheap. Fortunately for the moment, I'm still rolling it in?

After the sock expedition, where I also found jewelry 50% off - which enabled me to get a new chain for the one that had broken for my runner pendant - I headed home to my books, where I read until I fell asleep. I was super tired by then.

Only to awake and come back here. To the most boring place on the planet. My office.
Happy Friday! I have a 10:30 chiropractic appointment with my guest chiropractor (my chiropractor is out taking his wife (the owner of my yoga studio) to chemotherapy for her newly diagnosed breast cancer.

So shitty.
My warmest blessings to Annette and her family. :(
They are 2 people who have influenced my life in such amazing ways.
I hope Annette comes through this, and makes it out stronger on the other side. :(

Other random bits: I have been taking shots of Apple Cider Vinegar with glasses of water (it tastes nasty) for this week. I mostly just saw it shown in a video by one of my favorite inspirational women right now: Rainbeau Mars - as a good sports drink.

After using it a bit, I noticed 2 things: appetite suppressant. It's making my psoriasis go away.
For real. I take between 3tsp-2tbsp depending on my mood before each meal. Ish. It's been rather casual, not like a anal retentive thing. It is making that crap on my elbows vanish quicker than anything!!!!
I think there has been something off kilter in my body for a while. I have a very strong suspicion that this is setting it back into balance. This all by accident. Later I googled the stuff, and found out there were so many benefits to it, including aid with weight loss.

I was like, "really? Okay!!!!!!!!!!!!!" hahaha.
So if I can get rid of the psoriasis on my elbows, I will be a happy camper. I had never had it until about 9 months ago or so. Then one day I was stretching on the grass after a run and my elbow scraped against a dry spot in the grass and that seemed to irritated it. From then on, I slowly developed small/minor psoriasis on my elbows. First one side, then the other. Then every time I got uber stressed (which is a lot lately) it would flare up. It would ALMOST go away if I was relaxed for several days.

Sooooo yeah. I am noticing that I tend to retain less water with this stuff, and am seeing a different in my digestion. Like, a positive difference. So, even though it tastes bad, is definitely bad for the teeth - I am way too stoked. The elbow bumps are 80% gone, and it has only been under a week of actual consistency with the ACV. I can imagine if I keep it up, I'll continue to see them vanish.
And if it helps me shrink some too with easier digestion... I'll take that too.

Again. Happy Friday.



Nov. 3rd, 2005 07:48 am
angelak: (Sunset)
Some rambling. )
Nobody is very crazy.


I should...

Oct. 8th, 2005 02:50 pm
angelak: (Mystery In You)
I should leave to go see Serenity and do dinner with Khaya...
I haven't had my bikeride yet though.
Hm. I guess I should hurry and go for that bikeride before it gets too late!!!
I suppose it doesn't have to be far.
I know I'll be happier once I do that!

Eh. Once I get going I'll be glad I did.

angelak: (Yow)
I read my LJ and find 2 erotica pieces posted by different folks.
Alrighty then.
Of course, I can't help but READ it.
Thanks you 2. It was entertaining.



Oct. 5th, 2005 02:53 pm
angelak: (HairSide)
I feel pretty today. Yeay.

Too bad I won't have time for a bikeride before bed!
Last night's bikeride felt good!
Maybe I'll do it after rehearsal.

What's this? Rehearsal? Maybe I've missed group ritual work more than I realized. We shall see, now shan't we?
I love "The Secret Garden."

OH - and also. Trying to get more user icons. [Upload that is].
Let me know whether you think the new ones are cool or lame.
Honest opinions rock. Even if you say, "wow you look dopey!"



Sep. 26th, 2005 09:17 pm
angelak: (Angela Fritz Puppy Snuggly)
Maybe slowly - stuff will make sense.
I feel okay today.
No angst here.
Feels like a first.



Sep. 20th, 2005 08:16 pm
angelak: (Visualize)
No. Just needing some space.
I was supposed to exercise.

I've stayed at work until now. Chatting on my laptop.
Oh well.
Too lazy to unplug the laptop to walk across the street.
Pauliepie talked to me online today. It felt so good.
I miss chatting with him.

It was insightful.


So --

Sep. 13th, 2005 06:04 pm
angelak: (Default)
So, why didn't I think of my tarot deck sooner, in times of insanity?

Wonders never cease.

Perhaps life isn't so bad after all.
Step by step.

angelak: (Attitude)
So, I filmed the last Concert on the Green last night.
This Concert wasn't originally scheduled. It was for relief efforts in New Orleans, to help raise funds. A bunch of bands got together and donated time, merchandise and money, and put on one last show for the summer.

It was odd because due to the fact they were figuring more folks would be coming [more did, I think-], I didn't have my picnic table. This wasn't so bad, because I was closer to the stage. Like, right IN FRONT of the stage. Although this had its benefits, I also happened to be right next to the large speakers. This posed issues listening to Tim's directions - though I managed, until he got overly excited and raised his voice [he likes to yell when he gets freaked out about directing, it's grand.]

Anyhow. This concert started earlier and let out later. Tim had planned on buying us all pizza and beer for how well the crew ran this year. Apparently last year he had quite the stressful time getting his people together. This year, we were all pretty cohesive.

So, though I was pretty tired from my busy weekend and a 13+ hour day, we went out. [I was starved.]
Sleep was a good thing when the time came.

And here I am, to begin another day of work.
Though, this is my last day in for the week, and I am leaving early to check out an Ice Skating open house in Everett Events Center. And the rest of my week? Vacation.

It will be nice to spend some time on the DL and recoup after too much liquor and fun.
Oh - Yeah.
My laptop gets shipped out today, the seller said.
OH - one last thing. The concert, in 3 1/2 hours, raised $20,000.
I was duely impressed. To put that into perspective: Bumbershoot in three days raised only a little more than that.

angelak: (My Lips)
"Not lookin for kids, so who needs to marry young?"


angelak: (Break my heart)
I have become addicted to chatting again.

Onwards my life goes.
I need to be locked in a room. With no one else except for me.
That is. After my social festivities later this week.


Net Down

Aug. 26th, 2005 01:40 pm
angelak: (Virgo)
So King County was having trouble - so the net was down here for a couple of hours.
Lame ;)

Somehow I will let the sands of time sweep me away and process as I go. What the hell.
And one day - all the stuff on my mind will just be a memory - no matter where I end up.
So that is that.

I'll fret when emotion overcomes me like it has been - and when I can let go of those emotions, I'll carry on. That is just how it is.

Conclusion of the day:
I'm going to live in today as best as I can.
Sometimes, for me, that is impossible. I don't, won't and can't ignore the past.
I refuse to, and if anyone tells me to drop it - they can go suck on lemons.

Though I personally realize I do dwell more in the past than I should at times.
In a way, I feel that this is my perogative, despite the fact it may not always be healthy.

*shrugs* Am I stubborn? Yes. :/



Aug. 24th, 2005 09:59 pm
angelak: (Can't Run from Problems)
Don't let the echos of the past make earthquakes of today.

Let be.

And don't be afraid.
To be afraid.

angelak: (Pretty Dolphins Heart Shaped)
I have 5 minutes to finish my yogurt.
Thank gods I remembered the meeting I have at 9:30 with someone.

angelak: (2 Dogs)
My inbox is continually empty.
I want e-mail.
If you're bored: Click HERE to Mail me!



angelak: (Default)

April 2016


Most Popular Tags


RSS Atom

Style Credit

Page generated Sep. 23rd, 2017 12:26 am
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios