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Now it just takes courage to stay patient, strong, and remember that I can do anything.
Morning routines.
Coffee.
Work.
More work.
Re-center at the desk.
It's Friday.
I'm feeling very high today. I guess Yoga has got me back into reality again? I'm not sure. It was a moderate class, which probably means it was a good class.
Laurel was teaching. There were a number of new students again – and when we got to the first balancing posture, she asked if I would be her example.
When people ask me to do things, I almost always say yes before I think twice about it ;)
I'm a volunteering foo, after all. My entire scholastic life this was true. What can I say? I should have been a Leo, I love spotlighting in the right circumstances. (Only in the right circumstances, honestly.)
So, I held a perfect posture for the class to observe. It must be because she knows I don't bend my knees, and I didn't fall out while everyone was watching. Of course, then we did the posture for real and I was like, jeez. I'm falling all over myself NOW. Haha.
Oh well. I think I'm getting frighteningly close to kicking out without falling out. I kicked out before but I never held it. I think there's fear attached. When is there not fear attached with limitations in Bikram yoga? It's like the mind is so limiting sometimes. I still felt really good about my practice. I rested once or twice, but I didn't let that bother me. I think it has more to do with my food choices than anything else. Perhaps I'm going too light on my meals. Whatever the case, I think I am working through my issues again. That's fine. I feel motivated to go to class tonight and see what the yoga has to offer me. I'm really excited. I always feel this way at this time of the day, but around 7:30 when I head out, it is hard to get out the door.
I guess by 7:30 I'm just wishing I could have done it earlier ;)
I meet with my sister this weekend on Sunday to do a free session of Bikram for her. Her first class. They're doing a special. If anyone wants to come with me on Saturday sometime, please let me know. It's free this weekend as a Valentine's day special. I'd love to get Jim to go but I think they'd make him pay because he's been to the studio before.
This week I feel like my knees are definitely shifting towards the better. Let me lay this out:
Right knee was my initial injury.
Left knee happened a few months after my initial right knee injury.
Right knee is better than the left knee now because I think it is further in the recovery process.
Right knee feels nearly normal today. Left knee feels much better than it has in weeks.
Sometimes my body threatens to feel normal for moments at a time.
Sometimes the mental shock of this makes me want to cry. And not in a bad way. And then I realize that maybe my dreams aren't so far away. Now it just takes courage to stay patient, strong, and remember that I can do anything.
Why is that so scary?
I might write more later.
-Angela
Coffee.
Work.
More work.
Re-center at the desk.
It's Friday.
I'm feeling very high today. I guess Yoga has got me back into reality again? I'm not sure. It was a moderate class, which probably means it was a good class.
Laurel was teaching. There were a number of new students again – and when we got to the first balancing posture, she asked if I would be her example.
When people ask me to do things, I almost always say yes before I think twice about it ;)
I'm a volunteering foo, after all. My entire scholastic life this was true. What can I say? I should have been a Leo, I love spotlighting in the right circumstances. (Only in the right circumstances, honestly.)
So, I held a perfect posture for the class to observe. It must be because she knows I don't bend my knees, and I didn't fall out while everyone was watching. Of course, then we did the posture for real and I was like, jeez. I'm falling all over myself NOW. Haha.
Oh well. I think I'm getting frighteningly close to kicking out without falling out. I kicked out before but I never held it. I think there's fear attached. When is there not fear attached with limitations in Bikram yoga? It's like the mind is so limiting sometimes. I still felt really good about my practice. I rested once or twice, but I didn't let that bother me. I think it has more to do with my food choices than anything else. Perhaps I'm going too light on my meals. Whatever the case, I think I am working through my issues again. That's fine. I feel motivated to go to class tonight and see what the yoga has to offer me. I'm really excited. I always feel this way at this time of the day, but around 7:30 when I head out, it is hard to get out the door.
I guess by 7:30 I'm just wishing I could have done it earlier ;)
I meet with my sister this weekend on Sunday to do a free session of Bikram for her. Her first class. They're doing a special. If anyone wants to come with me on Saturday sometime, please let me know. It's free this weekend as a Valentine's day special. I'd love to get Jim to go but I think they'd make him pay because he's been to the studio before.
This week I feel like my knees are definitely shifting towards the better. Let me lay this out:
Right knee was my initial injury.
Left knee happened a few months after my initial right knee injury.
Right knee is better than the left knee now because I think it is further in the recovery process.
Right knee feels nearly normal today. Left knee feels much better than it has in weeks.
Sometimes my body threatens to feel normal for moments at a time.
Sometimes the mental shock of this makes me want to cry. And not in a bad way. And then I realize that maybe my dreams aren't so far away. Now it just takes courage to stay patient, strong, and remember that I can do anything.
Why is that so scary?
I might write more later.
-Angela