On thoughts...

Yikes.
Midnight.

Things feel more open and yet so fragile.
Open always feels better.
Life is fragile, though.
Vulnerable and fragile.
Thanks, Mercury in Retrograde - for (and) reminding me that I can be a huge pussy.

About the mundane:
Want to write a paper anyone?
*shakes her head, and sighs* Damnit.
I wish I just blow it off. The paper.
My brain isn't as motivated as it was 45 minutes ago.
Fuck.

-Angela

I give up!!!

I don't have any motivation for this.
I seriously. Want to not write this.
I give up, I give up, I give up.

I suck and I should never have gone back to school.
This whole quarter has been the shittiest school experience I've had to date.

FUCK IT FUCK IT FUCK IT.
:X
Why do I have to suck today?
Better luck tomorrow.
Or the next day or the next day.

-Angela

Public pep-talk.

I can write at least a C paper.
I can write at least a C paper.
I can write at least a C paper.
I will not blow this off.
I will not blow this off.
I can do this. I can do this. I have most of the work done.
I have most of the work done.
I am fabulous.
I am awesome.
I am great.
I am a writer.
I can do this.
I can do this.
I can do this.
I will do this.
I will do this.
I will be relieved when I am done.
I will eat fattening ice cream when I am done.
I will do this.
I will do this.
I am great.
I am fabulous.
I am awesome.
I will not blow this off.
I will not blow this off.

*sighs*
I really am going to do this.
I have plenty of time.
I am tired, and a bit wonky, but I can do this.
I CAN DO THIS.

-Angela

Hm

Wow.

Virgo:
The ancient Greeks had words for love that transcend our usual notions, writes Lindsay Swope in her review of Richard Idemon's book Through the Looking Glass. Epithemia is the basic need to touch and be touched. Our closest approximation is "horniness," though epithemia is not so much a sexual feeling as a sensual one. Philia is friendship. It includes the need to admire and respect your friends as a reflection of yourself--like in high school, where you want to hang out with the cool kids because that means you're cool too. Eros isn't sexual in the way we usually think, but is more about the emotional gratification that comes from merging souls. Agape is a mature, utterly free expression of love that has no possessiveness. It means wanting the best for another person even if it doesn't advance one's self-interest. The phase you're currently in, Virgo, is providing you with opportunities to explore the frontiers of at least three of these kinds of love.

Hm.
It hurts. My brain. Back to the paper writing.

-Angela

Paper

My paper is completed.
Now I go get ice cream, and then head off to class so that I can print it.
Dad's printer has no more ink.
My paper was supposed to be 10 pages.
It's 20 pages.
Oh, well.
I can't do anything about it's over-lengthy-ness.
*sighs*

ICE CREAM!!!!
Which obligates me to go to the gym tomorrow.

-Angela