Friday!

[angelak]

TGIF.

Luckily I have plans this weekend.
I'm bummed that I cannot celebrate Khaya's 49th birthday with him.
That's okay.
And luckily it is the same weekend as Ryan's birthday. (Ryan turns 22 on January 30th, Khaya is 49 on January 28th.)

I would go to OLOTEAS, except that I do want to show Ryan that I care.
I will not be drinking this weekend - especially in Bellingham.
I need to be emotionally stable before I drink anything more than a glass of wine or two.

Thank gods I've learned a bit about this in the past 6 months. When NOT to drink.
Even if I "Think" I'm okay.
Slippery slope to sadness, and I'd rather pass.
Leaving work early because the boss said I could. I just figured I should enter a post before I leave to take my weekend.
Lianna and Roland arrive tonight.
I will give them a key to my place so that they may crash this weekend.
And then on Saturday when they are off at their event; I'll be off with Kelsi surprising Ryan with a visit.

I do love that boy (Ryan.)
Tomorrow should be moderately busy.
I also get to meet up with moshker tonight.
Netdesk classes.
Oh.My.Gods.
Haha.

At least I have some things to look forward to.
Duking it out with aroidan in some ways.
We are butting heads.
I am glad I have made my personal decision about where I want that relationship to go.
I just wish he understood my request to lay off on the touchiness.
It makes me uncomfortable when he is touchy feely. And I really DO NOT need to deal with that crap.

*sighs* Whatever.
The man just doesn't notice when he's being pushy.
And when I describe that - he tends to find some reason why he does that.
Justifying that he acts certain ways with "his other female friends," is not okay.
I am not his other female friends. I am Angela.
*shrugs*
Our MSN conversation got cut off. It feels unresolved a bit.

Oh well.
Our outside network switch needed reset.
And then he was offline.
Maybe it's for the best. Less stress.
Tonight is about relaxing.

-Angela

Comments

[aibas.livejournal.com]

hugs to you--and good for you for maintaining your boundaries! is tough, but if you don't, you can't expect others to for you. :)

[moshker.livejournal.com]

I didn't see this post until today! So much for not drinking! Heh. Thanks for having me over! :D

Stufff

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

I'm surprising myself. I feel a lot more emotionally stable than I have in perhaps a few months.

I was merely trying to avoid turning into the bawling, crying, mental breakdown, drunk that I had experiences being in the recent past.

There are times when I get sad about stuff, but mostly, I feel a bit more grounded, so I changed my mind about the not drinking part. More over, at 1:30-2AM on Saturday, I really decided I was okay.

And I proved to myself that - yeah - I was okay. hehe. I just didn't want to, like I said, become a pile of goo.
Thanks for hanging out. It was FUCKING awesome. Okay, maybe just awesome, because you know there was no fucking going on. lol. Roland-Brent and all. Just kidding.

-Angela

Maybe...

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

Maybe intallics mean that it was opposite day.
Just kidding.
I had a bad feeling about typing that.
hrm.

-Angela