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angelak
You belong in Stranger in a Strange Land. You are
an alien amongst your own kind. Your wisdom
is recognized by few, and your awesome power
is balanced by your boundless love.
Which Heinlein Book Should You Have Been A Character In?
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What else to share of the day? Work?
Lack of IM?
The power went out last night, so when I came home from class, it was very dark.
I typically love when the power goes out. But this time there was absolutely no one to share it with. It seemed a whole lot less fun than previous times.
Excessively long phone conversation with nobody was good.
Clogged sinuses suck.
I hate sounding... clogged.
I want the freakin' DSL modem to show up so I can hurry up and ensure that I can access my wifi from the office.
Mecury is in retrograde. Maybe I should pay attention to this stuff.
A lot of folks say not to plan parties when Mecury is in retrograde.
Yikes, too late.
Mine is on the 11th!
What else? Felt a bit melancoly last night in general. Might be related to a stupid cold and my period on the same week.
Bleh. Though - it's Thursday, and soon it will be Friday.
So far, I'm planless Friday. That isn't so bad. Yet. Typically, these weeks - things seem to fall into place ON Friday.
I'd go clubbing again except it seems that my body would be upset with me.
In general, today I'm feeling in good spirits. Though, last night I started feeling weird about life in general.
Where am I really headed?
I hate not knowing where I am headed. As long as I have goals, I'm comfortable. Right now, it doesn't feel like I have my typical goals.
Even though in the day to day things feel fine - some moments I feel a little let down on a deeper level.
I think it has to do with the "goals," issue.
Work, School, Home, and Relationship wise.
Patience, anyone? I need some.
I don't know what I mean by all this. I'm having trouble with words, would you know it.
Maybe I just feel disconnected in general without my IM.
Without cheerful discussions with mom mid-week, or Joshua, or Cristin.
If I stop thinking, I'll feel normal again. Honest.
-Angela
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Date: 2006-03-02 06:18 pm (UTC)I noticed you haven't been on! :(
Date: 2006-03-02 06:54 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-02 06:54 pm (UTC)As for the goals thing your long term goals and plans will become more self evident as time goes on. You already have some school plans although which path you go on isn't really decided yet.
You are just at a time where it is going to be good for you to look around and see what is out there. Stop to smell the roses as opposed to being driven towards your destination. I know that can be a weird feeling though. You have lots of friends that you can turn to for advice if needed. Patience is definately a virtue, one that you are learning and getting better with as time goes by.
-Steve
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Date: 2006-03-02 07:23 pm (UTC):)))
Date: 2006-03-02 07:58 pm (UTC)That's so sweet :)))
Yeah! Call me sometime, fr00t.
No, I am waiting for my DSL to get hooked up, and currently on the outside network for work - IM/Email is blocked.
Jeah. My DSL modem should be here today. The first one they sent on Tuesday was bad, so they had to send me another one.
-Angela
Re: I noticed you haven't been on! :(
Date: 2006-03-02 07:58 pm (UTC)Jeah. My DSL modem should be here today. The first one they sent on Tuesday was bad, so they had to send me another one.
*sighs*
-Angela
Stuffs :)
Date: 2006-03-02 08:05 pm (UTC)It isn't a "weird," feeling, so much for me, as an entirely "aggravating," feeling.
I. Hate. It.
Advice? I'm not sure advice is what I need.
-Angela
Though ---
Date: 2006-03-02 08:10 pm (UTC)I'm just. Not so adjusted to this.
Etc. etc. etc.
Anywho.
Tally, ho.
Hope your day is going awesome.
Congrats again on your job.
I'm very proud - though I'm not at all surprised. As I said - I knew it would happen. It was just a matter of when.
;)
-Angela
!!!
Date: 2006-03-02 11:36 pm (UTC)Yeay!
-Angela
Re: Though ---
Date: 2006-03-02 11:42 pm (UTC)You have a degree (albeit only an AA)
You have a well paying secure job.
You are living comfortably with all kinds of toys.
You just got out of serious relationship.
There are lots of ways you can take your life currently and no one way is neccissarily the right way. Do you become a writer, or stay with the tech field? Do you paint your walls green, or buy a cool fabric and hang it? Do you suck up the lousy math so you can do the stuff you truely enjoy? Do you get to a point with math that you are comfortable enough with it that you actually enjoy it? There are all kinds of questions like this now and unlike the days of the past the answers really aren't as cut and dry.
So that is why I say you need to stop and smell the roses. Don't make a decision on one path or another. Try out a bunch of different paths. The one that is most suited for you will make itself evident as you try stuff out. Take some writing classes at BCC and see how you like them. Take pride in all that you have accomplished at your age as well. You have the rest of your life to travel the path you choose. You can afford to take 6 months, a year, maybe even 2 years or more to explore the possibilities of all the viable options afforded to you to find your path.
Adjusting to it just takes time. And patience is something you will learn along the way. It may take a while, but you have already begun to make great strides in becomming more patient compared to how you used to be.
Ohh and my day is going great :) And I knew I would get here eventually as well I am still just a little shocked on the timing :)
-Steve