So many things to update with

[angelak]

The blog update continues.
Here goes. There’s a lot.
Today at work I was busy X100.
Crisis: Mac decided to inform us we need the two new police cars set up by Salmon Days. That is this weekend.

Tuesday, I have one and a half of the new car laptops finished. I need the ORIs associated with my IP addresses, I hope Julie takes care of that with state link because rover for car 159 is ready and I am, like I said, mostly done with the lappy for rover 161.

Whatever. I get to get finger printed for the police. This is because we are getting some of the federal computer systems and they want us tracked and re-background checked. Fine with me. I have yet to be fingerprinted in our big ole system. Goodie goodie gumdrops.

I have realized I am failing at my steep fitness plan.
I’ll be trying harder. The 3 lbs less that I supposedly have are better; I just need more hour long exercise sessions. The hiking on the weekend could be good to provide the 2 hr vigorous – although I cannot anymore guarantee at this time that I can make that happen.

So it’s going to have to happen during the week.
My new options, as the weekday hiking is going to be impossible as of another couple of weeks are:

-Swimming
-Walking
-Ice skating
-Hiking
-Biking
-Elliptical trainer
-Weight lifting
-Jogging

For overall options, these are good to have written down.
I will begin the all-intensive hour long lap swims again. The ones I used to do 2 years ago. These are always an intense workout – and this week, for the first time in 2 years… it sounds more desirable. I found one of my old crappy speedo-lap swimming swimsuits (blah swimsuits, can’t I just go nekkid *sighs*) anywayz. I should have bought one at Costco this season and I did not. Alas I go in an old nasty. Whatevah.

I plan to take up these things more actively and make it a higher priority.
And if I need to, I can take this up at Jim’s apartment complex. I will make it happen.
I need this. I need to get back to my usualness.

On the flipside, tonight before swimming (which I will leave to do in 45 minutes, in order to get it over with ASAP)…

I am re-installing my crappy 700MHZ desktop machine. For random-usage.
It’s a pile but whatevah. Needed a re-install.

I am currently pounding away on my dear sweet laptop.
In other work news: I have an 8:30 meeting in Olympia to learn more about Vista and Office 2007.

I hope I can find a way to work it in so I can stay in Tacoma – and also figure out what to do about my boys? Shit.
I definitely felt refreshed with independence of my hiking and spa-ing.
I forgot my gift certs, consequently meaning I have to go again. Oh, shoot – this pains me (uh huh).

So, anyhow.
Time to amp it up on the exercise, I’ve got 7lbs to go and I need to re-align my exercising again so it is more regular. I am a lot happier when I do this. I’ve now gotten to know Jim pretty darned well and I think I can afford to balance things out again. (Not saying there still isn’t a TON more to learn about him and that I don’t absolutely adore spending my time with him, however - I know to love myself this is what I need.)

I am Angela the Athletic. That is just how it is. I may not appear your standard, teenage-twig on the street, but I sure have some endurance that I am proud of.
I’m a nature fr00t and I love my hiking trails, and I love that I can go up hills and run around and do all that. I also enjoy my own figure. Call it vanity, and I know I’ll never be that insane twig – it is just that I have a very narrow standard. I like to have a benchmark and I do not feel like anyone has the right to tell me what is what about my benchmark numbers.

If I am not allowed to tell people to put down their cheeseburger and fries and get off their asses, they are not allowed to tell me when to stop being motivated for being active.

Tasty food may be the drive of some, and for me – I love tasty food AND that feeling I get from working myself into a drenching sweat.

I’ve gotten some shit in the past year for my antics. And if I write about it in my blogs, it is because it’s how I raise my energy of focus. And so all ya’ll who make me out to be some anorexic, insane, neurotic – bitch about my weight-control, well here’s a little suggestion to play hide and go fuck yourself.

Errr.

Yeah, you can tell I’ve had it with justifying my blogging style.
ON the flip side, I often browse a site, (I have 3 blogs, one happens to be OD) and it gives me perspective on reading how many other young women face the same perception issues regarding weight and body image.

I’m not sure what to think of it.

Some are sounding like healthy goals – and yet so many others, are not. I am incensed to think of the pains these women go through in very unhealthy fashions.

I do not starve myself.
I mostly exercise and cut my diet down to shrink my stomach and hit the reset button long enough to eat normal again.

It always happens that slowly over time, I eat more and more and more, and then my stomach is always hungry for more.
I’ve been experimenting with this lifestyle adjusting since I was 17.
Food consumptions verses exercise. I know it is a healthy expectation to lose 1-3lbs a week (more likely 2 is common for my body type.)

Anything else is unhealthy.
Anyways.

I’d like to announce I am forever conflicted at reading others’ and their weight trials.

ONWARDS.
I will have plenty of time tonight to get home, shower, have my modest dinner (I will be hungry and boy will it feel good!) , and then sit on my lazy ass and play some good old fashioned WoW before bed with my sweetie. On Vent. Where I can luxuriate in how damned sexy his voice is. HAH HaH Hah! I get like 20,000 gold stars.

Oh, and oh! I got my oil changed yesterday and the 7,500 mile checkup on Classy.
I have 8,300 miles on my poor 2006 vehicle. OOOOH but I am so in love with Classy. And so Classy is clean and black and shiny again, (not dirty and sappy from Jimmy’s complex) annnnd… yeay clean oil.

I spent some time with my mom and we also went to Bellevue Square where I picked up my independence ring that I got stretched. I am now happily wearing it on my left middle finger, and it looks like it got a face lift. Shiny, clean and new!

Omgs omgs omgs!
See? I’m okay again. Thank gods.

AND – from now on, I duplicate post as often as possible on both LJ and myspace. And.

On A separate NOTE…

My calendar for the month of October looks like this:

October 4: DOI Rehearsal
October 5: Olympia work 8:30AM meeting
October 7: Salmon Days Parade Coverage
October 8: Salmon Days festival still in backyard
October 10: Swimming and then beer night with Evan
October 20: Mel’s Bday Celebration. Dana’s party. Ack!
October 21: Street Magicks/DOI
October 22: Street Magicks/Hang out with some adored ones.
October 27: Drive to Vancouver with boys & Kelsi, party harty!
October 28: Hang out with boys and Kelsi in Vancouver
October 29: Drive home from Vancouver – recover.

The weekend:
Friday, dinner with KLC – good wine.
Saturday, hike, spa, and late night drive to Tacoma. The boy expressed he was concerned when he only read what I wrote on my myspace blog. It indicated I was upset and wasn’t going out to Tacoma at all. Awesome boyfriend expressed concern and asked my best friend about how I was feeling and how he wished he could get a hold of me and also make me feel better. (My phones were dead.)
Sunday, lovely time with awesome boyfriend. AKA Jim.
Hung out with Kelsi, Mike and Jim.

Kelsi and I both agree we like the dynamic that the 4 of us have.
We drank.
Got snockered. Good natured boyfriend was very patient with me.
He never gets mad at me for getting drunk – even if it occasionally hits the point of being a little too drunk. This is a relief. I still harbor some fears around this.

Woke up, relaxed around the apartment. Left and drove to pick up mom and get oil changed and grab independence ring.

Went home after dropping mom off, played some WoW and went to bed feeling loved.
Yeay.


-Angela