$6.50 and getting out of the house on a Thursday.

[angelak]

Last night broke up the monotony. I wanted to go up Tiger, but then 6 came and I ended up playing with photos on my computer and chatting with my mom.
I made dinner and then chatted with faerievixen very briefly. Then I forced myself to gear up and go for a run. I went further, faster, and took less time. (Obviously that lends to going faster.) I usually have a brief “catch my breath” walk at least 2-3 times for a few paces when I go out. I decided not to do that this time at all.

I have no real concept of the pace I am going mostly because I am zoned out. (And I want it to be that way.) None the less. It was a good run. I showered and was toying with going out, or not. I concluded it wouldn’t hurt to hit the club. After all, who needs someone else to go with? I allotted myself 2 drinks (drinking is pretty much unnecessary and fattening on a grand scale, so seeing as I typically don’t drink outside of the occasional celebration… this is good thing. This amounts to about once every two months, hehe.)

I figured I wouldn’t have my last snack and I’d dance the night away and it would even out the caloric intake. So, that is just what I did. Although not particularly looking for male attention, at some point I found a couple of people to dance with. I side stepped the grabby-crappy dancers (men who feel entirely too possessive overall) and stuck with whoever was the safest, least annoying fit. I approached a cute little redheaded fella and realized he had just graduated and was visiting from Salem, Oregon. He was doing a white boy dance that did make me think of Jim an awful lot, haha. His built-like-a-house, giant shouldered friend danced with me for a song and I learned about their situation. “Martin,” was a politics grad and was very shy. I target shy men at the club. Especially now that I already have a man, haha. There’s no danger in ending up with a shy guy. No offence to those of you who are shy, but I am thinking shy men for LTRs and me? Varying levels of workability. I figure, shy men need people like me.

So after Martin and his friend went somewhere else, I approached Mister-Clingy. He seemed Indian (India) in descent. He was Mister-Clingy, let’s make it seem like I’m ATTACHED man. Luckily he kept disappearing (I hope it wasn’t to go bust a nut in the bathroom) … and so I was given the opportunity to become occupied ASAP. By Joseph, the asian dude who approached me. He had a crazy dancing style that every so often reminded me of Robert’s. We danced for pretty much the rest of the time and then went outside at some point. This is where I spill my un-availability. He seemed disappointed, seeing as he’s a hiker and obviously was interested. Hahaha. So sad, too bad for him.

He kept trying to dance too low for my freshly ran legs to keep up with, but aside from that we agreed to just keep to a good time and leave it at that because I made it clear that I was not interested.

Although I should have said I was out with some friends as an alibi so he couldn’t try and abduct me, I admitted I was alone and explained my situation. It apparently impressed him that I’d have the balls to go to a club alone – “guts” basically. Eh, I came to dance.

After sweating a ton and probably burning off my alcohol for 2+ hrs (my 2 drinks were obviously worn off.) I made my way to close out my expensive tab: $6.50 total, after tip.
Damn! I didn’t realize my two drinks were that cheap. And that was after a $2 tip – because I’m a high roller and all.

So, what it amounts to is, with free cover and low cost on the drinks… it cost me $7 to go out. I’m not counting the gas. Speaking of which, does anyone else drive by, see the numbers out of the corner of their eye, and initially reject the concept? Like, my brain is literally thinking it mis-read the numbers. Until I realize that no – it’s really $3.44 at the pumps. ?

Wow.

I excused myself from the club to drive home. At first I sat behind my wheel (after admiring for the 20th time my awesome parking spot literally right next to the club, and then admiring my PERFECT parallel park job) feeling buzzed. It was my crown chakra. I immediately grounded and left for home.

Called Jim on the way home. He seemed surprised that I had went out, but not upset. I know this is silly, but I seriously always wait for the other shoe to drop when I am outright about some things still. Robert used to get SO upset with me when I went out to have a good time, with no real intent of snagging men - he still found a way to make it seem like I'd done something wrong each time.

Often with Jim I wait and wait for the guilt-tripping and it just never comes. Surprised, yes - he knows my routine as much as I do. Upset, no.

All I have to say is... life is so much better this way. Dating experience lends to me that I need a guy that won't freak when I need to blow off steam and he can't be there to do it with me. I'd have given anything for him to have hung out there last night - but I know the reality. Full time student and part time job with army reserves lends for space and a certain level of independence. And yet I missed him, it also just felt nice to get out and experience life at random. No planning, no worrying about who goes where. I make up my mind, and I just do it.

The other thing that amazes me is that some guys like how I dance. Okay, frankly I don't think I'm terribly skilled. Really. But at least some people like it hahaha. Poor blind folks ;)

I am happy it’s Friday. I got to get this weekend started. I was going to try and give Jim his obligation-free day… but he has work and homework. That was when I said… so, you can have your “day off” in like a year then? More accurately like two years. But when he told me in about a year, I didn't have the heart to tell him that him being in his second, entering third year of school... that it could be a couple. :X

This is Jim’s reality.
*shrugs* Not much that I can say for him except that in another couple years he’ll join the rest of in having some semblance of spare time.

Regardless, this is going to be a long needed Kelsi-weekend.
Christy, her older sister (one of them, the other she used to live with – Lori, in West Seattle) is coming to visit from Idaho. Christy and I always got along so I am looking forward to seeing her this weekend as well as Kelsi. Jim’s work weekend is pretty busy.
He works until close on Friday. And then Saturday all day. “all day,” a full shift, 8 hrs.
It makes it really pointless to go over to Tacoma either way in this case. And because schedules come out on Sunday - he never knows his Sunday schedule. Blah.

Sunday Kelsi invited me out with her other girlfriend Danielle and some of their friends. I’ve heard a lot about Danielle and wouldn’t mind meeting one of Kelsi’s other favorite friends. She’s a Birthday Express employee (or was) like Kelsi. They’re closing Kelsi’s call center and soon she’ll be finding another monkey-job.

Going to Everett/Lynnwood Monday to chill with mom and see my sister ice-skate in a Drama on Ice rendition of "Cat in the Hat," and she happens to be the one and only - CAT in the HAT. This'll be fun to watch. Yeay for mom knowing where Olympic ice arena is in Lynnwood. I have tried to find it a couple of times and got lost both times resulting in me missing a show entirely and the other time we got there just in the nick of time. Jeez.

Tim #2 stole the city van and now I have to take my personal car. Blarg. I should go to facilities. Speaking of which, I got my lease termination yesterday. He warned me a few times, (Ric the manager over there) that it was coming and that they’ll write a new one for next door soon. June 30, 2007 is my last “day.”

It is both exciting and freaky. I like my half of the Duplex, but I hope the other side is less “mind of its own” alive. I hear there’s a new water heater, a separate utility room (washer/dryer room for my washer/dryer), two bedrooms, and that it’s slightly bigger. *shrugs* Other than that I will not know what it looks like till June 1. I think my neighbors have a lease expiration of May 30, 2007.

I am dying to know how the space looks. I hear the kitchen is big – this is good, seeing as I have acquired a new love of cooking.

I suppose I will just wait and see.
I am hoping today goes a little smoother than yesterday here at work. So far it has started peacefully. A quick speedy arrival of 6PM would be awesome.
I want my shorts to go with this tank top. And this weekend I am focusing on how much I enjoy my time off!


-Angela