The work week so far

[angelak]

I really don't have time to write this – yet again. I have a pretty tight work plan today. But here goes.
It's been a few days.

Yoga last night was brutal. I knew it would be; I've been having great classes lately and yesterday I was fighting off (still am) a slight throat/cold issue.
It's been pretty mild so far, but I can feel the beginnings. I took this as a sign I better get my ass into class.
And I did. I was exhausted, and my day was stressful and hectic on top of that. I just didn't feel calm like I have been. Might have been a crappy dose of PMS, along with a pre-emptive headcold, along with just not wanting to deal with some of the things on my work list.

Certain people fuck with my chi, as Jim would say.
So, I tried my best.
I was tired as hell.
Today I feel much better so far, but then I haven't dealt with any of the stuff that generally makes me feel stressed out. I find the stress was driving my energy levels pretty low. When I am already feeling off – that is. Normally I can overlook stress to some extent.
I wanted to just curl into a ball and go to sleep. This isn't common for me anymore. Then I noticed on my birth control that it's just * That * band of time that is pretty much the only time if I do feel sharp and unusually moody, it would be hormonally related.

It's not often that I get this way. Normally I notice it when I have an unexpectedly sharp, unusually disrespectful comment and then I am like “Why did I say that? What was behind that?”
And then I realize that I am wanting to rage for no reason at all.
That was yesterday.

I did pranayama breathing on the way to see Bret, it worked great to lower my impulse to be anything other than polite – but I spent most of my day over there, messing with things and getting most things but not all – up and running. I just get tired of RBASE. RBASE was not designed to be run in the 2000's. It's 2009. Let's move on, dude. This ap was written for Windows NT and MS Dos... need I say more????

I eventually lost my patience with messing with his crap to no avail and went to lunch, starving. This didn't help my mentality I am sure.
I slept that evening until I had to leave for Yoga, when I made myself leave because I am doing a 10 day mini challenge. Last night was day 8, and tonight is Day 9 of no-days off.
I feel pretty good about this. The class again – kicked my ass, I felt generally sloppy and energyless, but I still made it through. And I did very truly give it my all for last night.
My best some days is more or less. I remind myself to be patient, kind, and understanding to myself. The fact I left the house at all was good. I do feel like today feels stronger for the suffering.
I normally am energized when I come out of class. Last night I was exhausted. Normally I have trouble sleeping. Last night I ate dinner and was content to go straight to bed. I awoke a little more fresh today. We'll see how class is tonight, and how the rest of today goes. I am here to do my best at work. And that is all I have.

My best is all I have. And if that isn't always being the A+++++ techie, well so be it damnit.
I do – however, think I need a vacation. I just have no idea what to do.
When. I'd like to take an out of state trip with Jim for a day or three, but the money for that and the planning is ... just the hard part.
I know I can take time off and stay home. Dandy. I'd like to travel AND stay home this time. Catch up on all the little fucking things.
And maybe do some intensive Yoga days. Like a few doubles haha. Who knows what my perfect at-home vacation is.
My brain is processing some stuff right now. I can tell. I just don't know what it is. I do know I feel particularly content with my life circumstance anyway. Even if work makes me insane some days.
And yesterday was one of those days.



-Angela

Comments

[eneogei.livejournal.com]

Bikram recommends taking it really easy if you're sick, and for good reasons. If you're feeling sick, don't do the floor series. You need to rest. It's okay to take a day or two off. I did a class at the very tail end of my cold and it about knocked me flat. A couple days after that, though, I had a fantastic class (when I was feeling rested and much better). You don't want to practice to the point of adrenal burnout, either- too much yoga is a possibility.

The sick

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

Funny, because the floor series was the easier part of the Yoga last night, and the standing series was the part that I pushed through - and did rest a bit more on than the typical night.

(I pretty much researched those facts already about what Bikram says about illness). I do a LOT of reading before I start sports/activities, as well as during. I'm a research addict so to speak.

I figure it's like this:
Showing up is fine, even if I have to sit out.
Particularly when I'm (half) sick. You know? Not quite full fledged anything.

I know it's fine to take days off; I'm just trying to get my 10 in :P

I think last night being exhausted had most to do with stress during the day, coupled with the minor bug-fighting. If I was full fledged feeling like ass enough to stay home from work, I'd probably stay home from Yoga too.

But seeing as it's sort of minor at this point...it definitely doesn't make my "take it easy" meter go off.

Don't worry - I'm pretty damned good at gaging myself regarding illness and fitness. I've been doing this for a while ;)

But thanks for the advice. You can never be too safe.

-Angela