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angelak3 days away from the studio. (Yoga) Feeling like that's a bit long. But then again - sometimes you need a break like that. I have hopes that running and being outdoors will give me the same healing results as my killjoy treadmill pounding.
Crossing my fingers on that and hoping I can drink enough to make this class enjoyable in 1.5 hrs~!!!!!
My teeth are super gross and I should brush them.
There is a "how to host a murder" party with the old HS girls that I whined about previously. I am glad to have this over after tonight. It could be fun, yes.
I wrote Mel an email explaining my life. Stuff like, "Hey, fyi - I suck at txting." Because she loves to use it as her primary mode. (Phone CALLS I can do, but txting is ..., well, it's for stupid questions like, "what should I pick up for dinner?" or, cute little things, like - "I love you," or, "I was thinking of your huge dick today and it made me smile," or "insert somewhat brief note." "I'm running late," "I like pickles," or "I like to eat cheese."
ANYWAYS.
Digression: Party. So Mel will be there. And of course, Kelsi and I have been getting along dandy. This pisses me off. Must I be at odds with at least half of the 2 of them? Yes, 1 of the 2.
Irksome.
I will go to the party - with no ill Will.
I will then have the option to walk away hopefully on pleasant terms, and if need be drop it at that and live and let live. As in - peace. Peace out. Or, if it really turns out relaxing I will be prepared to move ahead with just regular friendship.
Either I feel no attachment to. I can walk away and just let it be. If they call - great, if they don't - great. #1 thing I'm realizing - I just need people who are more apt to lift me up, rather than require and put demands on me. This time in my life is funky. I do things that are slightly funkier than usual with my emotions. I'm learning to navigate what that is. And I swear to the gods the ladies do not understand that!!!!
All I want is a little understanding. I don't want more than that.
AND. I am in luck - because I have tons of friends who DO support me. And I've of a mind to start accessing the support a little more to really begin my path back to sanity. :D
Okay, maybe not full sanity. But I think with every passing week - whether I know it or not, my tendons ARE getting stronger, and my heart IS healing.
Without some of my dear ones, I'd be so fucked. Nobody - is definitely one of them. Jim, is definitely one of them. My mom, is definitely one of them. And the Kirkbus ladies.
Kirkbus ladies, it is time I go see olderKurkbus child's new abode!
AND tomorrow I have plans to celebrate C's birfday. I'm excited for that! I am too lazy to type out her full net pseudonym. So, 2 parties. and Yoga all weekend. I hope to CT sometime today, but if all I get to is Yoga - I will deal. I am just getting the feeling I REALLY want to work on my gunz.
Also, I have a new pull up bar that fits on the door with no hardware. And I want to start working on those pull ups that I neglected in 2009!!!! Damnit, I have to work back up, but that's okay. I notice muscle seems to bounce back quicker after you've had it before.
Off to brush my teef and drink.
Water. And Electrolytes. SERIOUSLY - if my knees are nice to me today and tomorrow, I am ok'ing myself (as per doc's instructions) to advance to 20 minutes!!!! ZOMGS!!!!! TWENTY MINUTES TWENTY MINUTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry. I just. I really like to run. Has anyone caught that by now?
Also. I am naked and spilled water all over my front side. All the way into my lap. It was seriously cold. I didn't even make a sound. It was more like a silent "oooh. Fuck. Cold."
-Angela
Crossing my fingers on that and hoping I can drink enough to make this class enjoyable in 1.5 hrs~!!!!!
My teeth are super gross and I should brush them.
There is a "how to host a murder" party with the old HS girls that I whined about previously. I am glad to have this over after tonight. It could be fun, yes.
I wrote Mel an email explaining my life. Stuff like, "Hey, fyi - I suck at txting." Because she loves to use it as her primary mode. (Phone CALLS I can do, but txting is ..., well, it's for stupid questions like, "what should I pick up for dinner?" or, cute little things, like - "I love you," or, "I was thinking of your huge dick today and it made me smile," or "insert somewhat brief note." "I'm running late," "I like pickles," or "I like to eat cheese."
ANYWAYS.
Digression: Party. So Mel will be there. And of course, Kelsi and I have been getting along dandy. This pisses me off. Must I be at odds with at least half of the 2 of them? Yes, 1 of the 2.
Irksome.
I will go to the party - with no ill Will.
I will then have the option to walk away hopefully on pleasant terms, and if need be drop it at that and live and let live. As in - peace. Peace out. Or, if it really turns out relaxing I will be prepared to move ahead with just regular friendship.
Either I feel no attachment to. I can walk away and just let it be. If they call - great, if they don't - great. #1 thing I'm realizing - I just need people who are more apt to lift me up, rather than require and put demands on me. This time in my life is funky. I do things that are slightly funkier than usual with my emotions. I'm learning to navigate what that is. And I swear to the gods the ladies do not understand that!!!!
All I want is a little understanding. I don't want more than that.
AND. I am in luck - because I have tons of friends who DO support me. And I've of a mind to start accessing the support a little more to really begin my path back to sanity. :D
Okay, maybe not full sanity. But I think with every passing week - whether I know it or not, my tendons ARE getting stronger, and my heart IS healing.
Without some of my dear ones, I'd be so fucked. Nobody - is definitely one of them. Jim, is definitely one of them. My mom, is definitely one of them. And the Kirkbus ladies.
Kirkbus ladies, it is time I go see olderKurkbus child's new abode!
AND tomorrow I have plans to celebrate C's birfday. I'm excited for that! I am too lazy to type out her full net pseudonym. So, 2 parties. and Yoga all weekend. I hope to CT sometime today, but if all I get to is Yoga - I will deal. I am just getting the feeling I REALLY want to work on my gunz.
Also, I have a new pull up bar that fits on the door with no hardware. And I want to start working on those pull ups that I neglected in 2009!!!! Damnit, I have to work back up, but that's okay. I notice muscle seems to bounce back quicker after you've had it before.
Off to brush my teef and drink.
Water. And Electrolytes. SERIOUSLY - if my knees are nice to me today and tomorrow, I am ok'ing myself (as per doc's instructions) to advance to 20 minutes!!!! ZOMGS!!!!! TWENTY MINUTES TWENTY MINUTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry. I just. I really like to run. Has anyone caught that by now?
Also. I am naked and spilled water all over my front side. All the way into my lap. It was seriously cold. I didn't even make a sound. It was more like a silent "oooh. Fuck. Cold."
-Angela
