Social Vs. Fitness Vs. Work

[angelak]

Been sort of battling the balance in general.
Life is coming together differently - my knees are actually healing. I'm seeing real progress, not just what some specialist told me was progress.

It changes every part of my day to experience such a lower level of pain.

I've been really high lately emotionally. That's been good. This weekend, not as much as usual. Been more social, (happily so) but also struggling with keeping in reliable touch and getting back to people when I want to. It's a struggle for me right now - for whatever reason.

Email is the best way, but there were still a few replies that fell through the loop. On one hand I think it is because I have a huge bank of email crap that is going to my email all the time.
And then there's the legit people who email me. But often times those IMPORTANT emails get buried.
I feel like a fish out of water, the organization of my life is not very strong.

Not my house hold, not my emails, not my phone calls, nothing.
My work is barely organized. I can get what I need to done because I know that I must.
But even that could use an overhaul. I'm not sure where to go with this, what to do.
I know I need to make serious moves towards new systems, but I feel so chaotic internally.
There once was a time when it was all neatly organized, and also addressed.

I feel like it's silly that I have taken a step back in these ways, seeing as I figured it would get better as I aged. Some things have. My organization - has only dwindled.
I'm a Virgo for crying outloud. Should I struggle so to get my act together????

I do.
Massively.
I also fight on a day to day basis with believing in my inner and outer beauty.
I wish my inner guidance would give me a direction. I wish I could get myself together.
*A lot of I's in this entry*

Any ideas for getting with the program called life?
If I've blown you off recently - know that I still thought deeply about it.
I just didn't pick up the phone, or respond to the email. And I'm not at all sure why.

-Angela

Comments

[nobodyberry.livejournal.com]

You ought to see my desk at work.

I struggle every day to stay organized and on top of things, and I never quite feel like I've figured out a good strategy. It pains me.

So, seeing as I have yet to get my OWN act together, I can't give any good advice. However, you're certainly not alone.

I find that I have lots of ideas floating around in the back of my brain, but I have the damndest time putting them into action. But somehow I have faith that if I keep plugging along, I will get it right one of these days.

One day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time, one breath at a time.