Creepy Update.
Apr. 21st, 2004 10:05 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angelakHere's an update about the realities of working in a police department.
Okay. So I just got back from doing more work. Wow. I know I’m stupid and all that, but once I start talking to detectives [especially one of them in particular] I become interested in the things they do and see. So when they share it with me, I don’t stop them due to my own morbid curiosity. Of course, I’m pretty sheltered in certain ways as is believable.
But my own curiosity is more on the realistic side of things, versus movies and video games. So per se, when I show interest in drug pictures and this sort… it actually encourages him to show me more. Of course, when Brian says, “want to see something really gross?” I always say, “yes,” and then find myself staring at photographs of some crack addicts’ detached arm that they dragged out of the morgue where they froze it, when they needed to fingerprint him to see who the vegetable of a man was [apparently they housed him in the jail].
It’s a weird thing. Or when testing out the E911 dictophone to make sure it worked, listening to a 911 call where there is literally blood curdling screams [realer than anything I've ever heard before, referring that something really, really horrible or painful was occurring] in the background and nothing else [for an instant.] Some interesting things. It’s weird how the cops don’t even view the people they deal with as really, people. It’s clear to me, they detach themselves, as one would have to…
Or watching a video clip from Iraq through an infrared camera as people are blown to bits and you can see the body parts flying. Anyway. Random. Listening to Brian watch and laugh, somehow made me sick to my stomach to think that it be funny in any way.
Because to me, regardless of who or what, that is a human being blown to bits, someone fearing for their life, someone in a bad place, bad situation, bad time. But what do I know. I’m not desensitized. In a way, I almost force myself to look, so that I too, may watch and not care that it’s real and disgusting.
-Angela
Okay. So I just got back from doing more work. Wow. I know I’m stupid and all that, but once I start talking to detectives [especially one of them in particular] I become interested in the things they do and see. So when they share it with me, I don’t stop them due to my own morbid curiosity. Of course, I’m pretty sheltered in certain ways as is believable.
But my own curiosity is more on the realistic side of things, versus movies and video games. So per se, when I show interest in drug pictures and this sort… it actually encourages him to show me more. Of course, when Brian says, “want to see something really gross?” I always say, “yes,” and then find myself staring at photographs of some crack addicts’ detached arm that they dragged out of the morgue where they froze it, when they needed to fingerprint him to see who the vegetable of a man was [apparently they housed him in the jail].
It’s a weird thing. Or when testing out the E911 dictophone to make sure it worked, listening to a 911 call where there is literally blood curdling screams [realer than anything I've ever heard before, referring that something really, really horrible or painful was occurring] in the background and nothing else [for an instant.] Some interesting things. It’s weird how the cops don’t even view the people they deal with as really, people. It’s clear to me, they detach themselves, as one would have to…
Or watching a video clip from Iraq through an infrared camera as people are blown to bits and you can see the body parts flying. Anyway. Random. Listening to Brian watch and laugh, somehow made me sick to my stomach to think that it be funny in any way.
Because to me, regardless of who or what, that is a human being blown to bits, someone fearing for their life, someone in a bad place, bad situation, bad time. But what do I know. I’m not desensitized. In a way, I almost force myself to look, so that I too, may watch and not care that it’s real and disgusting.
-Angela
