Argument #2 of my weekend
May. 4th, 2004 09:55 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angelakThis is a cut from a reply to SK's comment. This gives you an idea of how my day is going:
"I've been hanging in there far longer than the "first sign of trouble." I'm beginning to think I need a fresh slate. I don't know if I have much worth saving at this point. Some serious things have been going back and forth between us now. Deeper rooted issues are arising. I'm going to try my best like I always do. After 4 years, there are many "signs of trouble," regardless of who you are. This is not the first time we've had rough spots. But this time I am beginning to take a serious look at what's what. I don't know if staying with Steve IS as healthy as it appears. For either of us. Though, I probably say that because he tried to force me to work issues out late last night, when the night before I had like little sleep, and I was dying for sleep when he wanted me to discuss more issues. [Finances, poly, house chores.] Right now I am pretty sleep deprived. He tried to tell me that if sleep was more important than us, that he would leave me-- even though he knew I had to work the next day. I feel a serious amount of unhappiness right now in that regard. All I wanted was to lay down and sleep. Instead, I cried and was kept awake until I said what he wanted.
Am I really that selfish? I must be. He says it with such conviction. I love people. And it hurts."
-Karen
"I've been hanging in there far longer than the "first sign of trouble." I'm beginning to think I need a fresh slate. I don't know if I have much worth saving at this point. Some serious things have been going back and forth between us now. Deeper rooted issues are arising. I'm going to try my best like I always do. After 4 years, there are many "signs of trouble," regardless of who you are. This is not the first time we've had rough spots. But this time I am beginning to take a serious look at what's what. I don't know if staying with Steve IS as healthy as it appears. For either of us. Though, I probably say that because he tried to force me to work issues out late last night, when the night before I had like little sleep, and I was dying for sleep when he wanted me to discuss more issues. [Finances, poly, house chores.] Right now I am pretty sleep deprived. He tried to tell me that if sleep was more important than us, that he would leave me-- even though he knew I had to work the next day. I feel a serious amount of unhappiness right now in that regard. All I wanted was to lay down and sleep. Instead, I cried and was kept awake until I said what he wanted.
Am I really that selfish? I must be. He says it with such conviction. I love people. And it hurts."
-Karen
