angelak | Brief Entry

First of all, I'm testing this new livejournal editor. It sounds interesting. Anyway. Updating the police Commander's rover laptop currently. Stan is just such a nice guy. I always get enjoyment talking to him. We got into a e-mail back and forth session about cars. That was entertaining. His laptop is in SERIOUS need of updating though. Eventually I will get to his house to work with his personal machine. Currently I'm also working with Maria to try and fix her home machine too. It's interesting when you have a skill that's useful. I know how James must feel. But you know, I really don't mind helping people. It's fun to know I can help them. As long as no one abuses my work.

So anyway. Lianna sent me a nice long e-mail, and it was relieving to actually hear feedback from someone other than Steve. I love him to death, but when you're with that person ALL the time, suddenly you know what they're going to tell you and what feedback you'll get from that person. He's perfect and I'd not change anything about him right now. Damned near nothing.

Lianna has some good points, but I also believe I did send out energy against my situation. And there was nothing less than that happening. I mean, I understand people have their own rate of healing, but the energy I send out can affect their rate of healing. I mean, it's all a part of the magick, as I see it. But there are certain truths to my thinking that aren't necessarily truths to others'. I do not force anyone to think the way I do.

I am trying different formatting to see if it shows up in my livejournal. So, moving on... "You still have a major connection to them at least," in regards to Lianna, I think I have a connection to her. You know? Because frankly I really don't feel like I care that he dropped away. I mean, I only think of Travis because Kelsi is involved, and in my heart, I wish she wasn't. If he weren't in this situation, I honestly think I would just let the doors close and the situation with him be over. I do enjoy hearing gossip about him, because I'm angry with him, so hearing what he's up to, and scoffing it, makes me feel better. But, I already knew that my connection with Kelsi isn't completely broken, and that's why I gave up and tried to meet up with her. But I don't think it will ever grow back towards friendship again. It feels so bleak and desolate. I could be wrong. Time is a crazy thing.... just minor thoughts. Half of this post was written with Lianna in mind, so if it makes NO sense, you're not crazy!!!!

-Angela