At peace for the moment

For the moment, I'm at peace. I don't know whether it was extra time with Jim, extra time away from the office, or the fact that I am truly settling into waiting on life situations.
Or if breaking my 4 day work out fast helped my mentality too. (Circuit Training, to give my knees another day to bounce back.)

If my house did not feel so chaotic right now I'd try doing more meditating and positive affirmations. But something about our stuff all disorganized and boxes everywhere (only partially packed, we are) makes it hard to focus. Also feel like Side A, this place - has been extremely hard to be spiritual in. There was no place for me to go where I felt like it was "my" space. The entire domain is my space. I have a mind to search out a space to call my own outside to go to during the times I want to be ritualistic or affirmative in thinking... elsewhere. A nearby park.

Regardless, today tea. Relaxation. I worked Monday so today I have off.
It feels like I am playing hookie, now that I took yesterday off sick. And if I did not live in the same parking lot as work, it would feel less awkward. Whelps, my wishes be true soon enough. Less than 31 days and I WILL be elsewhere.

This weekend is Salmon Days. 4th and 5th. Jim loves this town. We call it Stars Hallow. After Gilmore Girls. I should watch a couple episodes later today. I am also tempted to visit the mother. But I refuse to leave town until I work out for the day. This 4 day streak is ended. I declare it so. And I also declare myself accountable for physical therapy exercises today.

I must start holding out my best. Also, have another 300 pages of Kushiel's Justice to read. ;)
I have to finish it because I have another book, Sequel to "The Luxe" - that is awaiting me from the library. I must admit reading drowns out a lot of my personal heartaches.

It also seems to afford me more patience with Jim.
I'm happy for that! The poor lad has sustained a headcold this week.
He is off sleeping right now. Thank goodness his schedule is somewhat aligned proper, because he works tonight and he accidentally fell asleep with me last night.

We have re-bounded from my intense moodiness. I feel like he is figuring out how to best handle me even better. And yes, I must be handled. I'd explain it to a T, but sometimes one cannot explain themselves always. I do know there are combinations of reactions that help more than others.

I think I will do a 10 warmup, 14/2/14 run today. At a slow pace for 14 minutes, walk of course 2, and a moderately faster pace at the end 14. And then of course the 10 cooldown. Sigh.
I noted yesterday that walking did not seem to aggravate me. Running doesn't seem to either. It would seem that mere standing or stairs are the more difficult. And mostly just standing.

I have taken to trying to stand again - like I said, with my knees less locked. I naturally over-extend my joints. I think now is the time to put conscious effort into not doing this. I believe it could help me with this current knee aggravation. I am praying to the gods this is so.

And if not, I just keep doing what I can.

-Angela

A few more thoughts

Other thoughts...
It occurs to me that I am never sure what is the best course of action with the injury.
Some days it doesn't really do me worse to run. Other days I question that.
But all in all it is hard now because I am aware I've built back some of my old fitness.
I'd like to keep that, and continue improving in both knee health and overall endurance.

And I know that if in the last month I was able to run regularly for a piece, that I am not sunk yet. So today, I'd like one last training for the sake of the 5K, tapered to shorter lengths for purposes of rest before the race and also for the purposes of ensuring my knee stay happier than it has been in the past few days.

I had to add it on... I must go brush my teeth and finish this up!
And damnit. Jim is outright sick. Blarg. And he works tonight. Theoretically.

-Angela