A real post.

[angelak]

So, in any event, this weekend should be a fun one.
I’ve been bouncing around a bit lately as to where my head, mind, and heart are.
I know I’m just in the slow process of learning, that everyone has to endure somewhere along the line.

And that’s okay.
I refuse to be erratically emotional non-stop.
I must get a handle on me and remember who I am.
That’s what’s most important.
I also want to enjoy my festivities and my gentleman caller.
So – in spite of the head-sorting, and the past week of slightly uncertain emotions.
Well, I think I’m going to figure stuff out.
I’ve just got to face some personal fears that are lurking. No matter what we do, sometimes we ignore things so well that they seem to disappear for a while.

They’ll come back, no matter how deep you bury them.

I feel good today. I felt even better last night after spending a pleasant evening just being with the gentleman caller and relaxing. Sleep at a reasonable hour felt oh-so-good.

I’m going to throw some of that residual fear out the window for a few days and just FREAKING have a good time and enjoy being me, and enjoy the fact that I am 21.

I won’t lament over the fact that a majority of 21 yr olds, which may include me, have no idea where their lives are truly heading, aren’t always sure what they want, and that yeah, it’s young – and it’s like being born yesterday.

I’m not going to worry about that right now. I just want to be happy that I’ve hit this milestone, and that my liquor cabinet is stocked and legal, and I can buy whatever I want from now on.

And go where ever I want.
For all to know:
I am Angela and sometimes I get lost. I realize I have redeeming qualities and many people love me. I even love myself a lot of the time.

There’s an array of assets and I know I am not doing half bad for myself. I make a living, I have a moderate sense of money and I don’t take things for granted as best that I can. I know who I am, and I know where I came from.
I also know that my blood family is wonderful and I feel blessed daily with their involvement in my life.

My chosen family is special too.
For once, I'm just going to celebrate being me, tomorrow.


-Angela

Comments

[nobodyberry.livejournal.com]

For once, I'm just going to celebrate being me, tomorrow.

That's the point of having a birthday. :)

;)

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

I forget these things too easily :P

-Angela

[quetz.livejournal.com]

It's cute the way you refer to your "Gentleman Caller".

(serious mode)
I sometimes get lost, I may not know where my life is truly heading, and I'm not always sure what I want...and I'm older than you. These things don't go away just by the passing of time, only through earning self-knowledge. You're doing well enough at that, much better than most people your age, so it doesn't pay to get too stressed out about it.

:))

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

:)
I know all people get lost, though I also know generalizations usually fly at younger folks.

Which, we aren't always unworthy of some generalizations.
I'm getting to the "not stress" part of it.
Heehee.
Side note:
I thought Gentleman caller was cute too :D

-Angela

"gentleman caller"

[kdana.livejournal.com]

comment from a few weeks ago: "hee hee. angela's gentleman caller....
i dunno... somehow that was what ran through my head when i read "gentleman"....."

:)