Feels like...
Sep. 12th, 2005 12:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angelakI'm back from the ocean and it was lovely.
I have today off before I return back to the mundane workness. The couple of days off felt really nice.
*sighs*
On other hand - ever since a few weeks ago, I haven't felt myself at all.
I am one of those folks who likes to know where I stand with myself. It's part of what gives me my confidence and part of what I draw off of to feel happy and comfortable. Most of the time, I feel alright.
There's the rest of the time that I'd like to crawl into my bed, and never see the light of day or deal with people.
Something has shifted inside me, like I knew it had. I'm just very sad that it had to shift. I should allow change to happen, I should process things, and I should move on.
Lately I just feel so catty-wompus.
I'd like to just be me for a while.
And yet I feel so preoccupied with everyone else. Maybe I just don't know how to be me, just plain old me.
I'll try and enjoy my last day off, instead of being angsty. I left the angst behind, while I vacationed. And it felt good. And yet my sadness is still here for me to return to it.
-Angela
I have today off before I return back to the mundane workness. The couple of days off felt really nice.
*sighs*
On other hand - ever since a few weeks ago, I haven't felt myself at all.
I am one of those folks who likes to know where I stand with myself. It's part of what gives me my confidence and part of what I draw off of to feel happy and comfortable. Most of the time, I feel alright.
There's the rest of the time that I'd like to crawl into my bed, and never see the light of day or deal with people.
Something has shifted inside me, like I knew it had. I'm just very sad that it had to shift. I should allow change to happen, I should process things, and I should move on.
Lately I just feel so catty-wompus.
I'd like to just be me for a while.
And yet I feel so preoccupied with everyone else. Maybe I just don't know how to be me, just plain old me.
I'll try and enjoy my last day off, instead of being angsty. I left the angst behind, while I vacationed. And it felt good. And yet my sadness is still here for me to return to it.
-Angela
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Date: 2005-09-12 07:50 pm (UTC)Hm.
Date: 2005-09-13 03:01 pm (UTC)I hadn't read this and I somewhat came to the conclusion that exactly this, would be the best way to handle the things that have been ailing me.
Living in the Now, after all, is what we should be doing.
The past and future can only take us so far, and have the potential to take us out of current reality.
Immediacy, as I am an impatient sort, is the far preferable path.
Ahh, yes.
See you soon~!
-Angela
Re: Hm.
Date: 2005-09-13 05:23 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-09-14 09:52 pm (UTC)I guess what I'm trying to say is that, when it all seems confusing and wrong, a bowl of ice cream and some chocolate sauce goes a long way.