Last night was fun!
Jan. 15th, 2004 09:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angelakMy forearm tendon feels weird because of MARK. Ouch. I guess he strained it last night in some Aikido move.
*sighs* Slow morning, it feels as though the day will be pretty high and dry of work. We have it down to 2 PC helps pending, those of which are pending anyway so there is no work to be done in that regard. So yes, yesterday was relatively busy enough, but today is now work on ration.
Tim and I were messing with the city website, etc etc.
So sleepy. Stayed up too late last night. But I really wanted to hang out with Stephen, and Mark and Jen were a fun addition. A crazy addition, but a fun one. We went to Azteca and talked and goofed off. Then we went to Stephen’s house. We met his room mates and goofed off. It was comfy in that couch. Right now, I am fantasizing about how soft and comfy the couch is… envisioning curling up into a ball and going to sleep. I don’t want to be here.
Stupidly, being focused on the horrid stomach ache I seemed to have all day yesterday [it still has not gone away]… I forgot to go update the Mayor’s laptop like I was planning on doing after 4PM…
Bleh. So anyway. That makes me mad because I was bent on not forgetting. I wonder if I should just take some sick leave and go home, because this stomach ache is not as bad as yesterday, but it is not subsiding. Although, I don’t want to deal with Steve. I was upset with him about the dishes and the house cleaning, and he seemed to only defensively throw excuses at me as I vented to him.
*shrugs* So… yesterday was so much fun I was very happy. Today I am just bleh. Chris didn’t get mad or anything, but I get more angry at myself when I am absent minded or forgetful than anyone else. I hate it. My memory is undyingly faulty… I never drank or did drugs, and here I seem to have lousy short term memory. Great reward from abstaining.
I want to see Stephen again. *sighs* My motivation this week is the level of a mud puddle vs. that of an Olympic swimming pool. It’s just lacking! Normally I am totally into my job and everything about it. It’s really my passion. But this week… is just not my week. I condemn myself repeatedly for not being perfect. I have no excuse to forget things.
If my heart were in things, generally I do more work to make up for any mistakes I make so I don’t beat myself up. Today, I just feel like curling up and shutting the world out. There’s nothing to be really sad about. I made arrangement to finish working on the Mayor’s machine and all… I just feel like crap. Perhaps I should just stick it out a few more hours and then go home. I don’t know.
And I am supposed to do energy work tonight. I don’t know if I have it in me! I have been looking forward to this for this whole month…. I WILL feel better by then…one way or the other… riiight?
-Angela
*sighs* Slow morning, it feels as though the day will be pretty high and dry of work. We have it down to 2 PC helps pending, those of which are pending anyway so there is no work to be done in that regard. So yes, yesterday was relatively busy enough, but today is now work on ration.
Tim and I were messing with the city website, etc etc.
So sleepy. Stayed up too late last night. But I really wanted to hang out with Stephen, and Mark and Jen were a fun addition. A crazy addition, but a fun one. We went to Azteca and talked and goofed off. Then we went to Stephen’s house. We met his room mates and goofed off. It was comfy in that couch. Right now, I am fantasizing about how soft and comfy the couch is… envisioning curling up into a ball and going to sleep. I don’t want to be here.
Stupidly, being focused on the horrid stomach ache I seemed to have all day yesterday [it still has not gone away]… I forgot to go update the Mayor’s laptop like I was planning on doing after 4PM…
Bleh. So anyway. That makes me mad because I was bent on not forgetting. I wonder if I should just take some sick leave and go home, because this stomach ache is not as bad as yesterday, but it is not subsiding. Although, I don’t want to deal with Steve. I was upset with him about the dishes and the house cleaning, and he seemed to only defensively throw excuses at me as I vented to him.
*shrugs* So… yesterday was so much fun I was very happy. Today I am just bleh. Chris didn’t get mad or anything, but I get more angry at myself when I am absent minded or forgetful than anyone else. I hate it. My memory is undyingly faulty… I never drank or did drugs, and here I seem to have lousy short term memory. Great reward from abstaining.
I want to see Stephen again. *sighs* My motivation this week is the level of a mud puddle vs. that of an Olympic swimming pool. It’s just lacking! Normally I am totally into my job and everything about it. It’s really my passion. But this week… is just not my week. I condemn myself repeatedly for not being perfect. I have no excuse to forget things.
If my heart were in things, generally I do more work to make up for any mistakes I make so I don’t beat myself up. Today, I just feel like curling up and shutting the world out. There’s nothing to be really sad about. I made arrangement to finish working on the Mayor’s machine and all… I just feel like crap. Perhaps I should just stick it out a few more hours and then go home. I don’t know.
And I am supposed to do energy work tonight. I don’t know if I have it in me! I have been looking forward to this for this whole month…. I WILL feel better by then…one way or the other… riiight?
-Angela
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Date: 2004-01-15 11:31 am (UTC)You'll get through the rest of the week! Just two more days! :)
Shhh Don't tell anyone.
Date: 2004-01-15 05:56 pm (UTC)I took sick leave today. I got off at noon after my stupid stomach ache hadn't gone away yet. It was dulled, but I am dying to do energy work with Bobby and so I figured, my mind was clouded, I could barely stand giving proper customer service to some of our users, so I took 5 hours of sick leave. Woohoo. I slept from like 12-5 and it seems my stomach ache has subsided. Yeay. I randomly dreamt of having sex with a couple of people... hmm. They weren't Steve. *shrugs* Suffice to say that you actually happened to be one of them... good thing dreams aren't controllable, or I'd feel bad. :P
I will go to Bobby's and grab Cheryl along the way. I am determined to make it. I think I'll take a shower and then call Cheryl. Or else call Cheryl then take a shower... err.. Sunday? What were my plans on Sunday? *goes to check* Well. Saturday night MIGHT be free, as James may or may not stay after we hike. But I see nothing on the calendar on Sunday either. Weee, a relatively free weekend! yeay for me. Monday I will try and go ice skating early in the morning if I can dredge myself out of bed to go to Everett... here's an essay for a reply to post!!!!! *hugs*
-Karen Angela
PS-- forgive me if I sign Angela.... I really REALLY am not used to actually referring to myself as such!! And it is trippy because now I have a sector of possible-friends [your roomies] who will know me AS Karen... identity CRISIS! WEEEEE!!!!
Re: Shhh Don't tell anyone.
Date: 2004-01-15 09:32 pm (UTC)Really? Me? *blush*
Let me know what day! Saturday night they'll be a bunch of people around, Sunday we can just chill alone and catch up.
It's okay. I'll tell them to address you as Angela. :) I feel pretty special being one of the few people able to call you Karen. :)