My horoscope mentioned...
Jun. 7th, 2006 09:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angelakThat my life is in a "holding pattern."
I knew in context what this might mean - though I looked it up further for good measure.
Definitions of Holding pattern on the Web:
* Manoeuver consisting of making the aircraft turn around the aerodrome at an assigned altitude, while awaiting further ATC instructions.
* Definition: When Air Traffic Control has a flight turn away from the airport and remain at an assigned altitude instead of landing. The pilots then await further instructions.
* a state of inaction with no progress and no change; "you should go into a holding pattern until he gets over his disappointment"
* the flight path (usually circular) maintained by an aircraft that is awaiting permission to land
Hmmm. Can I land yet? I think in many ways, I agree with this.
I'm just waiting. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting to land.
Although there is no part of me that is desperate to land, my Will is that sooner or later I will know where to land, and if the landing ground is stable for me. Unfortunately I'm all of the few 21 years old.
21 is excessively young. Just as I said at 17, 18, 19, and 20 - all of these ages are excessively young.
*siiiiiiiiiggghhss* And life cycles go on.
That seems like a whiney post. No - honestly, I am just thinking about life.
A friend has requested more puppy pictures. I'll be a post-whore today. Because I feel like it.
-Angela
I knew in context what this might mean - though I looked it up further for good measure.
Definitions of Holding pattern on the Web:
* Manoeuver consisting of making the aircraft turn around the aerodrome at an assigned altitude, while awaiting further ATC instructions.
* Definition: When Air Traffic Control has a flight turn away from the airport and remain at an assigned altitude instead of landing. The pilots then await further instructions.
* a state of inaction with no progress and no change; "you should go into a holding pattern until he gets over his disappointment"
* the flight path (usually circular) maintained by an aircraft that is awaiting permission to land
Hmmm. Can I land yet? I think in many ways, I agree with this.
I'm just waiting. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting to land.
Although there is no part of me that is desperate to land, my Will is that sooner or later I will know where to land, and if the landing ground is stable for me. Unfortunately I'm all of the few 21 years old.
21 is excessively young. Just as I said at 17, 18, 19, and 20 - all of these ages are excessively young.
*siiiiiiiiiggghhss* And life cycles go on.
That seems like a whiney post. No - honestly, I am just thinking about life.
A friend has requested more puppy pictures. I'll be a post-whore today. Because I feel like it.
-Angela
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Date: 2006-06-07 05:03 pm (UTC)what defines "landed" for you?
how will you feel different when you have landed?
what will physically be different?
These
Date: 2006-06-07 05:46 pm (UTC)IE: "what defines landed," for me - mostly.
I don't want the world to read what I have to say about that because somehow I find it. Really. REALLY. Personal.
Does that make sense? Silly though - that I mention it at all, but you know how journals are.
Some partial disclosure is what happens when you have no where else to lay thoughts out.
I think it's obvious to me that you can be 35, even 40 - still saying these kind of things. That was my point in mentioning the passing of the years. It became clear to me in that moment (the laundry listing of ages) that it honestly isn't going to stop because no matter what, someone will call me "young."
Sometimes I feel frustration about where society says you "should be" or "are" at particular ages. And that is basically what was behind half of the post.
-Angela
Re: These
Date: 2006-06-07 05:49 pm (UTC)One of those things that is for me to know and folks who don't know me well enough - to wonder ;)
-Angela
Re: These
Date: 2006-06-07 06:01 pm (UTC)You obviously don't have to answer these, especially not to someone like me. Of course they are very personal, because they're about your person. But start crystalizing what that means to you. Because if you just say that you want to be grounded without identifying what that means, you'll continue to flounder.
And f*ck what society tells you you should be doing at 21 or 25 or 45. Hell, you're in your early 20s, own a house and just bought a new car. I'm 35, single, rent and drive a car that was built while you were still in diapers. Do what you feel is right for you.
Re: These
Date: 2006-06-07 07:49 pm (UTC)Ah - I'm never sure if folks ask questions like that to be rhetorical online or not. :D
(And correction - the Duplex is a rental unit!! eeek. Somehow a lot of people think I own my place. I wish I owned that place! It's. A Really. Great place. Though buying a place is in my next 2 years plan). ;)
And I appreciate the affirmation on my Will. Cause I think we all need a little of that - sometimes.
And jeah. I've never been much of one to flounder for long.
I'm. A. Do-er. Muahahahaha.
So dirty.
-Angela
Re: These
Date: 2006-06-07 08:00 pm (UTC)So dirty.
Must.... Supress... Monty... Python... Reference.... Brain.... Exploding.... Fingers.... Aching...
Re: These
Date: 2006-06-07 08:10 pm (UTC)-Angela
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Date: 2006-06-07 07:29 pm (UTC)Excellent
Date: 2006-06-07 07:51 pm (UTC)-Angela
Perspective
Date: 2006-06-08 05:43 am (UTC)No one would be calling you "young", however. Got to take the perks where you can find them.
I find it sad that people feel the need to instruct the young (re: us) on what they "need" to do. Too often I find that people are jealous of youth, and feel that since they wasted theirs the next generation should make the same mistakes in order that they not feel bad about themselves.
There's a line in Fight Club that I like and dimly remember: "Society mandates that we consume, procreate, and die. Nothing more; nothing less. Don't stick out too much. You'll make people think about themselves and their situations, and rare is the person who is happy with both. Make it easier on them. Leave them in their plastic lives, their self-imposed prisons, thinking that the 9-to-5 grind, the mortgage and the 401k are all there is to life. To do otherwise is to be different, and different is bad! Every major figure in history who tried to enact radical social change has been either nailed to a tree, shot, stabbed, poisoned, hung, burned, beaten, or drawn and quartered. The people like their sloth, and trying to move their sleeping bulk inevitably results in them rolling over and crushing the agitator."
Re: Perspective
Date: 2006-06-08 02:49 pm (UTC)I'm amazed you pulled that particular quote. It's a long one.
-Angela
Re: Perspective
Date: 2006-06-08 04:06 pm (UTC)Re: Perspective
Date: 2006-06-08 07:22 pm (UTC)Many fabulous movies become books.
And that's ironic somehow that I saw the movie first, because usually I read the books that become moves :))
-Angela
Re: Perspective
Date: 2006-06-09 01:48 am (UTC)Re: Perspective
Date: 2006-06-09 02:35 pm (UTC)You just can't reproduce quick movement in written word very well, huh?
And that gives me something cool to look forward. A humorous, good book to read!
:)
-Angela