Blarg

[angelak]

Work.
Home.
Bills.
Folks telling me my home life situation is simple and not understanding my reasons for thinking about moving on from the Duplex.

The more someone tells me what is right for me the more annoyed I get.

I know I don't have to listen to them.
And yet there's always that part of you that WANTS them to understand the real reasoning. I'm mostly referencing my boss about this situation. Whatever.

The yard and the stress and the way I react to these things makes no sense to a lot of outside people.
It didn't help the screw on my lawn mower broke and now I've got to fix it.

I just want to slam my head into a brick wall to make it all go away.
Every time I look out the window I'm feeling tension.

Here's the email that I read that started this chain of "it's gotten too much to handle."
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Hi Angela

Friendly reminder: as the renter you do need to keep the landscape watered.


Thank you,
RP


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From: AH
Sent: Tuesday, August 08, 2006 11:05 AM
To: RP

I visited Angela’s house today. We will clean up the broken lilac and do some pruning. She needs to water her shrubs and I talked to her about it. One rhododendron is dead and others are wilting. I think it is the renter’s responsibility to take care of their landscape. The neighbor to the south is in better shape – at least he is mowing his yard. He also has a wilted rhododendron that needs water asap. Someone should contact him.

AH
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After years of fighting with myself and comments from one other different person (the boss of the people who have emailed me). I guess it's because I'm still in the decision process. If only I had a room mate to make this situation a no-brainer for me.

But I hardly think anyone is looking for a roomie these days.
My mom encourages me to move out alone again. That is a minor annoyance.
She seems to ALWAYS think that the alone-living-thing is not a big deal.
"That's what boyfriends and friends are for."

Except, dear mother - what do you think happens when you're single - or you friends are engaged in their own lives? You live alone with no immediate inter-action.

This leaves me relying on my boyfriend far too much. I like options. And if I live alone, that leaves zero options if I become single (not likely at the moment, although I do not vouch for years of my life) or this sort.

I'm frustrated still. I was fine and then I came to work and started discussing it mildly with Judy and my boss overheard and then he was acting completely confused about WHY I'd want to leave the "Great Situation" of a 20 yard walk to work.

It's because of the yard crap, it's because of the lack of privacy, it's because I am unhappy at the moment and the landlord is directly involved with my day to day work. But that doesn't make sense to him and it's not like he really wants to listen to what's up with my personal life anyway, and yet he kind of does, but not entirely.

Let me put it this way. People at the moment, ONLY factor work-life commuting in. They do not even BEGIN considering my weekend commutes and the convenience of living further South for me.
And if I mention it - it's like they do not even HEAR that. I just get really upset when people only want to listen to HALF of what I've got to say. Ask me about all of it or none at all.
And when it comes down to it - it is merely a personal thing. I cannot change how I react to things. I am not the sort that is able to shrug this kind of thing off. At all.
Anyhow. I've written enough. Surely.


-Angela

Comments

[damiana-swan.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Privacy is pretty darned important. You can always hire a kid to help with the lawn stuff for fairly cheap or barter for it with someone who needs someone to fix their computer, but you can't hire someone to give you privacy.

So, who do you know that you'd be willing to live with? It might be worthwhile to figure out who they are and then talk with them about possibilities.

Roomies :X

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

My issue is that I feel like the room-mate options are unavailable. Like nobody I know is looking at the moment, so I really feel that makes it a step harder to being in my _preferred situation_ ... So yeah.

-Angela

[herongrrrl.livejournal.com]

(((hugs)))

You want I should send heronguy out to fix up your yard and bring back your other lawnmower?

[huddyn.livejournal.com]

See, thats the bit I dont understand. In the seven plus years we have lived where we are, our rhody has gone from app 7 feet tall to something close to 12. While we whack it back on a regular basis, we don't water it. The few times we did it uprooted itself, walked inside and smacked us all. Well, not really, but it didnt like or seem to want it. In my exp rhodies get a little wilty at the end of Jul beginning of Aug, and watering makes that worse, not better. As far as I can tell, the amount of moisture here is more than enough for them. If a rhody died in the pacific northwest, I would be looking at soil rather than water.

[nobodyberry.livejournal.com]

If I were to offer a suggestion, I'd say you ought to look into purchasing some sort of dwelling for yourself, as opposed to renting. You could find something just big enough that you could have a roommate at any time, and it would be all yours, rather than having to deal with landlord BS.

But that's only if I were actually trying to suggest something. In reality, I just want to say that I support you in whatever decision you make.

I'd say

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

I don't think my financial status at the moment could support that.
And for a while, I was looking into buying - granted, money is certainly no unlimited source for me ;)
Especially when regarding Western WA. Things here cost muchos to buy.

Even condos.
:/ And I don't think I am ready for an interest-only loan. It seems a bit out of my league. Granted, I could explore the option still to make sure I can't afford it ;) Excellent points though. Definitely a reason I keep you around :P hehehe.

-Angela