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angelakAlright. Brief update.
Sean ciall intensive. Awesome. I am excited to have figured out my strong point. Cheryl's are all really obvious. I am proud to stay that perhaps my strength is strong energic stamina. Yeay to realize a good thing.
Um. Next. London Bridges. Fun. Melding Conciousness. Fun. Grounding WAS harder. But I knew that immediately and therefore focused it on damned near immediately. I felt a definite difference.
I as well, wonder what my limits are. Cheryl seems to think this is a crazy gesture. I think it's natural. We all want to know how far we can push the line. This is no question. I think we'll find out. At least, I intend to.
Umm.. More?
TOUGH day:
SNIP from an e-mail>
So, we drove to Olympia to visit Steve's not-so-well grandma in the hospital, as she experienced kidney failure, among some other complications. [We found this out Friday night...Steve was actually pretty torn. And he is a DAMNED good projector!!!] [it means I felt it pretty strongly too.]
We were able to see her for 2-3 hours today, and although she was barely wakeful or coherant as she drifted in and out of sleep, I was very glad they were able to see each other one last time. Though, as time can tend to do in a nasty hospital room... it draaagggged.
About an hour after we departed from her hospital room, she died.
So, needless to say it's been a tough day! And the fact that of course, before she died, the entire family seemed to be FIGHTING over how to handle the medical choices. Too bad people cannot just support each other in such times. Instead they feel much better becoming angry at each other and fighting. *shrugs* As I agreed with Steve's aunt... death is a part of life. But apparently the whole family didn't see that.
That's okay. I was very wakeful and coherant today. I am still wide awake...
/snip>
So jeah. Shitty.
Anyway. Today will soon be over. bedtime.
-Angela
Sean ciall intensive. Awesome. I am excited to have figured out my strong point. Cheryl's are all really obvious. I am proud to stay that perhaps my strength is strong energic stamina. Yeay to realize a good thing.
Um. Next. London Bridges. Fun. Melding Conciousness. Fun. Grounding WAS harder. But I knew that immediately and therefore focused it on damned near immediately. I felt a definite difference.
I as well, wonder what my limits are. Cheryl seems to think this is a crazy gesture. I think it's natural. We all want to know how far we can push the line. This is no question. I think we'll find out. At least, I intend to.
Umm.. More?
TOUGH day:
SNIP from an e-mail>
So, we drove to Olympia to visit Steve's not-so-well grandma in the hospital, as she experienced kidney failure, among some other complications. [We found this out Friday night...Steve was actually pretty torn. And he is a DAMNED good projector!!!] [it means I felt it pretty strongly too.]
We were able to see her for 2-3 hours today, and although she was barely wakeful or coherant as she drifted in and out of sleep, I was very glad they were able to see each other one last time. Though, as time can tend to do in a nasty hospital room... it draaagggged.
About an hour after we departed from her hospital room, she died.
So, needless to say it's been a tough day! And the fact that of course, before she died, the entire family seemed to be FIGHTING over how to handle the medical choices. Too bad people cannot just support each other in such times. Instead they feel much better becoming angry at each other and fighting. *shrugs* As I agreed with Steve's aunt... death is a part of life. But apparently the whole family didn't see that.
That's okay. I was very wakeful and coherant today. I am still wide awake...
/snip>
So jeah. Shitty.
Anyway. Today will soon be over. bedtime.
-Angela
