angelak | Screw this; I'm going home... I wish

For whatever reason:

Today I am excessively tired.
Excessively irritable.
Excessively blah.
Every time I seem to open my mouth about the office issues; or anything – eh.

I want to go home and sleep. The good news:
I have completed 93% of my holiday shopping.
I will get paid tomorrow; small payday.

I guess best case scenario I would sleep all day.
The solstice is Friday and I want to do something personally special for it because this week feels especially hard. Appropriate for the darkest week of the year.

My cold is mostly improved so I can resume my running schedule.
I should push harder now on pushups and sit-ups.
I must change the fact sometimes I feel like having the guy around hinders my fitness resolutions.

Separate from that and wholly related to my difficult morning... it started ... weird.
This morning the 5AM clock rang and I didn’t wake up. Jim turned it off and I said something like, “yeay,” and immediately fell back asleep. I don’t remember saying “yeay,” but he came back to bed and said something and scared the hell out of me. My response was literally "AHHHH!" He had been confused because he had spoken to me 1 minute prior.

Today I just don’t want to talk to anybody.
Tired, hungry for no reason – haven’t been running or exercising enough to warrant my extra hunger. It could be the cold weather? I guess I have only been slacking on my jogging for a week or so.

I was just in a really good groove.
I’m feeling frustrated because I get the feeling with this new hire I’m going to get screwed and stuck in the crappy front-middle-of-everything desk and rank won’t have privileges like it did for TS. I am not happy with where my cubie is, and yet this office is so poorly laid out even in the chance I have to switch it feels impossible to get a better layout. And that the new person will get to go in a further back, more private area than me just because they’ll have budget for cubie walls. I get stuck with hand me downs that are a decade old.

I’m frustrated and disenchanted with the fact that I feel hopeless with challenge; the MDT’s aren’t even something I want to work hard at this week. I’ve been feeling dizzy and nauseous off and on today, and Smith has jumped on me whenever I got moody. Why is it when I get annoyed at people in the room when I am concentrating on the phone it’s unreasonable, but the times he has gotten frustrated when I came in to talk to him about things (for instance, the boss told me to inform him) I get shrugged off?

I’m going to go get out of the office for a few minutes and escape my annoyance. I just get more and more annoyed sometimes.

Mostly because everything I've wanted regarding the office switch-around is getting totally overlooked. I am not happy here.

What the hell ever.

-Angela