Pain.

[angelak]

Just, ow.
Okay. Days 1,2,3 were not this bad.
I am just saying. Should I be on the upswing by now? I feel really not cool.
I took ibuprophen, 800MG, before bed. That helped.
I woke up I imagine, when this began to wear off.
I took some more.

I left my Roxicet at Jim’s. What. A. Fool.
I am seriously ow. And typically I have been known to have a pretty good pain tolerance. This may be post surgery pain, or else not. I have no way of knowing what is “normal,” but then I know for each person this differs.

All I know, is that for the last hour of my life – I have not been very happy. At all.
Ow.

I didn’t complain about the actual pain up until a day or two ago. And now I just want to say FUCK. This hurts.

The ibuprophen I took? Is it working?
I don’t want to be here at work, but if I weren’t at work – I’d be at home. Doing the same thing. Saying “fuck. This hurts.”

My swelling is 93% gone I think. (It’s hard to tell after all.)
I seriously would have taken Roxicet, which I did not take much of overall, if it were available. And because I am a damned fool it is 50 miles away.
I am so tempted to drive over there to get it later today if this doesn’t let up and the ibuprophen doesn’t help. Because this is just ridiculous.

I am on Day 6.
I really REALLY figured by Day 6 I’d be good to go, at least most of the way through all the pain. What somehow annoys me more is when folks are telling me “the worst is over with.” Everything that has happened up until now, has been the opposite. I think the worst is over with, and then I wake up the next day and it hurts more.

I have a checkup for this tomorrow at 10. (Standard week later checkup.)
So – as for the rest of things. I don’t look like crap, so people don’t really think I’m in pain. This is actually typical for me.

People do this a lot.
Oh, look. You aren’t showing it that much. You’re fine.

Right now I am short of finding a brick wall and slamming my head against it. This would fantastically knock me out and I could stay asleep and no longer feel anything. The ibuprophen I took over an hour ago is really. Kind of working. But I wish it were working more.


-Angela

Comments

[netharos.livejournal.com]

Going through a great deal of physical pain right now myself, I sympathize so much. It's very true what you say about people not being able to empathize with what they can't see, and then assume that you must be fine because you're not actively writhing in agony. There are times when I'm at work or around others where inwardly I'm screaming my lungs out with how much things can start to hurt--but honestly, who wants to vocalize that and: 1)Burden others with it. 2)Embarass ourselves by exposing our vulnerabilities.

I hope your pain lessens soon. You're right that it's different for everyone--I honestly don't remember my full wisdom teeth experience, so unfortunately I can't give you a realistic idea when it will be over. You're doing great though, and by all means express "Fuck this hurts!" in places where it's safe to like lj all you need to.