angelak | Pain.

Just, ow.
Okay. Days 1,2,3 were not this bad.
I am just saying. Should I be on the upswing by now? I feel really not cool.
I took ibuprophen, 800MG, before bed. That helped.
I woke up I imagine, when this began to wear off.
I took some more.

I left my Roxicet at Jim’s. What. A. Fool.
I am seriously ow. And typically I have been known to have a pretty good pain tolerance. This may be post surgery pain, or else not. I have no way of knowing what is “normal,” but then I know for each person this differs.

All I know, is that for the last hour of my life – I have not been very happy. At all.
Ow.

I didn’t complain about the actual pain up until a day or two ago. And now I just want to say FUCK. This hurts.

The ibuprophen I took? Is it working?
I don’t want to be here at work, but if I weren’t at work – I’d be at home. Doing the same thing. Saying “fuck. This hurts.”

My swelling is 93% gone I think. (It’s hard to tell after all.)
I seriously would have taken Roxicet, which I did not take much of overall, if it were available. And because I am a damned fool it is 50 miles away.
I am so tempted to drive over there to get it later today if this doesn’t let up and the ibuprophen doesn’t help. Because this is just ridiculous.

I am on Day 6.
I really REALLY figured by Day 6 I’d be good to go, at least most of the way through all the pain. What somehow annoys me more is when folks are telling me “the worst is over with.” Everything that has happened up until now, has been the opposite. I think the worst is over with, and then I wake up the next day and it hurts more.

I have a checkup for this tomorrow at 10. (Standard week later checkup.)
So – as for the rest of things. I don’t look like crap, so people don’t really think I’m in pain. This is actually typical for me.

People do this a lot.
Oh, look. You aren’t showing it that much. You’re fine.

Right now I am short of finding a brick wall and slamming my head against it. This would fantastically knock me out and I could stay asleep and no longer feel anything. The ibuprophen I took over an hour ago is really. Kind of working. But I wish it were working more.

-Angela