The last couple of weeks

[angelak]

Last couple of weeks HAVE been a little off.

Today feels better.
Took a shower.
Am not going to go for a hike after all - sometimes I push myself too hard.

I had a lot of communication with Jim and I think I'm more clear on things I felt weren't very strongly expressed, or more so - that I may have been overlooking.

I am not sure what is triggering any kind of hyper-sensitivity or major melt down moments, but I know it's been hit twice in the last week and it did cause me to re-evaluate. I guess there is NOTHING wrong with re-evaluating.

I just want to make sure I'm in a place that is going to sustain emotional fulfillment for me. And I feel like I'm doing better with making things clear and so is Jim.

I have trouble being 100% verbal - so I feel like we met a good middle ground last night. I think things are headed the right direction and I just needed to finish releasing some pent-up, internalized crap that I had let build up.

I try not to let things build - but there it is. I'm only as perfect as all humans are - and that is NOT perfect.
I feel better now and I'll be trying to plan something today to follow-up on the stress with more positive.

-Angela

Comments

[sterling-raptor.livejournal.com]

Not to be nosy or pokey at your business, but Summer Solstice is right around the corner and it does cause a lot of upheaval. At least for me. Things get very...agressive around the Novak homestead when the God comes into his power. It is possible you are reactiong to the energy shifts...or I could be nuts. Either way, hugs and I hope things settle down for you.

Wouldn't doubt it!

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

Bejezus, I never associated it - but you know how clue by fours are. They creep up on you, smack you - and then, BAM - the realization appears of what factors may be attributing.

I did just go through an intense need to be a little more aggressive rather than passive about my status, needs, and communication.

More of a "THIS NEEDS OUT SO HERE IT COMES" sort of rationale.

You can be nosy all you want and pokey too. It's welcome 93% of the time. And for the 7% it is not - that's what we get for posting it for the world to read, right? :)

-Angela