angelak | Wonderful today. Wonderful.

So, today has flown by so far. I woke up slightly late and went to work late. My bad. I apparently turned off my alarm without barely waking up. WTF? In other news, I had some good talks with Jim last night. He is behind me 100% regarding the lease issues. This makes me feel a lot better. I was pretty depressed about the situation, but people are reassuring. I did nothing wrong, and no matter what happens things will be OK. Definitely what I need to remember. I am grateful to have Jim be so supportive, because I know I kind of need it.

Speaking of Jim, his LJ is empty and I was helping him make user icons. I hope he posts but I doubt he will, although I also think it’d be neat if he did and I know he likes to read LJ (He has always had a tendency to read over my shoulder when I am reading my friend’s list). So, we’ll give him a chance to get addicted. He probably will be one of your lurkers. When I said that, he said, “That sounds weird…” and well. It’s just an LJ term of sorts.

I feel inspired, after reading my entries from 2003 to start actually writing a little better than I have. To just jump in and post and update. I’ve been holding back the past few months a little. I mention this a lot but that is OK.

I hung Jim’s camo curtains in our computer room (room 5) yesterday! They look awesome. Jim likes them. He also loves his little couch pillows mom made with the same material that I bought. It has been infinitely awesome to have someone be so great at sewing, she’s so willing to help and I love it! I love my dining room curtains too.

Anyways. So, life is going.
It’s Friday, I have plans after work and part of me is dying to go, the other part of me is feeling lazy and like organizing my laundry. How lame is that? I know I’d probably duck out of that if it came to that. (Laundry.) The OTHER other part of me is frustrated. How am I going to work in running? I have also not gotten my crap together for the weekend. Damnit.

So yeah. A lunchtime run would solve the problem but then again…
I feel like eating more than exercising solely. There is not enough time in the day.
The run last night turned into walk – Jim felt bluh. It was a really, really enjoyable walk though. We talked and it was much needed.

I’m feeling a lot higher about life today, which is welcome. The last 2 days I’ve been pretty low and feeling like I wanted to shrink into the ground and die.

The boss bought me coffee when I tagged along to the stand (was going to buy my own.) I never go to the coffee stand anymore… and so I ordered my old usual. (Double short with a shot of Irish crème flavor).

I have been more alert than I normally am. Then again I had a dead sleep, slept in a bit too late, and then I had a double shot of espresso. Well, let me tell you. I am liking the mood high, after being so low. I’d love to run today, how can I accomplish this. Damn damn.

I’m dying to get out and run!!! Ugh. I’m so into it now and I don’t know when or how it happened. I’m loving it!!! I love what the last year has done to my muscle tone as well. I know I’m pretty negative sometimes when it comes to performance, (Jim was pointing this out, as the guy gets to hear first hand – more than most)… so today I am going to recognize that I have far exceeded my own expectations, and that I’m doing great (he thinks so too).

*Sigh* Yesterday at this time I wanted to wilt. Today I feel good. And Julie and I had a good discussion and related on the rental topic. It feels so much better to get along with her than to be angry. I hope this trend sticks. I am going to make a sustained effort at not being frustrated or angry at her. I am also going to work on my shields and make better ones to accommodate when I do. Nobody needs to feel my frustration. It has taken me a long time to realize that no matter how strong the annoyance, even I can learn to control it.

-Angela