Ahh - life

[angelak]

Today I feel like I want to be in a zone all of my own. I'm sort of in need of a good evening at my house with no one there but me. But I doubt this is going to happen just yet. It's the 23rd of January. I get paid in 2 days after a 25 day dry spell in the paycheck department. I am looking forward to this. I have some of it parceled off to bills though. I am not used to this every two week smaller paycheck business – as I have been paid once a month for 6 years.

On that note; what a wonderful thing to celebrate. Just the merit of the idea that I have been paid for 6 years and have not had a dry spell in employment. How could I overlook this? Sometimes I think about how my job drones on and on... but, the truth is this is a blessing. I know this. I'm a 23 year old in the modern world making it by... and I'm not doing too bad. I can pay for all my bills with ease and I can buy the things I want.

It is under a month now that I am journeying to New York. I've got some really good things going on; although I am glad Jim is leaving Friday to go snowboarding (and to spend $100 or so) with Travis and some of Trav's pals. We had some healthy discussions last night; although that can be tedious. I pretty much got some of my less conscious beefs out in the open. Sometimes it takes me a web-sort of kind of thinking to figure out all that is effecting an entire frustration. I don't usually sit back and think about what it is that causes me frustration.

I learn more about how I handle the universe around me everyday.
I knew I was an extremist, but apparently I also tend to make situations permanents rather than what they sometimes are: temporary.

I knew I over-used the words Always and Never. I remember a few years ago I had even tried to stop doing this... but that can be super difficult.

We have gotten past the part where he tells me “the best way to respond,” because I realized over time that grates on me. He took this piece to heart. Sometimes it's easy for someone else to tell you how to respond when it is the natural progression for THEM. But Jim realizes now that this isn't really realistic to ask someone in a heated moment to do or say things that aren't quite natural with their personal rhythm. This is very good (this we discussed at a different date.)

So after the exhausting web-solving as I might call it - I just had no energy to work out. I was shielding heavily the entire time, which I usually forget to do in any sort of discussion with Jim. It was effective so that I could actually take the time to consider my reactions instead of just going with the gut. I think I could really get used to using the shielding techniques more effectively like this.

I found one that really works for me. So, after shielding heavily for a couple of hours straight and using a lot of mental capacity to figure out what could be better for ME about our living environment that wouldn't impose on Jim's reality, I was in no condition anymore to circuit train. I also mildly strained part of my dorsal foot testing out my new treadmill.
Still getting used to it. What? I never told you all? On Monday I was impulsive because Travis was bored. I have been contemplating buying a treadmill for some time, but Monday – MLK-day, and freezing weather day, I saw a deal on CL. It was a moderately aged treadmill for $75. I've been wanting to sell my recumbent bike... so I pasted the link to the cheap treadmill and told Travis, “but it's in Gig Harbor!” He was bored and wanted an adventure so he told me to call and we'd make it work. I was like “But, but, but” and made 3 excuses why it might not work.

Well, after that we ended up in Gig Harbor.
Bought the treadmill, managed to get it in his Audi A4... and drove home.
Now, I love the exercise bike except that I have a 1-equipment limit in my home. It's a small duplex to begin with (not tiny, but small) and if we ever move somewhere the last thing I want is to juggle 2 pieces of equipment. I have not used my bike in 6 months. If I don't use the equipment more frequent than that I think it speaks for itself; it isn't getting enough use for the space it takes up.

So I posted it on CL for $385, seeing as I bought it for $400+ on sale. I found ones exactly like it still on Amazon.com for like $450. Mine is in perfect condition, so I thought I'd try my best for as much as I could get. I mean, in my mind if I sold it for $385, it'd be about a $300 little paycheck and it paid for my treadmill; something I will likely use more in the next few winter months. Now, I could have bought a nicer treadmill, but I still prefer outdoor running – so why drop a lot of money on a piece that I am not likely to use that much? It will get me through, and it will do more than the un-used bike in the corner will. (although the bike makes a super comfy seat!)

This afternoon I have a woman coming to look and possibly take the bike home. 4:15. I hope it works out, because I will be STOKED if it does. Couple of things that would do for me.

I could take $100 or so of it and pay off my Kohl's card - (I was going to do this anyway) and it would have paid for my new clothes (that I had to buy because I shrunk). Or I could take a couple hundred to New York with me and ease the financial burden of journeying! Either way, I win and these things don't come out of my paycheck. Awesome.

We'll see. She said she was looking at pretty much the same model but new for buying it. Well, this would be a good deal for her then as I see it. It's had 6 months use tops, and I kept it in good shape. I will be a happy woman if I sell this today. *Crossing fingers*

Random note; I have had more sports injury issues on treadmills than out on the street. Blister last week, a slight toe train issue this week. People always blab about the harsh pavement... but it has not really given me any issues. Interesting.

So today I want to Circuit train if I have energy. (My toe is mostly good to go, but extra days can do wonders). Tomorrow I can run. Last night was DayOff(tm)

One comment; damn is it cold!??!
Also on my agenda today: do the dishes and my own laundry. And as far as work I am doing a presentation for some PWE folks on how to use their electronic whiteboard. Okey dokey.

Short days this week. Last night sort of sucked because I had to come back to help TS on his State of the City video during the meeting last night. But it will be an extra $45.

Trying to bolster more money so I can spend more and save some too. (New York trip=spending more).
It also might look like the cash from sick leave conversation on the 31st of this month can go towards NY. In the next day or so here I will pay for my ticket and other random crap from December spending.
Clean slate.

I do my best.
Either way, I am sure I will be okay. And I believe while I am away in New York, I will get payday #2. How sweet will that be? I now get paid on the 10th and the 25th. About the beginning of week 2 in NY I will be getting paid!!! Perhaps I can get used to this 2 times a month equal paycheck thing... right now it just feels like an unknown ;)

Whatever the case.
I feel good because I'm writing today. It's been a while. I just have so much on my mind. I need to fix JW's old machine so I can give it back. Must find a working XP disk. The one he gave me is scratched.
Regardless, I am feeling good this morning. Good coffee (I ground up some of the stuff Gma and Mom got for me for Christmas). Cinnamon Hazelnut is tasty.

I need to call the IRS and figure out what or how to find my Declaration Control Number; they never received my electronic payment confirmation that all the info was correct. It means if I don't straighten this out soon, I won't be able to file for my next tax return! (If I get one, har har. I better.)
Because the tax return this year is going to be savings. In case me and the man are able to search for a condo in the next 6mo-1yr. It seems the economy is tanking a little an interest rates are being slashed. Now is possibly time. I am keeping it open as an option. The notion still terrifies me and Jim.

But if not soon, when? Buyers' markets only come along every so often.
I bought a $4 giant calendar so I can stop writing my calendars out by hand; but now I have no idea how to hang it where I want it. Fuck.

Maybe I can find some solution for door 2 (closet #2...) But I am trying not to put holes in the door.
How do I hang this calendar then??? Giant sticky pads maybe? I should keep my eyes open for that. I want to hang it soon. I couldn't find this sort of calendar last year for some reason. Maybe I waited too long.

Anyways. I should get off LJ. This has droned on plenty.


-Angela

Comments

[dudelovenext.livejournal.com]

Sounds like you've had quite a bit going on. :)

Yeah, I agree; it's been FUCKING cold. The locks on my car doors have been frozen for the past several mornings. Not sure if it's just my luck or if it's a big problem.

Yeah, Whitney and I are going to join 24-Hour Fitness. Need to tone up my sexy body. :)

I hope you have a great time in New York! And yes, let's get together soon. I'll see what my schedule is looking like and I'll harrass you. :)

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

!!! Jeah! I used to be a member of 24 hr fitness. Not too shabby of a gym.
But it costs a lot so I try lower cost options that are more local to my home (for instnace, the living room). hahaha.
Miss you SK!

-KarenAngela

[dudelovenext.livejournal.com]

I think I need a dedicated fitness area to be able to get into the mood for exercise. I think I can get a membership for $50 (and I think possibly a family membership for cheaper...).

Miss you!