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angelakSigh. It's peaceful with the loud people off not at their desks and the silence in the office.
I'd listen to music, but I never feel at ease doing that in the office. Unless I truly am trying to drown out the noise.
Sigh. This morning began super weird!!!!!
Already.
I woke at 5, hit the snooze, and somehow I slept like a rock through the next alarm until nearly 6:45.
I got up, showered. Jim came home. He was being super nice, but then we got into some pointless altercation about... well, nevermind. Needless to say it was pointless and sort of made me feel weird. But then, I already felt weird in the morning when I woke up, so... maybe that was part of it.
It meant he started getting defensive, talking loud – which typically does annoy me a little. At least early in the morning, when I am trying to ready myself for work. To be honest, I was just not in the mood for much of anything THIS morning.
It doesn't help I am beginning my day as his is drawing to a close. So he's been up already.
So that sort of shot my morning in a nutshull.
I was already feeling off. Although it is probably not real weight – (like actual flarb) the scale jumped UP 3lbs from last week. Thanks to perhaps the empending period, or something I ate??? Most certainly because I know my jeans size shrunk. And it's most likely not muscle mass. So, although numbers pretty much mean nothing, it sort of miffed me considering I've eaten fairly spot on healthily, and been busting my ass as far as working out.
Ever since life changed it's been a lot harder. Maybe I just don't have the same discipline and am not noticing... who knows. I'm staying tuned for next week. Whatever. I'm crabby.
Oh yeah. ANd we may find out about the loan today. Or tomorrow. Or the next day.
*shrugs* I'm nervous. If the bank says, "no," I have to let go of what I've been sitting on edge and dreaming about all this time. I don't want any more harsh heartbreak this year. But it is beyond my measure of control, so I may or may not have to cope with the concept.
-Angela
I'd listen to music, but I never feel at ease doing that in the office. Unless I truly am trying to drown out the noise.
Sigh. This morning began super weird!!!!!
Already.
I woke at 5, hit the snooze, and somehow I slept like a rock through the next alarm until nearly 6:45.
I got up, showered. Jim came home. He was being super nice, but then we got into some pointless altercation about... well, nevermind. Needless to say it was pointless and sort of made me feel weird. But then, I already felt weird in the morning when I woke up, so... maybe that was part of it.
It meant he started getting defensive, talking loud – which typically does annoy me a little. At least early in the morning, when I am trying to ready myself for work. To be honest, I was just not in the mood for much of anything THIS morning.
It doesn't help I am beginning my day as his is drawing to a close. So he's been up already.
So that sort of shot my morning in a nutshull.
I was already feeling off. Although it is probably not real weight – (like actual flarb) the scale jumped UP 3lbs from last week. Thanks to perhaps the empending period, or something I ate??? Most certainly because I know my jeans size shrunk. And it's most likely not muscle mass. So, although numbers pretty much mean nothing, it sort of miffed me considering I've eaten fairly spot on healthily, and been busting my ass as far as working out.
Ever since life changed it's been a lot harder. Maybe I just don't have the same discipline and am not noticing... who knows. I'm staying tuned for next week. Whatever. I'm crabby.
Oh yeah. ANd we may find out about the loan today. Or tomorrow. Or the next day.
*shrugs* I'm nervous. If the bank says, "no," I have to let go of what I've been sitting on edge and dreaming about all this time. I don't want any more harsh heartbreak this year. But it is beyond my measure of control, so I may or may not have to cope with the concept.
-Angela
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Date: 2008-10-15 04:29 pm (UTC)