angelak | Bikram Yoga Day 1

I always thought yoga was sort of a squishy pansy sort of ordeal. I don't know, I hadn't given it too much thought. But tonight was a challenge. More or less scary, emotional, and a lot of work. I knew it was hard work. People always said that, and trusting to energie or (S) if you will - I figured she wouldn't be interested in anything that wasn't pretty damned good.

This... was.
I'm terrified and yet. I must go back tomorrow.
I must also remember this is my first day. And I fear a lot of stuff with my knees. I had NOT had a chance to talk to the instructor JUST prior to the classssss. So, I was like "errr should I be doing this?" regarding my knee the whole time. The only thing I feel that was BAD for my knee - was the kneeling (sitting on one's heels). That actually DID hurt, the rest seemed ok. I have to trust in locking my knees. I think I spent the greater portion of the last 8 mo no longer locking my knees what so ever. And now I am required of it...

I am confused.
And a little grumpy because I came home to dogs diahriaaharaaa - in the crate, also my flashlight misplaced and Jim still asleep. I feel wholly alone.

But the experience was good. I think?

-Angela