Yoga and life
Dec. 17th, 2008 07:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angelakLife has been pretty busy. Went to the ocean last weekend with my mom and Gma. That was a riot. Coming back was a bit of an ordeal with all the snow and ice. Damnit!
We had a mostly good time. But by the end I was panicking about how I was going to stay sane for the end of my weekend. So we left in time to hit the middle of, but get the snow-driving over with. Classy the Subaru prevailed, once again.
I did manage to go to the Friday Yoga, Saturday Morning Yoga before my trip to the coast, and then I skipped my second day since December 5th, and then was able to attend a Monday class following. The Saturday morning class felt like my worst and most challenging class ever. My focus was not there. I became irritable quickly. The Monday afternoon class went very well. I felt like I made progress on all the poses and only struggled acutely with one or two, noticing my focus was strong.
I went yesterday - which makes for an active day 10 of Bikram. 10 of 12 days is not too bad.
This totals to 15 hrs of Yoga. I am a little concerned for today's classes. Last night I left work 30 minutes early to hit the 6:30 class, and lucked out because the 8:30 class was canceled. I would not have checked the phone messages and that would have sucked. Today their 6:15AM class is canceled, and again their 8:30PM class. The class I usually prefer as to not fight traffic and get off easily from my job without modifying my hours what-so-ever, is the 8:30. I think I will be contemplating taking an early lunch to hit the noon class (ugh, that entails taking like a 2+ hour lunch, I guess I can use comp time?) or just leaving the office, once again - a little early at 5:30. (I normally get off at 6). It takes roughly 30 minutes to get to the studio, but I hate to cut it close and I really hate feeling impatient behind drivers - particularly when the weather conditions are shitty.
The way I avoid my blood boiling and stress is to leave with no less than 40 minutes time to get there. So people can drive like idiots and I don't have to freak out. Nothing more do I hate than feeling late and out of control with the fact that old grandma Joanie up front is just too scared to go any faster on those curves.
I say this having a nice handling vehicle.
And tons of experience behind the wheel. And less fear. And some common sense. Oh, n/m!
Needless to say, I really really want to make it in, get my stretching in for the day. I want to see just how much I can do for this knee injury. The more I go, the faster I can see the results of all my hard work. It is no run in the park. (I love running in parks!) But, it might just get me back to running in parks without fear!!!
And to be honest, I find for the last few months I've really been searching for SOMETHING. It almost felt like I was searching for SOMEONE. In so many ways, I feel like instead of looking outside (okay, pagans, here it comes) I should have been looking inside all this time. I was trying desperately, but in a way this makes the path to introspection without anger, judgment, resentment, hurt, pain, and malice towards myself possible. And for why, I couldn't say. I am glad in many ways I approached this path all by myself (with the suggestion of Sam) and entered the Yoga with this as a solo path for now. I have not begun to make Yogi friends or anything, but I find that in oh-so-many ways for the time being, it makes possible a focus that is not possible for me when I'm being the Social-Angela. And to be honest, the 24 year old Angela is in many ways, an introvert.
Let's hope I can hit a class tonight and continue my good attendance!!! It has to be doing wonders for my quads. Now if only I had more time to work in the rest of what I want to do. I guess I will have to begin filtering in my other fitness forms like... on the weekends first. Work slow and all. lol. But for now, I am content to just see where this takes me and have faith that whatever muscle definition or stamina that I lose from my other choice activities, returns without much ado when I CAN focus again on all aspects that complete me.
-Angela
We had a mostly good time. But by the end I was panicking about how I was going to stay sane for the end of my weekend. So we left in time to hit the middle of, but get the snow-driving over with. Classy the Subaru prevailed, once again.
I did manage to go to the Friday Yoga, Saturday Morning Yoga before my trip to the coast, and then I skipped my second day since December 5th, and then was able to attend a Monday class following. The Saturday morning class felt like my worst and most challenging class ever. My focus was not there. I became irritable quickly. The Monday afternoon class went very well. I felt like I made progress on all the poses and only struggled acutely with one or two, noticing my focus was strong.
I went yesterday - which makes for an active day 10 of Bikram. 10 of 12 days is not too bad.
This totals to 15 hrs of Yoga. I am a little concerned for today's classes. Last night I left work 30 minutes early to hit the 6:30 class, and lucked out because the 8:30 class was canceled. I would not have checked the phone messages and that would have sucked. Today their 6:15AM class is canceled, and again their 8:30PM class. The class I usually prefer as to not fight traffic and get off easily from my job without modifying my hours what-so-ever, is the 8:30. I think I will be contemplating taking an early lunch to hit the noon class (ugh, that entails taking like a 2+ hour lunch, I guess I can use comp time?) or just leaving the office, once again - a little early at 5:30. (I normally get off at 6). It takes roughly 30 minutes to get to the studio, but I hate to cut it close and I really hate feeling impatient behind drivers - particularly when the weather conditions are shitty.
The way I avoid my blood boiling and stress is to leave with no less than 40 minutes time to get there. So people can drive like idiots and I don't have to freak out. Nothing more do I hate than feeling late and out of control with the fact that old grandma Joanie up front is just too scared to go any faster on those curves.
I say this having a nice handling vehicle.
And tons of experience behind the wheel. And less fear. And some common sense. Oh, n/m!
Needless to say, I really really want to make it in, get my stretching in for the day. I want to see just how much I can do for this knee injury. The more I go, the faster I can see the results of all my hard work. It is no run in the park. (I love running in parks!) But, it might just get me back to running in parks without fear!!!
And to be honest, I find for the last few months I've really been searching for SOMETHING. It almost felt like I was searching for SOMEONE. In so many ways, I feel like instead of looking outside (okay, pagans, here it comes) I should have been looking inside all this time. I was trying desperately, but in a way this makes the path to introspection without anger, judgment, resentment, hurt, pain, and malice towards myself possible. And for why, I couldn't say. I am glad in many ways I approached this path all by myself (with the suggestion of Sam) and entered the Yoga with this as a solo path for now. I have not begun to make Yogi friends or anything, but I find that in oh-so-many ways for the time being, it makes possible a focus that is not possible for me when I'm being the Social-Angela. And to be honest, the 24 year old Angela is in many ways, an introvert.
Let's hope I can hit a class tonight and continue my good attendance!!! It has to be doing wonders for my quads. Now if only I had more time to work in the rest of what I want to do. I guess I will have to begin filtering in my other fitness forms like... on the weekends first. Work slow and all. lol. But for now, I am content to just see where this takes me and have faith that whatever muscle definition or stamina that I lose from my other choice activities, returns without much ado when I CAN focus again on all aspects that complete me.
-Angela
