Sunday, Sunday...
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angelakJust updating from my corner of the world.
Daily life is certainly something interesting for me. Building on realities that I always wanted to manifest...
Also having faith other realities that haven't come to fruition will come when the time is right.
Had a great trip to the ocean, it seems to have flown by.
The drive was almost as enjoyable as the ocean itself this time around, which surprises me. But then, often Jon and I would meet for coffee and talk for hours about nothing and everything... what a better way to do this, while burning gas speeding down the highway, ocean bound?
It worked out pretty good that way.
Right before I headed home, I let him drive Classy and give the manual a chance. He picked it up in about 5 minutes, my particular clutch. Something relieving about that...
Been hanging out with Jim today, somewhat. He is staying up late obviously and this is his night off. Am thinking of heading out to see mom, but unsure of that. Driving up North and using more gas? A bit lower on funds than I'm used to after paying out of pocket for some medical expenses and having not faxed in to my flex account yet... :P
I guess that just means later on, my account will experience a spike.
Been enjoying myself this weekend. I am also heading into another 3 day work week, as Veteran's day is Wednesday.
Work schedule looks like this:
Tuesday, Thursday, Friday.
...
I decline to comment.
I have a lot of work going on at work, but I am just fine with where ever that ends up. Sharepoint project is still like pulling out teeth for me. All I have to do is the bare minimum to shut my boss up. This is exactly how I feel about the project. I'm not a web designer. I don't enjoy web administration. In fact, I strongly dislike it. He is steering my job in this direction.
I really just don't enjoy it.
What I do enjoy happens to be teaching and talking to people, and fixing stuff when it doesn't work. I am luke warm on the help desk business at this point anyway - but it beats web admin any day.
My brain isn't built like a web designer. I suck at it. I don't like putting shit together like that. This is why LJ was a great invention. I could post content and not even touch the shitty parts; design.
Besides. I feel like Sharepoint makes anything simple, and turns it into a complex task. Is that retarded? 2 years ago it seemed cooler. Today, it just seems like a pain in my ass, like cellulite.
We'll see. I'll just keep doing what I can do. And shifting my energies outside of work to maximize on what will later become a life change.
Knees have bounced back pretty well with the intense rest. Happy for this. Thinking they are back to the heightened healthy level that they were at before the treadmill situation. ME and the treadmill have always been harder on my joints than the outdoors - yes really.
I think it has to do with natural pacing verses what a machine sets.
Really frustrated with how shotty my efforts were with the raw food last week. Today I was talking out some thoughts with Jim when I realized what my experience was for the 5 days that I *did* succeed before Vegas.
It re-inspired me on some level. Switching back and forth is pretty lousy in general on the digestive system, (cooked vs raw). I am also tempted to explore what other options there are for more in depth raw recipes. I might switch up my formula for meals. I was tempted to jump on a meal plan to kick my last 10 that are hanging about (10lbs) but, then I started talking it out, outloud and thought more and more about how great I felt for those 5 days.
When I began verbalizing on those memories of my mental/physical states, I realized how sad I am to have left that as my sole experience so far. Halloween behind me, no parties scheduled - no trips scheduled, it might be time to revisit it with more seriousness and planning. Still thinking about it. My method last time was "I should just do it. Just take it 1 day, 1 meal at a time." It worked better than I expected. In fact, it worked up until I left town for the workshop.
I tried that method when I came back and struggled to get with it. I suspect this had to do with the fact I upped my running schedule and was on caloric deficit. When I accidentally cut the calories too low, more cooked foods are craved and I feel like trying to "catch up" with my body's caloric usage. (Over-eating). I suddenly want to feel FULL instead of just satiated. Hmmmmmmm....
More work to be done here. Sounds like I need to plan more.
If I work with this from my next meal onwards, I think I could stand to make some serious progress on several goals.
I also would like to learn more variant meals than what I was using for my first week's template of raw eating.
For when I get bored.
Raw meal structure of before looked like this:
Fruit in the morning (lots) or a smoothie
Green juice for lunch (loaded with veggies and 1 piece of fruit to sweeten the meal)
Salad loaded with fruit and a small portion of fat for dinner
Fruit anytime I felt like I was getting too hungry any time during the day.
This actually killed a lot of cravings and seemed to work out great energy wise. This being done with a highly active lifestyle (read, running and yoga nearly daily).
I lost 7lbs while eating nonstop this way in the first week. I regained some of it back when I went to Vegas and was pretty hard pressed to eat sensibly - and naturally lost my focus.
Hmmm....
The #1 best benefit was not the weight loss.
It was the mental clarity I experienced, and how I felt about life, and how happy I was.
I don't think I've ever hit such a strong place emotionally. I was both grounded and motivated and ready to tackle life at full force.
These benefits cannot be described in a blog - they can only be experienced to truly understand them. I think I need to give it a shot again, and take it meal by meal. Not that I have any weight loss expectations, but I have to admit my torso and digestive tract have never felt more clear and light.
Bonus was not feeling drained from processing food nearly as much - particularly with using green juice as one of my meals for the day. This energized me in a way that 4 shots of espresso have never been able to do for me. With no crash.
Particularly if I chose not to eat for 2 hrs after ingesting a green juice - on an empty stomach. Removing the fiber allows you to access that energy much quicker.
I am not hardcore enough to say I'd want to juice fast, (ye gads, expensive to do also!) but, I recognize how fortifying the experience of juicing veggies is.
*shrugs* So unconventional though. It's hard sometimes when you get all the flack for the lighter protein intake.
Sometimes it just gets old to have people tell you what you SHOULD be eating. Why not do trials on your own body, instead of constantly insisting that others eat XYZ?
I don't think I've ever tried to impress my standard foods on others ... no matter what that was.
Ahhh. this post has got to End. I am distracted chatting online with Faerievixen... pleasant.
-Angela
Daily life is certainly something interesting for me. Building on realities that I always wanted to manifest...
Also having faith other realities that haven't come to fruition will come when the time is right.
Had a great trip to the ocean, it seems to have flown by.
The drive was almost as enjoyable as the ocean itself this time around, which surprises me. But then, often Jon and I would meet for coffee and talk for hours about nothing and everything... what a better way to do this, while burning gas speeding down the highway, ocean bound?
It worked out pretty good that way.
Right before I headed home, I let him drive Classy and give the manual a chance. He picked it up in about 5 minutes, my particular clutch. Something relieving about that...
Been hanging out with Jim today, somewhat. He is staying up late obviously and this is his night off. Am thinking of heading out to see mom, but unsure of that. Driving up North and using more gas? A bit lower on funds than I'm used to after paying out of pocket for some medical expenses and having not faxed in to my flex account yet... :P
I guess that just means later on, my account will experience a spike.
Been enjoying myself this weekend. I am also heading into another 3 day work week, as Veteran's day is Wednesday.
Work schedule looks like this:
Tuesday, Thursday, Friday.
...
I decline to comment.
I have a lot of work going on at work, but I am just fine with where ever that ends up. Sharepoint project is still like pulling out teeth for me. All I have to do is the bare minimum to shut my boss up. This is exactly how I feel about the project. I'm not a web designer. I don't enjoy web administration. In fact, I strongly dislike it. He is steering my job in this direction.
I really just don't enjoy it.
What I do enjoy happens to be teaching and talking to people, and fixing stuff when it doesn't work. I am luke warm on the help desk business at this point anyway - but it beats web admin any day.
My brain isn't built like a web designer. I suck at it. I don't like putting shit together like that. This is why LJ was a great invention. I could post content and not even touch the shitty parts; design.
Besides. I feel like Sharepoint makes anything simple, and turns it into a complex task. Is that retarded? 2 years ago it seemed cooler. Today, it just seems like a pain in my ass, like cellulite.
We'll see. I'll just keep doing what I can do. And shifting my energies outside of work to maximize on what will later become a life change.
Knees have bounced back pretty well with the intense rest. Happy for this. Thinking they are back to the heightened healthy level that they were at before the treadmill situation. ME and the treadmill have always been harder on my joints than the outdoors - yes really.
I think it has to do with natural pacing verses what a machine sets.
Really frustrated with how shotty my efforts were with the raw food last week. Today I was talking out some thoughts with Jim when I realized what my experience was for the 5 days that I *did* succeed before Vegas.
It re-inspired me on some level. Switching back and forth is pretty lousy in general on the digestive system, (cooked vs raw). I am also tempted to explore what other options there are for more in depth raw recipes. I might switch up my formula for meals. I was tempted to jump on a meal plan to kick my last 10 that are hanging about (10lbs) but, then I started talking it out, outloud and thought more and more about how great I felt for those 5 days.
When I began verbalizing on those memories of my mental/physical states, I realized how sad I am to have left that as my sole experience so far. Halloween behind me, no parties scheduled - no trips scheduled, it might be time to revisit it with more seriousness and planning. Still thinking about it. My method last time was "I should just do it. Just take it 1 day, 1 meal at a time." It worked better than I expected. In fact, it worked up until I left town for the workshop.
I tried that method when I came back and struggled to get with it. I suspect this had to do with the fact I upped my running schedule and was on caloric deficit. When I accidentally cut the calories too low, more cooked foods are craved and I feel like trying to "catch up" with my body's caloric usage. (Over-eating). I suddenly want to feel FULL instead of just satiated. Hmmmmmmm....
More work to be done here. Sounds like I need to plan more.
If I work with this from my next meal onwards, I think I could stand to make some serious progress on several goals.
I also would like to learn more variant meals than what I was using for my first week's template of raw eating.
For when I get bored.
Raw meal structure of before looked like this:
Fruit in the morning (lots) or a smoothie
Green juice for lunch (loaded with veggies and 1 piece of fruit to sweeten the meal)
Salad loaded with fruit and a small portion of fat for dinner
Fruit anytime I felt like I was getting too hungry any time during the day.
This actually killed a lot of cravings and seemed to work out great energy wise. This being done with a highly active lifestyle (read, running and yoga nearly daily).
I lost 7lbs while eating nonstop this way in the first week. I regained some of it back when I went to Vegas and was pretty hard pressed to eat sensibly - and naturally lost my focus.
Hmmm....
The #1 best benefit was not the weight loss.
It was the mental clarity I experienced, and how I felt about life, and how happy I was.
I don't think I've ever hit such a strong place emotionally. I was both grounded and motivated and ready to tackle life at full force.
These benefits cannot be described in a blog - they can only be experienced to truly understand them. I think I need to give it a shot again, and take it meal by meal. Not that I have any weight loss expectations, but I have to admit my torso and digestive tract have never felt more clear and light.
Bonus was not feeling drained from processing food nearly as much - particularly with using green juice as one of my meals for the day. This energized me in a way that 4 shots of espresso have never been able to do for me. With no crash.
Particularly if I chose not to eat for 2 hrs after ingesting a green juice - on an empty stomach. Removing the fiber allows you to access that energy much quicker.
I am not hardcore enough to say I'd want to juice fast, (ye gads, expensive to do also!) but, I recognize how fortifying the experience of juicing veggies is.
*shrugs* So unconventional though. It's hard sometimes when you get all the flack for the lighter protein intake.
Sometimes it just gets old to have people tell you what you SHOULD be eating. Why not do trials on your own body, instead of constantly insisting that others eat XYZ?
I don't think I've ever tried to impress my standard foods on others ... no matter what that was.
Ahhh. this post has got to End. I am distracted chatting online with Faerievixen... pleasant.
-Angela
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Date: 2009-11-09 12:21 am (UTC)This lives with me every day.
eating habits
Date: 2009-11-09 07:28 am (UTC)And I think it's great that you can find things like this that really make you feel better all around! We don't realize just how shitty some foods and candy and stuff make us feel until we stop eating them...
=)
Re: eating habits
Date: 2009-11-09 06:44 pm (UTC)It's so true.
I never realized how lactose intolerant I was/am until the last 2 months.
While this sort of sucks - at the same time, it is actually a good thing to realize. Although sometimes I still fuck up, and now when I do, since I removed a lot of it from my diet - it REALLY impacts me now. Wow, right?
Ahhh.
This is the week where I get off the fence and go raw for as many meals as possible.
;)
Too bad we couldn't try it together :P
-Angela