angelak | 2010 and LJ!

I've been really scaling back on LJ, as my addiction to facebook has taken off. At first it didn't impact it all! But oddly - I read an article that then said "has one form of social media taken over others for you?" and then like some odd power of suggestion - I stopped LJ-ing.
Well, damnit! I'm done with that. I need live journal for archiving purposes - to look back at my life.

Also - to keep people like nobodyberry in on my life. I've been reading the entries of others for weeks, but being pretty quiet. One of my many goals that I will be exploring (this end of year) is to begin regularly updating livejournal again. SERIOUSLY.

The big thing is that since life has really begun to turn around, (I was never a sad-depressed-only livejournaler) in the past, and I refuse to allow that to have been the case. Because I'm so happy with how my knees are progressing, and with how positive I've become again.

So here goes!
Yesterday - I was going to try and hang out with Jon AT some point. But... for the second or third day, we couldn't orchestrate that. DAMN. Today it's going to happen at noon. In fact, as soon as I am done with this I am heading over to our favorite meetup place: Peet's coffee and tea in Redmond. I need to buy some coconut water anyway at Whole Foods (it is the best re-hydrator and my yoga studio sells it for more than I enjoy paying!!!)

Yesterday, was cool! I went to yoga after sleeping in. I've gotten into the very bad habit of sleeping the hell in. Well - at least it was my week and a half long vacation I took on whim - so my next goal for 2010 is to begin early rising again (5AM). I have a lot of productivity I think I can manage before my 7AM work.

Slept in, went to Grant's noon yoga class and saw Linda. You all will very well be pretty unsure of who these people are (LJ followers). These are my yoga teachers, who have become my friends as well as my instructors. Sharing energy as often as I do and seeing them every day makes a huge difference on my connections with them. It's been so great to see this. December 5th, 2008, I began Bikram Yoga as an experiment at the suggestion of energei. (Friends list here). Best thing I've ever done. I thought Yoga was for vaginas. Bikram Yoga is not for Vaginas. hahaha. I have a yoga body now. I miss my runner's figure, but have definite 2010 goals to re-obtain that! Except I think no matter what, practicing so much yoga can only mean my ass will sit high no matter what! HAHHAHA.

So true. My back muscles are rockin though.

Then after yoga class I came home. Actually, I visited with Grant for about an hour after class because there is no class till 16:30 after that. WE tend to just blahbalbahblabhazl. I can't even describe my connection with Grant. He's weird as hell and I adore him.

Came home, did some other crap? Jim woke up. We chilled. Decided to take him to Georgio's later in the evening. I have stopped going there since I felt like I didn't like their veggie subs as much since my switch to vegetarianism in September/October. About 4 months and going strong with this lifestyle. I'm okay with it. Sometimes, it gets annoying. Sometimes, it's no biggie at all.

Then Jim asked me to a movie. I was waiting for a call from Jon - but ended up agreeing to a movie with Jim anyway. We killed time at the Barnes and Noble first. I had a soy latte - a non drip coffee confection that I honestly haven't really had for about 4 months also.
At the same time I was exploring vegetarianism, I cut milk also. I generally avoid caffeine... but I treated myself with the soy latte. I almost died. It tasted so good. :P

Jim shopped for books for his dad for a Christmas gift (belated) and then we saw Avatar.
I actually enjoyed it. I owe him one for taking me to see it at the nasty, nasty price of $19.50 for two tickets. Disgusting.

Then we came home. Sleep was had. I haven't worked out yet, but I think I want to take the 20:30 class tonight. I also want to either run or circuit train.
The goal for the coming weeks will be to maintain my yoga practice - but add in running and CT. My back seems to been doing awesome - thanks to chiropractic since Octoberish (seriously, I screwed it up bigtime in 2005) and .... running! I miss it and love it. I will be working hard at improving performance wise again. My knees are so strong right now! My tendons are handling things really well. I could cry massive tears of joy. I have! I feel like my big lesson though - is to try desperately not to rebuild what I once had in 2007... but to find something new and move on. I am not what I was, and I am not what I will be tomorrow. I am what I am right now.

It is more valuable than tomorrow and yesterday.
And the learning of this has been one son of a bitch.

As for my brother. I'm bummed. I'm not sure about what the dealio will be. But, I am sure once the heat settles he'll understand the Truth about my intent. Perhaps her pressure on him colored what it was, and he began to see only her reality in that moment - perhaps his own was buried. If his own reality WAS to get angry. Well, so be it. He knows who I am. I'm the person that will go out on a limb for those I care about, even if it means I risk losing my own personal gain and the limb breaking for it.

That's who I am. And like when I was a child - no one hurts my big brother. Except - they do, can, will, and ... it is just in my innate instinct this lifetime to protect him. We can only do our best with what we have. We cannot protect those we love from the lessons they need. Messed up is his situation, or perfect - he has to walk his own path. Like parents - even well meaning - loving, siblings must see this reality too.

I adore the dude. I hope she can dig deep within herself and grow and treat him with the most respect. And if she can't? I hope in time it, her behavior, repays her.

My life - is here. Over here with its own set of lessons. And today? I'm really happy with it. Even these knees. I love these knees. I am feeding them love right now. Cheesy? Yes. But it's how they healed. (Disclaimer? I'm still careful and receptive as hell to these knees!) That falls under the category of strong self-love!

-Angela