You know

[angelak]

You know - I normally LOVE being in class.
Really, I love it.
But I really don't love this.
This is a bunch of stuff that is just too beyond me.

I don't even really know what to do about it at this point.

-Angela

Comments

[princekermit.livejournal.com]

That's rough. I definitely empathize.

Sounds like there are a few options:
- talk to the prof at the next break and excuse yourself
- leave at the lunch break and call in "sick" for the next two days.
- stay in class and completely and utterly zone out.
- throw away your preconceptions and explore it

Screw Jesus, what would Angela do?

Preconceptions

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

This has nothing to do with preconceptions.
I threw those away when I walked into the class.

This has to do with skill level/knowledge level. I have no idea wtf they are talking about.

All day today=zoning out.

Blah. I just wish I could get something out of this. But it's very hard to get something out of a class designed for someone with experience. Like - extensive experience. What the hell was I thinking agreeing to this? I guess I didn't quite know what a "Sharpoint," dev was. Oops.

-Angela

Re: Preconceptions

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

Ooo, but I love your breakdown of options.
So nice and listlike and visual. So much better for me.
:)

-Angela

Re: Preconceptions

[princekermit.livejournal.com]

If it's that far out of your skill set, why not talk to the prof and excuse yourself at lunch?

Re: Preconceptions

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

Probably a better idea...

-Angela

Re: Preconceptions

[princekermit.livejournal.com]

Definitely better than wasting your time.

You have always struck me as a person who values your time and makes a point of making the most out of what you're doing with your time.

Re: Preconceptions

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

I pretty much am. At this point I feel like tearing my eye balls out - but I'm not exactly versed at being in this situation where things are "above," my knowledge level. I have never been in this kind of situation, ever. It's freaking me out to figure out how to get the hell out of here.

Yes, walk up - talk to the prof. That's simple. Kind of.
Most times I'm ballzy. Today I just feel defeated. This was my boss's solution to me telling him I didn't feel qualified. This class was.

Well, shit. This class PROVES it.
Oh, let's try and throw this into my job for 2011.
See where I am going with this?
I could puke.

-Angela

Re: Preconceptions

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

Waste of money, waste of time.
This entire thing.

Makes me insane.

-Angela

Re: Preconceptions

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

As per sent to my boss as of 2 seconds ago:

"Hi Chris,
I can't get into OWA today.
So, I'm sending this via my personal email account - which I can get into.

This class is somewhat far above my personal skillset scope. It's a lot of serious backend coding and development that I don't think I could understand without a lot of .asp experience and web dev experience, and a whole lot of I-don't-even-know experience. I just don't have this kind of knowledge.

In fact, it begins to cause me to feel overwhelmed with this entire project. I don't know how to properly organize an enterprise Sharepoint site. I could learn how to manage it, I could teach other people how to manage it - but actually build it solo to be something efficient, effective, and worth while for the entire city? What I can provide is a hodge-podged website that will be confusing to everyone (including myself) with no clear direction and architecture. I have spoken to my other friends that have deployed Sharepoint sites at their organizations (like the patent office) and they said they had an entire team allocated to just launching the site. I suppose this could be what our IT department is considered. I just wish I understand how to properly, effecitvely, and logically organize websites like this. I don't. This sort of thing has always been one of my weaker points.

This really concerns me: Is this really where my job is heading? This class has caused me to feel worse about my skill levels.
Thoughts? Guidance? What do I do about the rest of this confusing class? It's a video led class with a mentor to ask questions. I can't even ask questions because I can't begin to attach to the C# programming in this. Get what I mean? I just keep listening and watching the video instructor and it's like a first grader listening to a calculus lecture.

-Angela"

Breathe.

[princekermit.livejournal.com]

Not your money, but it is your time.
Don't tie yourself in knots over future potentials. Deal with what is robbing you of your life now.

As to your boss, that's something to tackle this after you've had something to eat and chill from the class. If your boss is a rational person, they will recognize that the class was wrong for you and may actually consult with you before the next one.

Re: Preconceptions

[princekermit.livejournal.com]

I've got to start reading all your journal before I reply. I don't see your replies to yourself so I had no clue what you wrote to your boss when I wrote the below.