angelak: (Chill pill)
I took lunch because my boss hadn't responded yet to my email - ate a nice dandy little carb-laden meal, came back, checked my email.

Then decided I better get out of that class. I've never been in the situation where a class is "above" my skill level. I usually am placed in classes that are just right. Maybe a little on the easy side. I've been CHALLENGED in classes before, where I was almost beyond my scope, but I managed and learned tons that way too.

This wasn't the case.

Turns out, after I spoke to my prof about it - I was then directed to our account rep for the TLG learning center. I talked to him about my circumstance, what I needed the class for - what I'm intending to use the class for in my organization.

I talked to him about how I felt in the class and what my experiences were. Sounds like I am not the first non-dev to have somehow registered for the dev course. He immediately gave me the option to register for the more appropriate 1-day courses that he believed would be perfect for what I am looking to do. Both of these classes cost considerably less than the one I was enrolled in this week. This means we'll get a credit.

The next course is on March 18th - next Thursday. It is a 1 day course. While I had the option for another video/mentor led class, I also had the option for an instructor led course. I opted for a real classroom setting - not a video setting. (ew).

While the video led setting may be nice in some ways - I really need the social aspect of classrooms to learn my best. The other class, level II so to speak is being offered in April. Enough time to take my stuff back to the office and really mess with it.

If I can get the right skills to tackle the project, I find I'm a little more interested. I informed my boss of the updates, and said I was much more interested in a knowledgeable launch, than a fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants launch. This was why I was losing my stack about this, for quite some time. My account rep did assure me that had I had a year or so experience at asp and .net programming, the dev class would have been just fine. I had that distinct feeling when I was going through the coursework.
It relieved me to get this all taken care of. Not only will I get enrolled in the class that I desperately need to move on with the project, we'll be spending less to do it, and I might just be able to walk away feeling empowered instead of drowned!

Certainly must have been a universal test to see if I could take my balls out and use them at the right time, because at this point everything is straightened out, and I get the vibe that things might run a lot smoother with this project now.

The universe was forcing me to grow.
Seriously.
I had no choice.

;) Finishing out the rest of my day here at the office, and will be heading to the gym maybe before Yoga! Yes, the gym. I have my own gym. I have to brag to myself about this... for the money, I've earned bragging rights!!!!

-Angela
angelak: (Deep Thought)
Ah, well.
Will get through this somehow. Only thing to do is go right on through this dandy little bump in my current situation.

Hmmm. How exciting.
:P

Probably too wordy, but this is my email I sent to the boss. )

Be that as it may. It's all I've got. Why should I do poor work that will likely take it's toll in my personal well being just because I'm being asked to do something that isn't in my skill set?

Response from the boss. )

I do like the term mushroom. Well.At least it got the point across. He doesn't seem to be perturbed at all...

-Angela

You know

Mar. 9th, 2010 10:49 am
angelak: (Alone)
You know - I normally LOVE being in class.
Really, I love it.
But I really don't love this.
This is a bunch of stuff that is just too beyond me.

I don't even really know what to do about it at this point.

-Angela
angelak: (Lauren Graham Perturbed)
I'm updating here from within my Sharepoint Dev class. I woke up this morning with all intentions to be 111% positive and get as far as I could. Well - I actually had no idea what to expect, seeing as the only other Sharepoint classes I've taken were Netdesk classes. Which aren't really my favorite kind of classes.

I pretty much find the intensive book-work classes to be irritating.
But my boss likes them.

So - as is, here... I am taking a class through TLG Learning, it's over here in Factoria/Bellevue. This class is a mentor led class. We're all in the same classroom, watching different videos doing different labs, and the teacher is available the whole time for questions and guidance. Different.

In fact, I've never taken a class like this. Therefore, it took me the better part of 2 hours to really figure out what the hell I was doing. It began to make more sense once I broke in to how to do the labs in conjunction with the videos.

Confusing.

Now, this had me panicking when I couldn't figure out the lab material vs the video stuff in the first 2-3 hours. I began to feel like I was drowning in material I didn't understand. Also seeing some of this isn't really that important in regards to how I am already deploying Sharepoint. But then - I'm deploying Sharepoint as a total uber n00b.

So, most of the stuff I am doing isn't the most efficient way. The problem is that I know this. The problem is that I don't *KNOW* the most efficient way to deploy a Sharepoint site. I've taken a couple of week long classes. That is not the same as becoming a Sharepoint dev overnight. Not remotely. I've messed around with it from time to time in the last 2 years. I've been asked to deploy a test site and launch it, and present it to my director. I'm good at this sort of thing. I made a simple, rudimentary site. I excelled at presenting it to my director. I'm good at presentations (especially on the fly) and I'm good at working with people. I'm good at making things look good even when I have no idea EXACTLY what I am doing.

#1 mistake was being effective at this at least 2-3 different times in the last 3 years. These mini-launches have made an impact and make it look like I like doing it?! And that maybe I know what I am doing.

Let me assure you: I don't.

I'm not your greatest woman for "pretending intentionally" that I'm awesome at stuff. I admit when I suck, I admit when I'm awesome. And right now I admitted that I sucked at Sharepoint. This landed me in this training course as per my boss. My boss heard my admission to suckery as "Angela needs training! Perfect."

Yikes.

I might also add that very few people are getting training right now with as tight as the budget is, and SOMEHOW, out of some grace of the gods, (not sure what KIND of grace, you know - the evil, look.at.you - asshat, I.want.to.laugh.at.how.funny.it.is.to.see.you.sucking.at.something.you.also.dislike.doing sort of grace) I am one of the choice people who has landed training in our 2010 budget.

Whelps, folks. I'm trudging my way through the class and doing the best that I possibly can. This is the same attitude that has got me thus far - and thus far getting me into 111% trouble because it is clearly enough to land me this project, this training, and the continueing position of having my boss think it's... somehow... a good direction for my very stale career to head. Oh, gods. What a fucking mess.

-Angela

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