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Nov. 23rd, 2010 04:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angelakHello, LJ list. I know you've all been waiting for my latest post. Last night was wild. First off, I feel like I'm not workin' out enough, but there is a lot of other stuff going on in my life. For a solid 2 years, I can almost say I worked out to avoid dealing with the rest of my life. These days I'd rather do both. Work out AND deal with my life.
My original intention was to go home, be lazy with Jim, and eventually work out.
We got into pointless arguments.
I ended up bumping into the Mastermind weekly call - with my CGW folks. After that, they reminded me one of our fellow CGW people was putting on a webinar. His webinar was about starting your online business in 6 days. I almost jumped for the idea - I could go on and on about why or what or how. But this is really the reader's digest version of this. I was inspired - and ended up spending most of my night working on personal work projects. Problem being, they were projects and ideas I hadn't even considered prior. And suddenly I went from ZERO plans, to deadlines - to major financial decisions. This does NOT bode well for the Virgo Angela. I like to weigh, decide, perfect, get myself comfortable - and then spring into action. It's not a zero to 100mph thing for me. I DO have space now to begin working on a website to perhaps eventually launch products that include self defense informationals. If I had launched my stuff and gotten all my products together by Monday - I could seriously have had some MAJOR exposure on some major lists and serious traffic to my site. Problem being... I'm not ready for that. I don't have any quality data together, and to get it all together and build my own professional site, I would have to pretty much take my entire trip in Santa Barbara and be working.
Somehow, I didn't drop the cash on my plane ticket and the last few weeks of anticipation of enjoying my time with Sasha to *work* and stress the entire time. I made a major decision to fly out of town instead of do the usual thing - Drive down with Jim to Portland or do something else with my family.
Therefore, I've decided to stop with the breakneck stress and timeline, and do it on my time. This is the only way to be strong about this. Now, millions of visitors might have really launched me into another business state entirely, but not at the cost of what I have going on right now.
I slept crappy last night because I was mulling over business plans, cash flow, and how to get my content together. John's team would have put together my site for me with their best layout - for $300. I just got finished spending a goodly amount of cash on my phone, my plane ticket to LA, and in December - my Yoga membership is due at a spendy $500. Also - another seminar for some other work projects, I already signed up for.
Honestly, $300 more on top of that is not where I'm at right now. This other stuff I have managed to accept somehow without having a panic attack. (Somehow, it's working out, at the cost of a tiny bit of savings and the lack of car payment). So far, it's worth it.
Other than that - I've chosen to take a step back. I also want to ENJOY my life. All these work projects are great and growth geared. But I also need to stay sane. And I was beginning to see already what that would look like if I started losing it today ;) Basically, I'm really a face to face person anyway. I'll still build a site (ugh) and do some major focus on the web side... but definitely not in 6 days. Doing it in 6 days may work for some other people, particularly if they had all the web stuff handled, and some content already cranked out. But my content is all in my head because it was designed to be a workshop medium, not quite articles or products. That was something I had not even gotten to yet. And to force that issue ... probably would make me run, screaming. And not scared screaming. Unhappy screams of annoyance. That's no way to start out. At all.
Soooo, tonight I am going to lift some weights, relax, and get ready for my trip to Santa Barbara, instead of losing my mind and trying to complete work at a breakneck speed. And seriously connect with Jim in a positive way, before I head out of town. A part of me is very bummed to miss out on the Thanksgiving stuff in Portland. But a part of me is also glad to opt out of the stress. Because even if I love his family - I'm usually stressed when I go down. I'm not even sure why. Except I didn't experience that same stress with the Texas side of the family. I think it's just part of my energetic sensitivity and the level of broadcasting that happens in the Portland fam. It causes me to put up stronger shields, that eventually drain me by end-of-trip.
As for the snow. Can we see it melt already? Angela likes rain.
Also happy my bundle for my DROIDX showed up in the mail. I now have more than 1 charger to split between work and home. That was a pain in the ass. Now I can just unplug it and go, instead of constantly forgetting my damn charger in the wrong place.
So in regards to pushing too fast, too much, too soon - I flip the bird on that idea. It's time to live my life and love it. Not dread projects that I should be in love with (and typically am in love with.)
-Angela
My original intention was to go home, be lazy with Jim, and eventually work out.
We got into pointless arguments.
I ended up bumping into the Mastermind weekly call - with my CGW folks. After that, they reminded me one of our fellow CGW people was putting on a webinar. His webinar was about starting your online business in 6 days. I almost jumped for the idea - I could go on and on about why or what or how. But this is really the reader's digest version of this. I was inspired - and ended up spending most of my night working on personal work projects. Problem being, they were projects and ideas I hadn't even considered prior. And suddenly I went from ZERO plans, to deadlines - to major financial decisions. This does NOT bode well for the Virgo Angela. I like to weigh, decide, perfect, get myself comfortable - and then spring into action. It's not a zero to 100mph thing for me. I DO have space now to begin working on a website to perhaps eventually launch products that include self defense informationals. If I had launched my stuff and gotten all my products together by Monday - I could seriously have had some MAJOR exposure on some major lists and serious traffic to my site. Problem being... I'm not ready for that. I don't have any quality data together, and to get it all together and build my own professional site, I would have to pretty much take my entire trip in Santa Barbara and be working.
Somehow, I didn't drop the cash on my plane ticket and the last few weeks of anticipation of enjoying my time with Sasha to *work* and stress the entire time. I made a major decision to fly out of town instead of do the usual thing - Drive down with Jim to Portland or do something else with my family.
Therefore, I've decided to stop with the breakneck stress and timeline, and do it on my time. This is the only way to be strong about this. Now, millions of visitors might have really launched me into another business state entirely, but not at the cost of what I have going on right now.
I slept crappy last night because I was mulling over business plans, cash flow, and how to get my content together. John's team would have put together my site for me with their best layout - for $300. I just got finished spending a goodly amount of cash on my phone, my plane ticket to LA, and in December - my Yoga membership is due at a spendy $500. Also - another seminar for some other work projects, I already signed up for.
Honestly, $300 more on top of that is not where I'm at right now. This other stuff I have managed to accept somehow without having a panic attack. (Somehow, it's working out, at the cost of a tiny bit of savings and the lack of car payment). So far, it's worth it.
Other than that - I've chosen to take a step back. I also want to ENJOY my life. All these work projects are great and growth geared. But I also need to stay sane. And I was beginning to see already what that would look like if I started losing it today ;) Basically, I'm really a face to face person anyway. I'll still build a site (ugh) and do some major focus on the web side... but definitely not in 6 days. Doing it in 6 days may work for some other people, particularly if they had all the web stuff handled, and some content already cranked out. But my content is all in my head because it was designed to be a workshop medium, not quite articles or products. That was something I had not even gotten to yet. And to force that issue ... probably would make me run, screaming. And not scared screaming. Unhappy screams of annoyance. That's no way to start out. At all.
Soooo, tonight I am going to lift some weights, relax, and get ready for my trip to Santa Barbara, instead of losing my mind and trying to complete work at a breakneck speed. And seriously connect with Jim in a positive way, before I head out of town. A part of me is very bummed to miss out on the Thanksgiving stuff in Portland. But a part of me is also glad to opt out of the stress. Because even if I love his family - I'm usually stressed when I go down. I'm not even sure why. Except I didn't experience that same stress with the Texas side of the family. I think it's just part of my energetic sensitivity and the level of broadcasting that happens in the Portland fam. It causes me to put up stronger shields, that eventually drain me by end-of-trip.
As for the snow. Can we see it melt already? Angela likes rain.
Also happy my bundle for my DROIDX showed up in the mail. I now have more than 1 charger to split between work and home. That was a pain in the ass. Now I can just unplug it and go, instead of constantly forgetting my damn charger in the wrong place.
So in regards to pushing too fast, too much, too soon - I flip the bird on that idea. It's time to live my life and love it. Not dread projects that I should be in love with (and typically am in love with.)
-Angela
