Some random thoughts
Jun. 20th, 2011 08:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angelakBecause there has been some discussion about my LIVEJOURNALING habits, I better get on the ball here!
Even if they’re super short entries!!!
This weekend was fun filled. Yoga, family. Was fun hanging out with Jim too.
Now I have my work cut out for me. There’s no question now, I’m going to teacher training. This is going to be my path – come hell (probably) or high water (maybe near the beach!!! )
The money part still scares me sometimes, but I know I will be fine.
The time part still scares me sometimes…… you know, I could have taken some nice month long _no work_ stints and be kicking back relaxing.
But instead I’m choosing something else. I think I can do that later in life anyway. I mean, given my age… I can’t imagine I will ever look back and regret doing things this way. Which is a good sign obviously!!!
I think given the universe twirling into a conspirator role here, I can’t even argue that for the last 2 years, since late 2009 – I had really begun seriously considering it. And although my vision of what it might be was not exactly the one I carry today, it still persisted. I don’t have any pure vision of how well this will work on the side of my current job, but I do know that it’s worth picking up the skill, it’s worth taking the journey for me, it’s worth following through on.
And that I will find a way to learn this dialogue! I think the dialogue daunts me more than the idea of practicing 12 classes per week. Although I have yet to even imagine what that is going to feel like 100%.
I’ve never been one of those yogis who did 60 day challenges for grins. I did a couple of 30 day challenges, and most of the time I was frustrated at how my level of social interaction outside of my job suffered. I think that doing training will not cause my social interactions to suffer at all – the converse. I will never have any solo time anymore – and it WILL be my full time job for 2 months. Way more full time than my current job, actually. Because free time is a joke in training. ;)
So, there in lies the chance to really go deep. In so many ways. I can’t even begin to imagine what happens to your practice when you are doing that much yoga... I also cannot even imagine the number of people I will instantaneously become emotionally close with through this process. Like I said once, it will be much akin to CGW energy, but multiplied because it will be a longer term situation.
Finally I have talked out most of my fears and concerns. So I have 4 months to prepare for this. I think that is the ideal amount of time, actually. Short enough so I don’t shrug off the seriousness of my focus, and long enough that I may actually get somewhere with the dialogue on my own before the real ordeal begins.
Today is the day that I will begin figuring out methods and possibly benchmarks for when I get these postures memorized in the beginning of this booklet. I think the beginning will be the hardest for me. Starting and getting that memorize this during my everyday life thing locked in. But... reminding myself that I don’t want the first posture to suck because Bikram himself critiques in front of 300+ people will be enough to jump start it. I don't want to be one of his horror stories.
He’ll still have something to pick apart I am sure, but I’ll be damned if I will not know it 100% before going – the parts I know he will be doing the “opening” evilness with. And mark my words, if I can swing it, I will totally try and go first when I get there. I like to get shit that freaks me out over with earlier than later (just how I roll).
Anyways. Not sure what else to write except I have to work hard at work between now and then… most of the time. I should have plenty of time to memorize dialogue when I am not doing the requests lol.
I will just be glad when I get my wardrobe set up. I will be on the look out for 12 outfits before Late Sept. I think I have about half of the amount of yoga clothes that I will need. I will be sad to see some of my favorite stuff being permeated by the time November comes... and yet. I'll just buy more for my new "post training" practice, right? No biggie.
:)
-Angela
Even if they’re super short entries!!!
This weekend was fun filled. Yoga, family. Was fun hanging out with Jim too.
Now I have my work cut out for me. There’s no question now, I’m going to teacher training. This is going to be my path – come hell (probably) or high water (maybe near the beach!!! )
The money part still scares me sometimes, but I know I will be fine.
The time part still scares me sometimes…… you know, I could have taken some nice month long _no work_ stints and be kicking back relaxing.
But instead I’m choosing something else. I think I can do that later in life anyway. I mean, given my age… I can’t imagine I will ever look back and regret doing things this way. Which is a good sign obviously!!!
I think given the universe twirling into a conspirator role here, I can’t even argue that for the last 2 years, since late 2009 – I had really begun seriously considering it. And although my vision of what it might be was not exactly the one I carry today, it still persisted. I don’t have any pure vision of how well this will work on the side of my current job, but I do know that it’s worth picking up the skill, it’s worth taking the journey for me, it’s worth following through on.
And that I will find a way to learn this dialogue! I think the dialogue daunts me more than the idea of practicing 12 classes per week. Although I have yet to even imagine what that is going to feel like 100%.
I’ve never been one of those yogis who did 60 day challenges for grins. I did a couple of 30 day challenges, and most of the time I was frustrated at how my level of social interaction outside of my job suffered. I think that doing training will not cause my social interactions to suffer at all – the converse. I will never have any solo time anymore – and it WILL be my full time job for 2 months. Way more full time than my current job, actually. Because free time is a joke in training. ;)
So, there in lies the chance to really go deep. In so many ways. I can’t even begin to imagine what happens to your practice when you are doing that much yoga... I also cannot even imagine the number of people I will instantaneously become emotionally close with through this process. Like I said once, it will be much akin to CGW energy, but multiplied because it will be a longer term situation.
Finally I have talked out most of my fears and concerns. So I have 4 months to prepare for this. I think that is the ideal amount of time, actually. Short enough so I don’t shrug off the seriousness of my focus, and long enough that I may actually get somewhere with the dialogue on my own before the real ordeal begins.
Today is the day that I will begin figuring out methods and possibly benchmarks for when I get these postures memorized in the beginning of this booklet. I think the beginning will be the hardest for me. Starting and getting that memorize this during my everyday life thing locked in. But... reminding myself that I don’t want the first posture to suck because Bikram himself critiques in front of 300+ people will be enough to jump start it. I don't want to be one of his horror stories.
He’ll still have something to pick apart I am sure, but I’ll be damned if I will not know it 100% before going – the parts I know he will be doing the “opening” evilness with. And mark my words, if I can swing it, I will totally try and go first when I get there. I like to get shit that freaks me out over with earlier than later (just how I roll).
Anyways. Not sure what else to write except I have to work hard at work between now and then… most of the time. I should have plenty of time to memorize dialogue when I am not doing the requests lol.
I will just be glad when I get my wardrobe set up. I will be on the look out for 12 outfits before Late Sept. I think I have about half of the amount of yoga clothes that I will need. I will be sad to see some of my favorite stuff being permeated by the time November comes... and yet. I'll just buy more for my new "post training" practice, right? No biggie.
:)
-Angela
