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angelakMaybe I should begin the countdown for training? I’m not really a countdown sort of person, though. Or maybe I am? Who am I kidding...? ;) I just titled it that because this really shows the days are slowly dwindling. I admit it. I’d rather just let it creep up on me. I tend to be impatient about jumping in and doing things. The more anxious I am, the more impatient I am. The unknown is more of an annoyance. I’d rather create it into a known as fast as possible… and I know that isn’t necessarily the best approach. So lately, I’ve been muddling around finding ways to enjoy the journey preceding the journey, as it were.
It’s coming soon enough, and I still have much work to do. More dialogue… more preparation, you know. Getting the house ready to be without me. Getting myself ready with the right supplies so when I have no house, but a home of one hotel room, it will be easier to transition. You know. A few loose plans about how to live life without easy ways to prepare meals, stuff like that.
The one thing I’d also like to know sooner than later is who I am rooming with. Karen Wong definitely put me down, but she also put down another girl from Vancouver. So, as I knew anyway, this wasn’t a sure bet. If it happens, it happens. Who even knows. I will just be imagining the best on that one.
Also work. I am getting my last bits of work done at the City of Issaquah. You know. Personal folders migrating into sub folders of the inbox for everyone in CHNW. This is incredibly tedious and menial… in fact, I am doing it right now while I write this post. But that is the good news. I’ve used it to study dialogue sometimes. And just now I figured I might as well write an update. In any case, the boss man did suggest recruiting DC on this. (Cow orker named by his initials). I call DC DC because it makes him feel more hip to me, and if he is more hip, I will like him better and treat him better. Very simple.
And then the MEP project. Judy and I have the training set up for the inventory system that is my MEP for the Tuesday after my birthday. I am taking my birthday off. This is good news. It also keeps my vacation accrueing, but not losing any of it. Anyway, MEP… I hate it because of the company causing me to push this to my last possible minute. But I am intent on making it all work and happen before I literally jet. And then Judy can do her half and we can all be happy and I can earn the extra cash for January 2012 to pay down some of the minor debt involved in training. So, eye on the prize – Angela. It doesn’t take a genius to get this done, and so I can do it. I just hate that it is now happening with a time crunch. Oh well, it will help me learn to get used to that as I go into TT, right?
I am referring people to watch for my posts here after I jet, by the way. This is where it’s all at. I could have created a separate blog for my TT experience… except that I am in love with my LJ, and this is where all of my life archiving goes.
I see a lot of people on the TT Fall 2011 group being all scared about many aspects. It reinforces the idea that each and every person going is going to have a unique and independent journey through the course, even if we’re all there for each other and will become one big giant family. Functional and dysfunctional, indeed. I do feel good that I saw Jessica, who is also going from my home studio – the other day in class and after class. Spoke a bit, that’s good. Also nice that I have friends from the TT FB group already, so I will go and people will likely already recognize me. I’m a high poster anywhere I go on the internet. And as usual – that means people recognize me. Most of the time I look like my profile pictures ;)
I do have fears that using photos from 1-2 years ago is false advertisement, and that I don’t really look that great anymore. I have a lot of ridiculous hang ups. It’s going to be amazing to see how absurd they taunt me in training, or how I can learn to move past them because I won’t be able to avoid them.
I also will not have my normal support system in place. A new one will be there. And surely some from expected places, and maybe some from places I least imagine… my goal is to be pro-active about being supportive to my fellow teachers at any time possible.
And whenever I disagree with people, to drop it as soon as possible to minimize unnecessary drama. People are all different, and so am I. And yes, some people do not connect well with each other. Good to accept that and shrug it off as a part of the experience.
I also predict that while we have “2 hours homework time” when not in posture clinic, to be found either from sleeping hours or from the meal time breaks… this will probably be far easier to focus on than my hours at home. There is something about studying at home, studying at work, studying everywhere in Washington right now that just feels very, very difficult. Fighting that is tiring, so now I accept that I might be killing myself before I even go by not being as far as I could be. But you know – I’ve accepted that and made space for that. I know what’s what. I’ll make it either way. Worrying…
I am letting a lot of worry go.
My bigger issue is being frustrated with the buffer 10lbs I have. My body image pretty much blows. There have been times in my life where this was not true. I was fine. Some of those times were times when I was less fit, and also fatter than I am now. Doesn’t change the fact that now, I got some issues. ;)
Regardless, working hard daily to stop being so mean to me. That’s super hard. Apparently I like to be nice to most everyone else, but when it comes to myself, I’m a little harsh on me. I get better and better with time. I also happen to know in large groups I pretty much forget about some of these issues.
Good news.
Especially the busier I am. So we’ll see how that works. More good news: I have so many nice yoga clothes I am taking with me, so that is going to help. Although I could have murdered Amber when I realized she got a hold of my pretty dress that I bought on clearance with beads on the straps and removed some of them. But I didn’t. I did not murder my beloved 7 month old Dachshund. I just whined and whined at her and complained. She just stared back blankly. The beads aren’t ruined, but I will have to make sure they don’t unravel the rest of the way or something???? Ahhhh Puppies.
This is why I had fantasized about a grown dog… but Jimmers was right. We needed a puppy somehow. And she was the Right Dog.
So, I did start taking care of most of my last to-do items on my list this week.
I was forced to order new yoga mats. I have no green stuff (Bikram will not allow any green in his studio). EXCEPT… you guessed it, my yoga mats. Mostly green, except for the blue ones. I somehow have lost the blue mat I bought last year for my 26th birthday. Hmmm. Where did you go, Blue mat?
So, those are currently being shipped to my house now. Jim bought me an amazing water bottle for my birthday, and that too is headed over. I also purchased a couple of cases of Larabars. This will save me money from spending full price or having to pay $5 to ship them down there (service desk at the hotel has a $5 package charge – fine for my big trunk of stuff I will be mailing down, but not fine for smaller items unless I REALLY need them).
Also – today on lunch my protein powder showed up. I had it for lunch to be honest, because my lunch was so busy. Long story… it’s chocolate flavored and is made of all 3 kinds of proteins (soy, whey, and whatever the third is that I am forgetting). This is beneficial because everyone is always arguing over “which one is best.” This is a low cal blend of all 3, flavored as chocolate. I got a 5lb bag.
I might be using it before I leave a bit because it tastes so good and I want to test it ;)
I am sure in the next 3-4 weeks, I won’t finish off a full 5lbs of protein powder…
There should still be plenty for me to whip up in my hotel room in Los Angeles. ;)
Anyways, this has gone on a bit. Needless to say, things are going well over here. Just getting all my stuff together. More later.
-Angela
It’s coming soon enough, and I still have much work to do. More dialogue… more preparation, you know. Getting the house ready to be without me. Getting myself ready with the right supplies so when I have no house, but a home of one hotel room, it will be easier to transition. You know. A few loose plans about how to live life without easy ways to prepare meals, stuff like that.
The one thing I’d also like to know sooner than later is who I am rooming with. Karen Wong definitely put me down, but she also put down another girl from Vancouver. So, as I knew anyway, this wasn’t a sure bet. If it happens, it happens. Who even knows. I will just be imagining the best on that one.
Also work. I am getting my last bits of work done at the City of Issaquah. You know. Personal folders migrating into sub folders of the inbox for everyone in CHNW. This is incredibly tedious and menial… in fact, I am doing it right now while I write this post. But that is the good news. I’ve used it to study dialogue sometimes. And just now I figured I might as well write an update. In any case, the boss man did suggest recruiting DC on this. (Cow orker named by his initials). I call DC DC because it makes him feel more hip to me, and if he is more hip, I will like him better and treat him better. Very simple.
And then the MEP project. Judy and I have the training set up for the inventory system that is my MEP for the Tuesday after my birthday. I am taking my birthday off. This is good news. It also keeps my vacation accrueing, but not losing any of it. Anyway, MEP… I hate it because of the company causing me to push this to my last possible minute. But I am intent on making it all work and happen before I literally jet. And then Judy can do her half and we can all be happy and I can earn the extra cash for January 2012 to pay down some of the minor debt involved in training. So, eye on the prize – Angela. It doesn’t take a genius to get this done, and so I can do it. I just hate that it is now happening with a time crunch. Oh well, it will help me learn to get used to that as I go into TT, right?
I am referring people to watch for my posts here after I jet, by the way. This is where it’s all at. I could have created a separate blog for my TT experience… except that I am in love with my LJ, and this is where all of my life archiving goes.
I see a lot of people on the TT Fall 2011 group being all scared about many aspects. It reinforces the idea that each and every person going is going to have a unique and independent journey through the course, even if we’re all there for each other and will become one big giant family. Functional and dysfunctional, indeed. I do feel good that I saw Jessica, who is also going from my home studio – the other day in class and after class. Spoke a bit, that’s good. Also nice that I have friends from the TT FB group already, so I will go and people will likely already recognize me. I’m a high poster anywhere I go on the internet. And as usual – that means people recognize me. Most of the time I look like my profile pictures ;)
I do have fears that using photos from 1-2 years ago is false advertisement, and that I don’t really look that great anymore. I have a lot of ridiculous hang ups. It’s going to be amazing to see how absurd they taunt me in training, or how I can learn to move past them because I won’t be able to avoid them.
I also will not have my normal support system in place. A new one will be there. And surely some from expected places, and maybe some from places I least imagine… my goal is to be pro-active about being supportive to my fellow teachers at any time possible.
And whenever I disagree with people, to drop it as soon as possible to minimize unnecessary drama. People are all different, and so am I. And yes, some people do not connect well with each other. Good to accept that and shrug it off as a part of the experience.
I also predict that while we have “2 hours homework time” when not in posture clinic, to be found either from sleeping hours or from the meal time breaks… this will probably be far easier to focus on than my hours at home. There is something about studying at home, studying at work, studying everywhere in Washington right now that just feels very, very difficult. Fighting that is tiring, so now I accept that I might be killing myself before I even go by not being as far as I could be. But you know – I’ve accepted that and made space for that. I know what’s what. I’ll make it either way. Worrying…
I am letting a lot of worry go.
My bigger issue is being frustrated with the buffer 10lbs I have. My body image pretty much blows. There have been times in my life where this was not true. I was fine. Some of those times were times when I was less fit, and also fatter than I am now. Doesn’t change the fact that now, I got some issues. ;)
Regardless, working hard daily to stop being so mean to me. That’s super hard. Apparently I like to be nice to most everyone else, but when it comes to myself, I’m a little harsh on me. I get better and better with time. I also happen to know in large groups I pretty much forget about some of these issues.
Good news.
Especially the busier I am. So we’ll see how that works. More good news: I have so many nice yoga clothes I am taking with me, so that is going to help. Although I could have murdered Amber when I realized she got a hold of my pretty dress that I bought on clearance with beads on the straps and removed some of them. But I didn’t. I did not murder my beloved 7 month old Dachshund. I just whined and whined at her and complained. She just stared back blankly. The beads aren’t ruined, but I will have to make sure they don’t unravel the rest of the way or something???? Ahhhh Puppies.
This is why I had fantasized about a grown dog… but Jimmers was right. We needed a puppy somehow. And she was the Right Dog.
So, I did start taking care of most of my last to-do items on my list this week.
I was forced to order new yoga mats. I have no green stuff (Bikram will not allow any green in his studio). EXCEPT… you guessed it, my yoga mats. Mostly green, except for the blue ones. I somehow have lost the blue mat I bought last year for my 26th birthday. Hmmm. Where did you go, Blue mat?
So, those are currently being shipped to my house now. Jim bought me an amazing water bottle for my birthday, and that too is headed over. I also purchased a couple of cases of Larabars. This will save me money from spending full price or having to pay $5 to ship them down there (service desk at the hotel has a $5 package charge – fine for my big trunk of stuff I will be mailing down, but not fine for smaller items unless I REALLY need them).
Also – today on lunch my protein powder showed up. I had it for lunch to be honest, because my lunch was so busy. Long story… it’s chocolate flavored and is made of all 3 kinds of proteins (soy, whey, and whatever the third is that I am forgetting). This is beneficial because everyone is always arguing over “which one is best.” This is a low cal blend of all 3, flavored as chocolate. I got a 5lb bag.
I might be using it before I leave a bit because it tastes so good and I want to test it ;)
I am sure in the next 3-4 weeks, I won’t finish off a full 5lbs of protein powder…
There should still be plenty for me to whip up in my hotel room in Los Angeles. ;)
Anyways, this has gone on a bit. Needless to say, things are going well over here. Just getting all my stuff together. More later.
-Angela
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The Journey
Date: 2011-08-25 12:37 am (UTC)Re: The Journey
Date: 2011-08-25 01:04 am (UTC)And you can see how big Amber has become! lol.
-Angela