Stuff; lots of lj-cuts. I am an lj-cutting-whore.

[angelak]

Sean ciall was good, rehearsing is what I find important. We DO talk too much. Bobby drones on and on. I love Bobby dearly, but seriously---he drags things out.
It was bad because I had a slight panic attack when I realized there is a meeting TONIGHT. I had told Steve I would spend the next 2 days with him. I had no idea there was a meeting scheduled!!!

I didn’t want to deal with it at all. I didn’t want to explain to him that I REALLY needed to make this all circle meeting. It totally got me down. Suddenly Bobby’s droning just was nearly impossible to sit still through, and it was just that my patience shrunk after I began feeling anxiety about dealing with Steve. He got annoyed at me some point and asked if I had something to share with the group. Frankly, as I was speaking it, I felt like crying. But again, that’s generally where it’s at. “FEEL like.” I never really do.

It’s hard to understand or really know how this situation is. Previously it’s felt like this constant struggle to go to places I needed to go to [engagements.] So now I’m actually weary of even discussing them with Steve. Yes, it’s bad.

Though in the end, he wasn’t upset because I in turn said I’d spend Friday with him. It really wasn’t that big of a deal, but I really REALLY freaked out. It hit me in a serious form of depression those 2 hours. Instead I tried to immerse myself in rehearsing.

All in all, it ended okay, after much deep breath-taking and speaking Gaelic, I was less upset.




Afterwards we drove to Issaquah and Cheryl, Inna, and I went to Krispie Kremes. That was fun. It was relaxing. I mean relaxing in all senses of the word. To spend time with friends and not have some kind of agenda. To talk and walk and laugh and not care.

To watch dumb people laugh at us [oh gods, little teenyboppers bother me.. NOT]....
We went for a walk from the donut place to my house. Then we walked the 2 dogs back to the cars. It was a later night than I should have had, but I think it was good for me. I was able to wind down and not freak out so much.

Speaking of freaking out, Fritzo was being skitzo when we got to our place. Case of separation anxiety if I saw one :X He must not be used to being left alone, after spending pretty much all week with Steve, and all weekend with us!


Anyway. Steve didn’t shit a brick about my sean ciall meeting, and it was way easier than I had anticipated.




There’s 2 entries in specifics I wanted to write about. The Saturday Lianna came to visit, and this last weekend. But right now, there just isn’t a good chance for me to get to it. *crash* goes my blood sugar right now. I should run over to Front Street Market and grab a quick snack.





I won’t be carpooling today. A brief note for Inna my dear: today Tully’s is out of the way. And for most intensive purposes, it’s best to request rides like half a day in advance, for planning purposes. 10 minutes or an hour before is a bit short notice. Especially when the locations change. ;) THANKS!


Anyway. The boss is gone and I am left here, with 30 minutes left—of an otherwise hella busy day. I can’t wait to see people. This time I get to relax and enjoy sean ciall, because I know of all plans and Steve won’t be unhappy with me.

I’m sorry to everyone who I may have been rude to. :D

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You are	a pegasus
with the power to control	space
and you will use them	to help people
because you are	the damned devil him/herself
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-Angela

Comments

(from inna)

[(Anonymous)]

Oh I just read this NOW but that's ok.. I randomly though "omgs I cant ask angela for a ride.. again." and remembered it was an ALL circle meeting..and so I ended up calling Jackie and so yeah.. yay.

I agree. KK was fun and relaxing.

Insane FoL season is ALMOST OVER!!!! :D YAAAAAAAAAAY!

-Inna