Work.

[angelak]

I'll be going to work today.
Yeay.
My co-worker was in front of me on the drive in from Cheryl's mom's house.
He saw me take my dogs out of the car to put them in the Duplex.
He's going to ask questions, like why I was away in the first place.

*deep sigh* I can do this.
But if it isn't too great to ask....
Healing energy would be entirely welcome right now; as my heart burns in it's own painful way...

Maybe I'll cry today.

-Angela

Comments

I still love you

[aroidan.livejournal.com]

I know you feel that you had to do this because you were dragging me through to much crap. I know that you think that I was trying to change just for you. In both cases you are wrong. I don't know what I can do to show you that. I still plan on attending Spell Circle and Oloteas. Why? because they are fun and expanding my views on things. I don't like having a closed mind.

I wish we could talk this out. Not that I want to persuade you out of it really. I mean I do but that wouldn't be my reason for trying to talk it out still. If you are worried about me controlling you to much still then lets talk about that. If you want to expand the Poly rules that we had set up or abolish them all together then lets talk about that.

I am sorry that I read your emails at times. I am sorry that I told your parents that you are poly but I needed someone to talk to. I am probably not going to tell my parents anything about it for now. Why? because I am a persistant bastard and I am not giving up on winning your heart back. Even if it kills me. You need some space for now and I understand that. But I am not giving up and assuming that that is perminant.

I don't know how long it will take, but you know me. You know that I never give up on anything. I am not going to harass you or anything like that but I am not giving up on our love.

BTW you said you came home from cheryls? why were you there?

I love you,

-Steven

Re: I still love you

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

"I'm sorry," does not make it all go away.
You are not the reason I am leaving you.
I am.
I want this.

-Angela

Re: I still love you

[aroidan.livejournal.com]

I know you want this. But it is in my heart of hearts to try and keep/reignite our love. I am not giving up on you just because you are giving up on us. You should know that by now. Sometimes the road gets cloaded over and it is unclear which way you should go. I promised to love you forever and never give up on us and while I have come darn close to doing that in the past not anymore.

You said I had to face my fear of losing you. And I have for a day. I am no longer afraid of losing you. Why? Because you will always be in my heart and mind. You will always help guide me when I am lost. I will love you eternally.

We have many issues which I feel much more comfortable dealing with now. My realization that I will never lose you makes it that much easier to deal with.

I had a fear, A fear that ran so deep in my vains that it threatened to destroy me. I had a fear, That could destroy me.
I have faced my fear, I have let it pass through me. And standing on the other side of it I see that from the end of one era can bring the birth of a new. That once you love someone you can never un-love them. The love may get clouded and not as easy to see at times but it is always there.

I used to be a lot more philosophical back in high school. Somewhere along the line I let that part of me slip away when I shouldn't have.

My love for you is eternal, and is always changing. My views on polotics, religion, philosophy are changing. They change because I want them to change. They change because I allow them to change. I will always have a place for my core beliefs. I will always love and forgive people who wrong me. I have no place for grudges. They will only tear apart my soul over time.

I want to talk with you, even if only for 30 minutes or an hour.

I love you,

-Steve

healing energy

[oceanor.livejournal.com]

i will send some healing energy to u ... The Mhorragu changes us. and only gives us what we can handle even thugh we may not see it.. it will get better

Re: healing energy

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thanks, Thom.

-Angela

No problem

[dragonfaery93.livejournal.com]

Seriously, no problem. I'm glad to be able to help out however I can. Don't forget to breathe, to eat, and to take it one day at a time.


Sometimes shit is just shit, and that's all. Time, rest, and comfort are your three most helpful things right now. Take time to just relax, and take time to mourn. Yes Angela, to mourn. Everybody is here for you, don't hesitate to ring any of us up at any hour.

"Together we weave the chrysalis ship
As under dreaming waves we slip
We weave the blue green isle of life
Spun by stars… in the womb of night" (Unknown chant author)



Muchos huggles,
Cheryl

[herongrrrl.livejournal.com]

Oh, hon.

Whatever you need, anything at all, let us know. Sending you energy for clarity and healing.

Do whatever you need to do for yourself, and know we're here for you.

*big, big hugs*

[chinchillagirl.livejournal.com]

*hugs... lots of hugs* I know so many people have already said this to you... and even if you're sick of hearing it, I'm gonna say it too. I'm here for you. Maybe we can get together sometime soon, spending time with you seems to make everything horrible go away for a little while.
I know you can make it through all this crap, you're one of the strongest people I know.

[dreams-in-mime.livejournal.com]

You are a smart and strong woman. You have all you need to live in bliss inside you, it is your lot to be happy. This is part of life, it will suck from time to time... it's your spirit that will heal you and keep you.
Seriously steve, not cool with the outing. Regardless of your relationship, and where it goes from here, you should consider this a HUGE lesson. I hope you learn and grow from this, you seem like a good guy.
Back to you Angela. You can count on me for a boost if ya need it. You have a good head on ya, you will be more than fine in double time. Lotta love and strength.
-J