Work.

[angelak]

I'll be going to work today.
Yeay.
My co-worker was in front of me on the drive in from Cheryl's mom's house.
He saw me take my dogs out of the car to put them in the Duplex.
He's going to ask questions, like why I was away in the first place.

*deep sigh* I can do this.
But if it isn't too great to ask....
Healing energy would be entirely welcome right now; as my heart burns in it's own painful way...

Maybe I'll cry today.

-Angela

Comments

I still love you

[aroidan.livejournal.com]

I know you feel that you had to do this because you were dragging me through to much crap. I know that you think that I was trying to change just for you. In both cases you are wrong. I don't know what I can do to show you that. I still plan on attending Spell Circle and Oloteas. Why? because they are fun and expanding my views on things. I don't like having a closed mind.

I wish we could talk this out. Not that I want to persuade you out of it really. I mean I do but that wouldn't be my reason for trying to talk it out still. If you are worried about me controlling you to much still then lets talk about that. If you want to expand the Poly rules that we had set up or abolish them all together then lets talk about that.

I am sorry that I read your emails at times. I am sorry that I told your parents that you are poly but I needed someone to talk to. I am probably not going to tell my parents anything about it for now. Why? because I am a persistant bastard and I am not giving up on winning your heart back. Even if it kills me. You need some space for now and I understand that. But I am not giving up and assuming that that is perminant.

I don't know how long it will take, but you know me. You know that I never give up on anything. I am not going to harass you or anything like that but I am not giving up on our love.

BTW you said you came home from cheryls? why were you there?

I love you,

-Steven

Re: I still love you

[ithisia.livejournal.com]

"I'm sorry," does not make it all go away.
You are not the reason I am leaving you.
I am.
I want this.

-Angela

Re: I still love you

[aroidan.livejournal.com]

I know you want this. But it is in my heart of hearts to try and keep/reignite our love. I am not giving up on you just because you are giving up on us. You should know that by now. Sometimes the road gets cloaded over and it is unclear which way you should go. I promised to love you forever and never give up on us and while I have come darn close to doing that in the past not anymore.

You said I had to face my fear of losing you. And I have for a day. I am no longer afraid of losing you. Why? Because you will always be in my heart and mind. You will always help guide me when I am lost. I will love you eternally.

We have many issues which I feel much more comfortable dealing with now. My realization that I will never lose you makes it that much easier to deal with.

I had a fear, A fear that ran so deep in my vains that it threatened to destroy me. I had a fear, That could destroy me.
I have faced my fear, I have let it pass through me. And standing on the other side of it I see that from the end of one era can bring the birth of a new. That once you love someone you can never un-love them. The love may get clouded and not as easy to see at times but it is always there.

I used to be a lot more philosophical back in high school. Somewhere along the line I let that part of me slip away when I shouldn't have.

My love for you is eternal, and is always changing. My views on polotics, religion, philosophy are changing. They change because I want them to change. They change because I allow them to change. I will always have a place for my core beliefs. I will always love and forgive people who wrong me. I have no place for grudges. They will only tear apart my soul over time.

I want to talk with you, even if only for 30 minutes or an hour.

I love you,

-Steve