Deeper than the Surface

I beat my 2007 time by roughly 2 minutes.
I clocked in at 30 minutes on the dot last year.
This year I got 27:52. Not bad considering I've been struggling with this damn injury for 6 months.

I posted some photos of the happy morning on my flickr page:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/24197129@N08/sets/72157607784608660/detail/

There are some cute ones of me and Jim.
lol. I regretted wearing the second layer in the run halfway through. It made me overheat. Oops. Dumb.

-Angela

!!!!!
It has been a long time coming - it was that light in the distance when I started, or when I had a good run, or when I had a bad run that was always there for me. To help me remember that I can push harder, no matter what obstacles were.

TODAY, I have ran my first jaunt to the end of Gilman Blvd and back. 4.2 miles.
Arbitrary number? But it was "to the end of the road," that I had made my "someday" goal.
This in 35 minutes - stopping the clock once very briefly for a stop light.

I had reached my 4 miles 3-4 weeks ago, but was interrupted by vacation. This morning I felt I had to go for it! I hit the end of the road, not only today - but now my run is over for the day! I may take Fritz out tonight and see how he does.

Oh - and I saw yet another raccoon. I see them a lot in the morning-run times. I wish I could motivate to run early every day. But 5AM is a tough blow sometimes. :P It is way less traffic ridden and stop-oriented. Which makes my run smoother. I have been contemplating adding some different fun to my runs. Some intense hills, more trail runs, Fritz... different routes and such. Just to keep me in the game mind wise. It really helps to mix it up.

Also, perhaps I should check into a mid-year 5K. I'm not particularly ready for a 10K even if I am capable, lol!

I'd really like to take him as an occasional running partner. I have been working today also on focusing on my form. Less is more. Less movement gives me more of it for less energy. This is simple and easy on one hand, and a bit challenging on the other. I think I use a few more calf muscles in doing so that sort of started to feel a shift around mile 3. I am thinking my natural running form luckily isn't too poor - because they often say not to OVER modify.

Well, so today is my victory day.
I achieved what I once thought was... a "one day," goal!

HAH! I can do more. ;)

-Angela

Blah. Snow is interfering with my plans to run.
More people are frustrated at my lack of responsiveness lately.
Or something.

(Jon).

I just... I guess I just am not in the head space right now. Sounds dumb, but I'd wage to say this is a first in my life. That I've felt good about taking some space to myself. Is it space or the fact that I've just got a different agenda than I've had before? It was always about who was in my life, over what. And now in some ways I feel like the "what" is right next to "who."

I'm just not sure how to handle things seeing as it feels like a lot of animosity is directed at me. It makes me want to run and hide :P

I guess I had a lot of drama in my life there for a few years. And maybe this is just me being VERY shy of drama.

It makes it look like I don't care, but I do.
Anyways. So the snow has ruined my run for the time being. This week was the first week in a few months I have fallen short of 5 workouts in a week.

Friday I felt queasy (fine excuse) and last night I was exhausted from getting up at 5AM to go to the Casino with Grandma and my parents and then doing her Christmas shopping. Mine is mostly done and I choose weird hours to go.

It is exhausting to be with Grandma on many levels too, I'd explain but...that might take a while. So suffice to say after a long day fighting the hollyday crowds and getting up early after feeling a bit blah on Friday... I got home and had no energy to run or circuit train. That was disappointing. And now today it is snowing. Mark my words, I will CT or run. !!! Lol.

Because technically this is the beginning of a new week for me. (I log my exercise Sun-Sat).
Anyways. So, now - seeing as I have limited time before I head out to Tacoma to go to Ft. Lewis for an Army Yulemas get together... I really have no option but to deal with my fitness plan for the day later.

I am just saying I hate snow. I've seen some cool fold up treadmills, but I honestly don't have a lot of cash to buy anything like that, and I have an exercise bike that I have not yet abandoned, but ... well, the dilemma lies. I had no idea I'd be less lazy and super-anal about my less-laziness when I bought the recumbent stationary bike.

Fuck. Now I wish I had a fold-up treadmill. I could have jumped on it and been done by now after discovering my snow dilemma. See?

Fuck. I saw a really nice one for like $400 on CL. But like I have $400 in my back pocket. My financial conquests of "getting ahead" are still on. And with payroll shifting to a different schedule next month, I know there will be a dry spell in January. Blarg. Ah, well. I am looking forward to spending time with Jimmy at the Army Yulemas thing. And now I should go put clothes on and look decent so I can leave. And go drive in snow. Woooofuckinghooo.

-Angela